Wacked out Weekend

Friday I was feeling much better! I got up and had a protein bar then headed out to Body Pump with Misty. After class we picked up the girls and went to lunch at Applebee's. I had the French Dip sliders and French onion soup. It was good except the soup was burnt on the top and I am not a fan of burnt food, so I didn't finish all of it. For supper I had a hamburger and tater tots from the Burger Emporium. Very good. Pat and I went down to Woodbury Days to listen to the band, and we shared some mini donuts.

Saturday was off to a good start, I had a protein bar for breakfast then off to the gym to try out my new shoes!!! LIVE STRONG NIKE'S!! love them. I did 3 miles on the treadmill in 35 minutes. While driving home we decided that we would get subs from Subway for lunch. I had a 6inch ham and cheese. I had a few fun-yuns with it when I got home and a dt dew. On the way home from the gym is when I got the call that Todd had died. This was such a shock!!! So very, very sad!! We then headed to the Eden Prairie Mall for a little shopping. On the way home we had to take the LONG way because of road construction so we stopped by Little Caesers and got a pizza and cheesy bread. Later that night we went to Woodbury days to watch the fireworks. I took a whiskey dt coke with me and shared some mini donuts with Pat and Sydney. After we got home I had another drink and a few pretzels with a teaspoon of PB.

Sunday I had a protein bar for breakfast then off to the gym, I think we walked a mile and a half. When we got home I had a handful of cinnamon almonds. We went to the Woodbury Days parade where I had a couple pieces of candy and a sample of chips and salsa. YUM!! Best parade ever!!! Good thing they give lots of fliers for gym enrollments!!! haha When we left we headed to Davanni's and had pizza and cheese bread!!!
Later in the evening I had a handful of almonds again and about 8:30 after being totally discouraged that I couldn't find anything to wear to the funeral on Thursday I had 2 more pieces of left over pizza.

This weekend was very rough!!! I ate horrible because of lack of planning, laziness and sadness!!!
One would have thought after I had a reality check for Fred's funeral that nothing fit that I should move my ass and make it fit. Well I have tried, I go up and down 2lbs all the time. Yes, I will be wearing the same pants and I did in March so that is a good thing, but they just don't fit like I think they should!!!!!! Way to much tummy on this girl!!!!!

I knew it would be a bad week because of my friend, but that should not have been an excuse to eat out as much as we did. I get so pissed at myself when that kind of crap happens!!!

I will try hard this week, but with the funeral that is 2 days that I won't get to the gym and I will be eating out more than I would like!!!! Life goes on.
As I sit here and type this I am feeling very guilty, Todd's family is grieving their hearts out and I am bitching because my pants don't fit, what the hell is wrong with me!!!! What would Todd say about this????? I am sure something that would make me laugh!!!! Rest in peace, we love you!!

Wed and Thursday- NOT GOOD

My female friend has been very unkind to me yesterday and today!!!! Hopefully she will leave tomorrow or Saturday!!!!! I had an ok day yesterday with eating, for awhile. In the morning I had a cup of oatmeal sweetend with splenda, then on my break I had chicken breast mixed with green beans and salsa, and a hint of cheese. I use a whole can of beans (no salt added) a whole chicken breast and how ever much salsa I want and mix it all together. On my first break I ate half of it and on my 2nd break I finished it. That is all I ate at work, and I worked until 5pm!! I got home about 5:45 (had to stay and chat with Amy) I was SO VERY TIRED!! I really wanted to go to Body Pump but I just couldn't do it! I took a shower then I consumed more food and calories than I have in 2 days I bet!! I had the tortilla lime chips (THEY ARE NOW GONE), I had a meat sandwich, summer sausage on 40 cal bread. I then had 2 PB&J sandwiches and a skinny cow!!! Oh I had some ginger snap cookies as well, I think 4!!! I know that I was eating because I was super tired and because of my stupid friend. I could have just went to bed but I wanted to see my husband when he got home. Not that it lasted long, I went to bed at like 9:45, he got home about 9:15!!!

Today- Thursday, I am super exhausted and my head feels like it is going to blow up. I went to work this morning and came home sick at 11:30. My head felt like it was going to blow up. I had some malt o meal at work at about 6:45, I never eat this early but I thought maybe I just needed to eat something for my head to feel better, didn't work. I had a bagel on my 1t break at 9:30 with a little PB, only because my friend Kim brought it for me. I came home and had a handful of chips and a bowl of Captain Crunch, (I only ate this so I could go to the bathroom, I knew it would work and it did) I took a nap for about 3 hours. I got up and had a BP &J sandwich and 2 cookies. I am craving something salty and we don't have anything!! I know I will try everything until I come across something that will do the trick. I will post what I had tomorrow!! I would really like some crackers but we don't have any!!! See if you don't have it in the house you can't eat it, normally that would be a good thing, however today it will be very hazardous for me because I will eat until I find what I am looking for!!!!
I have not been to the gym in two days now, I am going tomorrow even if my head blows off my shoulders while in body pump!!!!!

Tuesday= pain in the neck!!

Yes that is correct today I had a pain in the neck, literally. I went to the chiropractor at 4:45 then hit the gym. Not such a great idea, my neck hurt, my back hurt and weird but my face hurt. Not sure what he adjusted but something moved!! At the gym I was dying, my neck hurt and by lower back- funny thing is my lower back did not hurt before I went to the chiropractor!!! I did 4 miles on the treadmill in 44 minutes. I was happy with this, I think I ran 20 minutes without stopping to stretch, that is good for me. I ran anywhere from a 5.8 to a 6.5. I even left it on a .50 incline for half of it. It makes by back feel a little better with the incline, but my heart and legs don't like it so much!! I know it is hardly an incline!! I am a wimp!!

My food, last night I had some popcorn for a bed snack. Today I had a protein bar at 8:00, at 9:30 I had a half a cup of cottage cheese and green beans with salsa. At 12:30 I had a chicken breast and about 1/2 cup of spaghetti noodles with a hint of parmesan cheese. I had a couple of the small cookies again (Nikki made me do it, she had the other 2 out of the pack). At about 2:00 I had some grapes. When I got home all hell broke loose, I had some chips AGAIN!! I am telling you I never should have bougth those dang things, they will be gone tomorrow I am sure, pisses me off I can't stay away from them. I had 2 string cheese as well, oh and a protein bar. Gotta make it look good before going to the gym!!!!!!!!!! After the gym and my hard work there we got PIZZA----- Y, yes we did. I had 4 pieces and a half a piece of garlic cheese bread. The pieces are those little squares so I am not sure what that would be if it was regular slices. All I know is that I had way to much!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I will have a skinny cow before bed.

I am having my female friend visit me this week, normally because I get so sick she only visits every three months. Well, because I hate her so much I don't let her visit once every three months like I am suppose to so it's been about 6-9 months since she has been here. SO I anticipate this week to be full of eating surprises!!! She normally only stays for 3 days but for some reason I think she will be here longer this time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It so sucks!!!!!!!! I can't wait for this week to be over. I probably won't lose weight this week because of this, but I will be ok with that because I will know why!!!!!!

Monday- One more Body Pump

Let me start off with saying that my snack last night was a skinny cow ice-cream sandwich and a couple handfuls of Pat's popcorn, I was off to bed at 9:30. Slept the whole night!!

Today my food consisted of things I did not plan to eat. I had a protein bar at 8:00 with a handful of red grapes. I love red grapes but we hardly buy them cuz Pat and Sydney are not big fans. I like the fact that they are sweeter. At 9:30 I had a bowl of oatmeal sweeted with splenda. At 12:30 it was bad. I had some a couple spoonfuls of rice with a hint of gravy on top and 2 chicken patties. Yes, they were deep fried and were not what I thought I would be eating. I just love them. they remind me of the ones at Maggie's Drive Inn!!!! I did not have buns with them, just the patties. I drank about 32oz of water while at work today. When I got home I had 2 pieces of string cheese and some Lime Tortilla chips. I should never have bought that bag, I know I will finish the whole bag within the next couple of days. They are so good and so addicting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I had about 5 animal crackers and a teaspoon of peanut butter. I have been craving peanut butter like crazy!!!! We ate supper about 5:30 I had a 4oz hamburger pattie with cheese on a slice of 40 calorie bread and 3 cheetos.

Off to Body Pump, I wanted to get about 20 minutes in on the elliptical before class but I only got in 8 one mile!!

I added more weights when I did squats and bicep curls tonight so hopefully my arms won't be to sore tomorrow!!! I have a chiropractor appointment after work, so hopefully he can get the pain in my shoulders and neck to go away!!

I am cooking a chicken breast right now, so I can take it to work with me tomorrow!!

Sunday- Way to TIRED!

I went to work at 4am, that means that I had to get up at 3:05, not fun. I had about 32 oz of water between 4-8. I really wanted to eat at 5am but I didn't. I had some dried apples and a protein bar at 8:30. At 10:00 when I went on break I had malt- o meal sweeted with splenda and 2 pieces of toast with PB and Jelly (the small ones again). At 11:45 I had 16 pretzels with some PB. At 12:30 I was not hungry but was super tired so when I went to lunch I had an "institutional grilled cheese" This is toast, with butter, then you throw on some shredded cheese and microwave until the cheese melts. I also ate a potato wedge,which was so not worth the calories, it was cold and disgusting but I polished it off!! I had a pack of 4 small cookies, smaller than an oreo even. When I got home I had about 10 Lime chips and a little bit of Dt. Dew. I then fell asleep. Pat made steak and baked potatoes on the grill!!!! YUM YUM. So that was super, I also included a salad. I have had 3 glasses of water since I have been home. I know I ate way to many carbs and not really anything that I should have today but I was eating because I was tired. I know this. I will probably have some sort of snack later on tonight as well. I don't need to but............ I did weigh myself at 3:05AM, and at that time I have lost 2lbs since last Sunday. I am going to weigh tomorrow morning as well, just to see if it is the same. I am sure if would have weighed myself at 6:05- the time I normally get up I would have lost at least 10 lbs this week!!! hahaha I am happy with the 2- that was my goal, to try and hit 2 pounds a week!!!!!! First week= good results. I did not go to the gym today as I had hoped. I went all 7 days since I started this last Sunday with 2 days that were Body Pump!!! If I can keep this up, it will be awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday- Ok day

On Saturday we were suppose to have enchiladas at work, made my one of our co-workers sisters. Well the guy called in sick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was not hungry in the morning so I didn't have anything to eat until 10:00 when I thought I would have an enchilada, since there were none I had a small single serve pizza, that is what the cooks made us!!! I went on my second break at 12:30, what was in the dining room? ENCHILADAS!!! The guy called in sick but had someone drop them off for us. I surly didn't need any after eating the pizza but I paid my money so I was having some. The rice was GROSS, so one bite of that and I was done. The enchiladas- they were super small- she must have used the smallest flour tortilla that they make and they hardly had an cheese or sauce on them!! They were all stuck together in the pan so I think I had like 3, which on the plate didn't even look like one large burrito. They were not that AMAZING!!! It is hard to judge what I had as I said before they were stuck together. I had 32oz of water at work. When I got off I had 16 pretzels with a tablespoon of PB. I then headed to the gym. I did 5 miles on the treadmill, switching up the incline and speed, I did some running and some walking. I was ready to leave and Pat showed up so I walked 1 mile with him. I had a bottle of water on the way home. When we came home I did not eat. We went and ran some errands. At 9:30 when we were at Target I was hungry so I got a bag of Tortilla Lime Chips- I have passed these up a number of times before but tonight it wasn't happening. I had about 8- they are huge- that is a serving I think, it is 6 or 8. That is it, when I got home I had a piece of string cheese. Off to bed, they just called and want me to come in at 4am!!!!!! Tomorrow will be ROUGH!!

Another pump day & hidden calories!!!

Today I did Body pump with Misty again. I added a little more weight for when I did the back track and squats not to sore-YET, probably will feel it more tomorrow. My right arm is sore for some reason just in one spot.
On the food side of things I had a half of a protein bar and 3 bites of the Dr Oz green drink, yes I said bites my is really thick, all of this before going to the gym. I was hungry while at the gym however when I got home I wasn't but I made myself eat. I had a turkey sandwich on a lite ww bun and a cheese stick along with some green beans and salsa. I ran some errands and about 3:15 I had some a couple small pieces of turkey and a cheese stick. We decided to grab a bite to eat after Sydney's dance so that Pat could eat then hit the gym when we got home, have to hurry Vikings game is on!! So we went to Culver's yummy, or so I thought. I tried to be like Pat so I got a cheeseburger and yes a salad with 1000 island dressing. I asked for low-fat but they didn't have it. I dipped my fork in it then put salad on the fork instead of pouring it on top of it. I drank water. We get home and head to the gym, we had thougth about riding bike there but decided not to as Pat had to get gas and we had to stop at Target. Oh, the gym, for some reason my supper did not agree with me. I felt fine until we got there then all hell broke loose. Yes, TMI but I got the shits!! Not once but twice!! Needless to say I think Pat managed to get a mile in but me no luck!!! I had them again when we got home. Great!! For some reason I decided to look up the calories from our meal!! Well, the burger was 399 calories and the salad 229 and the dressing 200!!! that is 848 fricking calories!!!!!!! I thought I was doing well, if I would have had the damn fries the meal would have been 784 calories and I probably wouldn't have gotten the shits!!!!! I am so pissed about this!! You try hard and get sabotaged with hidden shit, how does a restaurant not have low cal or FF 1000 dressing????????????? I am going to be getting that book Eat this Not that!!! I can see why you need a book like this!!!! It's a good thing I didn't have much earlier in the day. I have had 3 glasses of water and 2 bottles today!!! I did have another protein bar about 9:00, my stomach felt weird so I thought I should eat something. SO those SHITS better reflect themselves on the scale. I am weighing tomorrow am just to check!!!!! I am going to have to be cautious about my foods tomorrow. Now I want the dang enchiladas to be spicy!!!!! Frustration!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday- Lots of energy

Today was a pretty good day. My lunch wasn't what I had planned but it sure was good. It wasn't bad, just not on my plan. i had a turkey sandwich on a lite ww bun and a serving of baked doritos and a dt.7-up. I know I hadn't had pop since Saturday and I blew it. blew it with the chips to but at least they were baked and I counted them!!! I also had a protein bar all around 1100. I did not eat breakfast so I just combined the protein bar with lunch. I went to the gym and did 6 miles on the elliptical, which was 67 minutes and 10 minutes on the stair stepper. I, believe it or not did some crunches and some stretching. I came home and around 3:00 had a lettuce salad with red peppers and pea pod, 1000 island dressing. At 6:30 I had egg beaters with a small amount of some sort of 15 calorie per serving cheese, all wrapped up in a 50 calorie high fiber tortilla shell, I was still a little hungry so I had another lettuce salad and a peach. I have had about 5 glasses and 2 bottles of water today. I know I need a "bed snack" as I am feeling a little hungry right now. I will post what I had in tomorrows blog. By the way my snack last night was a skinny cow ice cream sandwich and 16 pretzels.

Wednesday = weights!!

Today started with a chiropractor appointment, fun times, pretty sure he wasn't to happy I was heading to the gym afterwards. He thinks I just ran, I am pretty sure he would have said no to weights today because my lower back and shoulders still hurt a little. Oh Well!!!

The gym was BODY PUMP today!!! Fun times, (not so much) I hadn't been there since the middle of July so it was kinda hard today. I will feel it for sure tomorrow. Misty went with so that was fun and a nice change, however I believe she told me it had been 3yrs or so since she had last done the class. WELL she uses HEAVIER weights than me!!!! YOU GO GIRL!!! I will try to catch back up to those weights!!! I will be there again on Friday!! I still hate weights but at least going to this class MAKES me do them!!!!! There going to be redoing their studio floors the week before labor day so limited classes and times. Great just when I get back to going they throw a wrench in the routine. I will have to find something else to do for that week, better start planning now!!!

My food for today was a protein bar at 9:15
a chicken salad sandwich made with lite mayo and on a ww 80 cal bun around 11:105 I chopped up a whole chicken breast but I didn't eat it all on the sandwich and a cheese stick.
At 2:30 I had a lettuce salad with red peppers and 1000 island
4:30 I had a can of green beans with salsa
6:15 I had some of Pat's programs vegetarian sloppy joes. It is a 90 cal pak and you don't put it on a bun, or I made it wrong because it was more like watery chili. I had attempted some brown rice before I made that and it was disgusting alone, so I put about a tablespoon of it in the chili along with a tablespoon of cottage cheese. Not bad!!
I will have some sort of snacks yet tonight, maybe some popcorn, or a skinny cow ice cream sandwich or a peach. When I calculated my calories for today it is only around 700-800 I don't feel hungry but I don't want to be that low on calories because that can screw you up to!!! I have had about 6 glasses of water so far today, so I am up and running with that for the day any way. Running alright- to the bathroom.

Finding a balance Aug 18th food.

Today was what I would call eventful. I had a protein bar about 8:00 today. I got my first break at 10:00 which was the same time as yesterday but today I didn't have the chance to eat any veggies or fruit before I went on break. BIG difference. At 10:00 I had 1/2 a can of green beans with salsa ( I love this and could eat it every day). I know it was canned beans but to me a veggies is a veggie, who cares where it comes from, I know canned has more sodium. I should compare canned green beans with frozen sometime. (not a fan of frozen, to crispy). Along with the beans I had half a chicken breast. I had a yogurt mixed with some raisin bran without the raisins At 12:00 I had a sugar free jello (all while having to endure the smell of grandma shit pants). At about 12:30 I started to feel really icky, I was sweating and felt like I was going to throw up along with having the shakes really bad, I was also ready to pass out. I KNOW WHAT THIS FEELING IS!!!! LACK OF SUGAR AND CARBS. At 1:00 when I finally got my break I was so shaky it was horrible and I was so hot, this is gross but I could feel the sweat running down my back like when I workout really hard. I made 2 pieces of toast (the slices are smaller than regular bread because it is homemade) I tried to get butter on them but I was to shaky so I ate them almost plain. No, I SHOVED them in my mouth so fast Iam not sure I tasted it. I then finished my half a can of green beans and half of a chicken breast. I still felt "weird" so I had 2 more pieces of toast with PB and jelly only on one piece. Finally feeling a little better. About 2:00 I had 2 fortune cookies. Before going to the gym I had 4-5 animal crackers and a piece of string cheese. I did 4.00 miles on the elliptical. When I got home I had a small spoonful of mashed potatoes with smart balance butter, a salad with red pepper and 1000 Island dressing (FF) and turkey!!!! I have had 2 bottles of water and a bottle of sugar free peach ice tea. I know I need to get more water in, so hopefully starting tomorrow on my 3 days off I will be able to do this. Along with this I need to find a balance between the sugar and the carbs. It actually might not be the carbs but just the sugar. Since I was always eating so many carbs before, I know there was sugar in them. Let me tell you I hate the shakes and that sweating feeling!!! It is like having the bedspins standing up!!! Not fun. For me it is all timing, I thought having the yogurt was enough sugar but I guess not. I know that I can't let it happen again cuz it sucks.

I decided today as I was driving home from the gym, that I should look at this as a science experiment or like homework. It's like having on-going home work and my goal is like a final test/grade!!!!! Not sure where this thought came from, I must have seen a school sign or something, but it makes sense.

Aug 17th Food for the day

At about 8 this morning I had a protein bar, at 1030 I had a hamburger with one package of ketchup and mustard, NO BUN, and some tomato slices. Around 1200 I had some dried apples and some peapods and red bell peppers. I tend to leave these on my desk so that I can just grab some every once in awhile. At 130 I had half of a chicken breast mixed with the green giant steamed veggies and 1/2 cup cottage cheese. At 400 I had 16 pretzel bites and a piece of sting cheese. I knew I needed some kind of carb so that is why I had the pretzels but I counted them out. Wow a serving is hardly any. haha I then went to the gym and did 50 mintues on the treadmill for 4.50 miles. When I got home I ate a hamburger on half of a ww bun and some more tomatoe slices. I had a bottle of water and a couple of glasses today. Not as much as I wanted so I will try harder tomorrow.

Sunday Aug 16th- My food

This was a hard day to start this eating plan, I went to work at 3am!! By 3:30 I was starving, not sure how that works but I was. You will be please to hear that I had some dried apples to ward off the hunger. At 5am when it was time for my break I really wanted toast, but I didn't have any!!! At about 8:00 I had a protein bar, around 9:00 I had some pea pods and attempted some celery but it tasted like crap so I threw it away. At 10:15 I had green giant streamed veggies with a half of a chicken breast cut up in it. At 1:00 I had the other half of my chicken breast and a lettuce salad with some chopped up boiled eggs and a hint of cheese, and of course 1000 Island dressing. I got the dressing at work so I don't know the calories on it cuz it didn't say on the individual package. At 4:30 minutes before leaving for the gym I had 2 teaspoons of 1% cottage cheese. At 7:45 I had half a chicken breast and 3 teaspoons of cottage cheese. I also tried some of this cream of chicken soup they have on Pat's plan and it wasn't the best but I drank it. I have had 3 glasses and one bottle of water so far today. So for the rest of the night it will only be water!!!!! Look, how many processed carbs did I eat today???????? NONE!!!!! Look out tomorrow I will probably be crabby!! haha Off to a good start!!!

What size was that?

It's been a long time since I posted on here, the sad thing is that nothing has changed! It is sad!! I had a huge reality check while packing for ND for almost 2 weeks, what was it you ask? A large amount of my clothes were to tight!!!!! WOW, that one hurt!! I knew that I put on a few pounds but really!!!! That "fat" just likes to creep up on one!! I did do a little shopping and to my disgust I had to buy the next size up from what I was wearing. I could get the smaller one button but there was no way in hell I could ever sit down in it!! Plus who wants 10 fat rolls hanging over their waist band? I could deal with one or two but 10 not so much!!

I had some days filled with drama while on vacation as well, drama does not help me, it only makes me eat and want to have a few beers. Confession I think I had beer almost every night while on vacation. That wouldn't be so bad but I always have to eat something while drinking. I am going to have to give up the beer or give up the munchies with beer if I want to take some of this weight off!! Which will it be? Who knows!! I do only have one beer left in the fridge so I don't think I will buy anymore!!!! Oh the tears are flowing now!!! It is not that i need beer I just like it, one or two every now and again!!

Sharon totally pisses me off in her large weight loss, not that it bugs me that she lost it but how she "appears" to look down at anyone who has a fat roll or two. She constantly reminds people how good she looks and what size she is. I quit listening after awhile but I think it is between a 2 and a 4. This is my thought to her. SHUT YOUR MOUTH. I know she has been through more than I would ever want to deal with but let me tell you sister you lost the weight because of STRESS!!!! Not because you take your ass to the gym almost daily like I do. It just got very old all weekend. She also seems to feel she needs to be the center of attention. Well, I took the wind out of her sail at one point and I know she was pissed. We had just finished eating and I grabbed my stomach and said " nice spare tire I have started to carry around", my dad said " well mine isn't much smaller", Sharon looked at both of us with disgust. Then dad commented on how good Pat looked the day before when he saw him and I had said "he looks great, he is down 50lbs" Dad said " that is amazing". This is not a conversation my sister cared for so she quit listening and walked away. Can't she be happy for anyone but herself!!! IT DRIVES ME CRAZY!!! Do you think Pat likes to eat frickin chicken and veggies everyday?

That is enough about that drama, just had to get it off my chest!! Poof, gone!!! Wonder why I can't do that with my extra pounds!!! haha

This is my plan of action starting Sunday Aug 16th. Why the 16th and not tomorrow well, I go back to work tomorrow and we have had a happy hour planned for the last month so why try to eat well when I am going to drink, I just get pissed when I try and then screw up, so I am waiting until Sunday!! Might even have to call in sick on Saturday!!

This is how my plan should work!!!!!!!!!!

Step one, I am going to clean out my cupboards today and get rid of all the crap, yes that includes the chips but I am sure I will keep them for my emergency eating on Friday night when I get back from Happy Hour and for Saturday when I can't find anything to satisfy me because I drank the night before. Stop it I said I was starting on Sunday so I can have those damn chips and finish the chex mix maybe even the peach pie!!!!!!!!

Step two, prepare, I need to make whatever it is that I am going to eat and portion it all out and put it in the fridge for at least two days in a row. That way I can just grab it and go and there will be no deciding what I should have. I did this when I did WW and it seem to help a lot. My fridge will now be stocked with cooked chicken, and raw veggies. My plan is to sort of follow Pat's plan, how ever I like the Green Giant frozen steamed veggies so I am going to use some of them instead of eating lettuce all the time. Come on they have to be much better for you than a bag of chips.

Step three, I am going to try and not drink pop, I said try!! I am really going to try and drink more water. I love water what I don't like is having to pee every 5 minutes, it really sucks at work. You can't always go when you need to and then you have to take off all the equipment just so you can go!! A pain in the ass but I guess I am going to have to deal with it.

Step Four, the gym, I am going to try and start going back to body pump at least 2 days a week. I really don't mind the gym, when I don't feel like going I tell myself "just go and if you don't want to do a long workout, don't" on these days I usually get some of my best workouts in. I really want to try and start using my exercise ball at home. No, Sheryl I am still not going to use that thing again in public until I can not look like a dumb ass on it, so it may be never!!! Unless it is wall squats with it!!

Step Five, I am going to post what I eat daily on this page as a way to hold myself accountable. If I have to type that I ate a bag of chips it will be pretty embarrassing. No more closet eating for me. If I eat it, I must type it for the world to see!!!

I have not decided yet if I will weigh myself once a week or daily. It drove me nuts to not weigh everyday on vacation, but when I did I was pissed, everyone's scales are so different. Hell Buds said I was 15 lbs more than what I am at home!!! For me it is a reminder, so one day if it says one thing and the next day it is higher I know that I need to watch it more. But on the other hand I think that is what drives me so crazy!!!!!!! So I will have to figure that out by Sunday.

My goal is to lose 2 lbs a week, I think this expectation is realistic and healthy. I NEED to be at a lower weight by VEGAS TIME in OCT. A trip and some weight loss, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!