I have been MIA for a few weeks now, I am back and ready to get down to business, that is the plan, I think.
I have this tendency to have an action plan all ready and then somehow I fail to get parts of it done. On Monday, November 28th I was all rip roaring ready to go, eat healthy and get my sweat on using the Supreme 90 Day DVD's. Well Monday came and went and I didnt' do either, I had a dentist appointment after work that lasted longer than I anticipated, it was only a cleaning but my mouth was super sore, let me just add that I have great teeth but they are super sensitive!! So supper was a cheesy brat and mac and cheese! Less than a stellar day there. On to Tues, I did the DVD, it was chest and back day, I ate great at work , but supper was from Taco Johns, once again, not good. Wednesday, I ate really good at work, came home binged, then went to the gym and did 51 minuets on the elliptical which was 570 calories according to the machine. I didn't wear my HRM. I did not do S90 day as planned but I went to the gym. Today I had a great eating day at work, came home and binged, not as bad as yesterday, felt the guilt so I headed off to the gym. I did 65 minutes on the elliptical, 730 calories burned, once again I did not do the S90 DVD but I did go to the gym.
My problem is when I get home there is a little voice inside my head that says " binge, eat whatever you want" I give in and do it, then another voice says " seriously now move your ass to the gym and work off at least some of what you just ate" so I do!! What is up with this? Why do I binge? Why, when I get home do I have no self control? Why can I never do a whole action plan, eat right and workout?
These are my choices and for the life of me I can't figure out why I make poor ones. The consequences for my choices right now are my own fault.
How do I work through this and do what I know must be done and further more know that I CAN do it?
I could easily give up, however the consequence to that is far greater than being stuck in this rut right now!! Never give up, never give in, but I sure do feel like it at times.
Check out Sabrina, read her post Tales From a Fitting Room. Eye opening and honest. Thank- you Sabrina!! Maybe I can start hearing that song in my head instead of the little voice!!!