Ending out 2009

This will be my last post of 2009!! Wow, this year went by fast. 2010 is knocking on the door waiting to get in!
Tonight was also my last workout at the YMCA for 2009. I have a haircut tomorrow a 16 hour shift on Saturday, 7 hours on Sunday and 9 on Monday. I am off Tuesday but will be busy going to my PT appointment, packing, getting Sydney at school and doing our Christmas that night, then it is off to ND early on Wednesday morning!! Wow!!
My therapist at OSI is glad that I won't be able to workout for almost 2 weeks while we are back in ND. She says that my muscles, and my IT band are screaming for some relief and a break. I am ok with this only because I wouldn't have worked out while we were gone anyway. It is going to be very TOUGH going back to the gym after being gone so long. I am going to take my foam roller back and do that and the exercises the therapist gave me.

What will 2010 bring? Well, I have already decided that January 3rd will be the day for me to start making some changes. Then on January 11, I start the 10 week Get Fit program at the Y. Already registered and paid for it!! I will set goals for 2010, however I need a pathway of small steps to achieve them. I will post my "pathway steps" when I get back from the Holidays!!! I wish myself, good health, less fat, better eating habits and a "shaken up" work out routine for 2010!! " I can in 2010"

Blah Blah Blah

That's what I feel like today. I am all talk and no action when it comes to doing what I say I am going to do. Ok, I will give myself a little credit I do good for one day then fall face down, back out of control.

I have decided that I will "try" and watch what I eat from now until the 2nd of January. I am so sick of wanting to do good and not being able to I can hardly stand it. I think I just need to back off and give myself time to re-focus. I am ok with this as long as the scale stays where it is at (not happy with the current number)or goes down. Going up is not an option at this point!!!

In January the Y is suppose to be coming out with a new program called Get Fit, it has exercises and a nutritional component to it and it is limited in size to 8. I just e-mailed my old trainer about it tonight to see if she is going to be part of it. I am going to do it as long as it will fit my schedule. Sometimes they only have stuff like that during the days, which will not work out for me.

I have also realized that my pelvis rotation is a bigger problem than I thought it was so I have to focus on that first.
In the new year I hope to be able to make some postive changes!!!

Small success

Since I said I was going to do the WW thing at home I have done pretty well, other than the unexpected trip to Fargo last weekend. I do have one big problem, I LOVE BEER!! This is just about as bad as chips for me. I didn't have any in the house but we bought some in Fargo, and brought back what we didn't drink. I have 3 left that are not in the fridge for a reason. I did manage to lose 1 pound so that is good. Not what I was hoping for but I will take it as I had lack of planning and beer!!!

I went out to look for a pair of jeans today!! SAD, SAD, SAD!! why the hell can't they make jeans that fit women? If they fit me at the waist they are to tight in the legs, and there is no hope for the ass, that thing is just that a "thing". How can I get on one of those shows where they "dress" you!!!!!!!! I would spend a 100 bucks on a pair if I could find ones that fit!! We all know I am cheap and that is alot of cash but I am desperate. Anyone know any " fashion eastas"that can help me. Maybe some group should take this on for a fund raiser!!!!!!

Not sure what is going on with this hip crap but I am going to keep working out regardless if it hurts or not!! It has just recently gotten worse so what harm can it do!!!!!!
I really wish I could find someone to workout with. The gym is just not fun anymore. I guess I will use my creative abilities to make it fun!!!!!

Day Two

I had a pretty good day of eating considering that I had a crappy day at work and I am an emotional eater. Work was all great until about 8:05. I did my releases for the day at 7:05, I had two, one was near death and that is not a joke, cancer, horrible alcoholic, seizures, you name it she had it. Anyway she was suppose to be released at 9am to a health care facility, someone from there was to pick her up!! Well my papers did not have a HOLD on them so I let her go. I told her to wait up in the front lobby for her ride, she did for awhile then asked some random person to give her a ride. My boss freaked out, not on me yet, as it was clearly a computer mistake but I am sure it is coming down the pipeline!!! Union reps say I am safe!!!! Still not a good feeling.

So this is what I ate today, 1 and a half clementines, the oatmeal cookies I always make, a protein bar, yogurt with cheerios, chicken salad on a sami bun and cottage cheese and cauliflower. When I got home I had chips!!!!! Enough to equal 9points, yes three servings, that was supper!!!!!!!!!! So I am over my total for the day by only 3. I once again did not count the exercise points but I did 5 miles on the treadmill, 55 minutes and then did 3 weight machines and some sit-ups/crunches. My intent was to go to body pump but it isn't until 8:00 that is just so late, if I would have waited I am pretty sure I wouldn't have gone to the gym. I have had 40 oz of water and a dt dew.
I think there is one serving of chips left!!! I won't be buying them for a very long time!!!!!!!!

It started off good!

My food for today was the oatmeal cookies made from instant oatmeal, yogurt, single serving bowl of cheerios, 2 clementines, chicken salad on a sami bread (that new bread that looks like a bun but is for sandwiches) it equals one point so what the heck why not have it other than it is like 3.50 a bag. 1 can no salt green beans with Sheryl's salsa on top, and a protein bar. Not bad for my day at work, so that equaled 14.5 points out of the 22 I can have. After work, HOLY SHIT!!! I can't help it I had to have the tortilla lime chips calling my name from the cupboard, 1st one serving then another, I had a piece of string cheese and some ham, I ate the other half of my chicken salad and then later had a pb&j sandwich. Are you kidding me???????? I have ended my eating for the day and have went over my point allowance by 12.5. I am not going to try and justify this as I know that I should not have eaten all of that when I came home, however I did go to the gym and did an hour on the elliptical, which I did not allow any points for exercise. I can also subtract these from my 35 extra weekly points, so I am not totally in the dog house I am just disappointed in myself. I came home from the gym and had a Muscle Milk Light Shake which is 2pts, which I added into the the overage for the day. I have had 40oz of water so that is a plus and half of a dt dew left over from last night.
I am telling you I do not know what to do about the mindless eating, it is like I sit down to watch Y&R and I have to eat through the whole dang show. Thank goodness I record it or I would eat for a hour instead of 40 minutes!!!! On the plus side once I eat all that crap in my 1st hour home from work I don't usually eat the rest of the night!!!
Off to make some more chicken for tomorrow!!!!!!

Who is that?

I went to Body Pump today, only the 2nd time since I have been back from Vegas!! not good, last week I went and was in pain for two days, my muscles did not know how to react to that kind of a workout. Should be a lesson learned that if you don't go there will be pain when you start up again. As far as today, I feel fine right now but what I realized while I was at the gym is that I have a HUGE stomach!! I stand in the back of the class normally the class is full so there is no hope of seeing your form in the mirror, however today I did not see my form I saw HOW FAT I HAVE BECOME!!! Those mirrors tell a very sad story. I know I have gained weight but really? I have gained back half the weight I lost before. It scares the crap out of me to see that scale keep going up, at the rate I am going I will be right back to 200lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can not let this happen. Today I dug out all my WW stuff and as soon as I get done with this I am going to plan out my meals for tomorrow. It worked for me before, when I didn't cheat. I know I can do it, for me it is all a matter of planning., I am not going to pay for it I am just going to do it on my own. My support will be Shopper Hopper and Gym Girl!!! Get it ladies I am asking you to do me a favor and check my page every couple of days to keep me on track. I am going to try and update it with what I eat and my exercise daily!! I might as well journal it on here!!!! And no I am not going to pay you to help me!!!!
I have no one to blame but myself, I don't want to workout, I just want to sit on the couch and watch TV and I think that I can eat everything in sight, which I do, mindless, boredom eating. I am starting tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO IF ANDS OR BUTTS about it!!!!! Funny thing about Butts I just told Pat on Sunday when I was trying on jeans in Albertville that I think I need a butt reconstruction!!! It is not a bubble butt or a shelf, but when I put on jeans it looks HUGE and WIDE and the waistbands on pants look like they go half way up my back. It is so GROSS!!!! I am off to plan out tomorrows menu!!!

Good Day

Today was a good day. I had an ice-coffee from McDonald's this morning ready and waiting for me at work!! Thanks Bea, she thought I needed one since I was so upset about yesterday's coffee fiasco. I had that then at 9:30 I had yogurt and a single serve bowl of cheerios. At 12:30 I had turkey chili with a little shredded cheese and a 90 calorie special K bar. At 3:30 I had 3 chocolate covered peanuts, a 100 calorie pac of pretzels and one piece of sting cheese. I had a Dt Dew to!! Off to the gym, I wanted to go to Body Pump at 6:40 but I knew that if I didn't go when I was feeling like it I would have skipped the gym all together so I decided to let Body Pump fall to the weigh side tonight and just do cardio. I did 4.85 miles in 50 minutes!!!! What a rush!!! Syd said I was a monster!! haha I came home and had cauliflower and cottage cheese mixed together for the "mock mashed potatoes" and a pear. I ate the damn pear with the peeling and part of it is still stuck in my throat. ICK!!! I have only had two glasses of water so far so I need to kick that in the butt a little more before going to bed. Syd could seriously be a "mini Jillian" she was hilarious at the gym tonight, I might just have to pay her the 5 bucks and hour she said she would charge me!!! She is a little loud so people were staring and laughing at us!! Who cares it was fun!!!!!!

Not feeling it!!

What can I say, I do not feel like going to the gym lately!!!! What is up with that? I have been planning on going to Body Pump since I got back from Vegas but I just don't feel like it. I have only been to the gym twice since we got back.
Today is the 1st of Nov and this is what I ate. I was suppose to be off today but ended up working for a friend at the last minute so that I can have Dec 26th off. Stupid that she couldn't pick a day closer to mine but whatever!! Anyway, I decided that I should get an Iced Latte at McDonald's on the way to work. I ordered it with fat free milk and sugar free syrup. It cost $3.52, what the hell it is usually $2.38, whatever, I sat in line for 15 minutes and when I pulled up they handed me something hot. I was so pissed I told them that is not what I ordered and they hesitantly asked if I wanted the iced one. I did not have time to wait for them to make it so I told them that and left with the hot one!!! I got to my post at work at 7 right on the button!! I took the lid off and took one sip and thought I was going to vomit, it was so strong. I gave it to my co-worker so at least it didn't go to waste. Hence the reason I took the lid off to taste it. GROSS. Not a good start to the day. I had a 90 calorie special K bar, yum at about 7:30 at 9 I had a protein bar, at 9:30 I went on break and had expired yogurt and a single serve bowl of Honey Nut Cheerios!! My co-workers assured me that I could eat the yogurt, I didn't even eat it all. I spoon it on to the cereal instead of milk since it tends to make me sick. At 12:30 I had yummy turkey chili that I made with a small spoonful of shredded cheese and 3 packs of crackers. I also had a teaspoon of BLT salad, it always looks so good but tastes like crap!!! I came home and had a couple of handfuls of pumpkin seeds made by my two favorite boys!! A bite size Reese's and small pack of peanut M&M's. For supper at 5:00 I had some turkey, and about a tablespoon of mashed potatoes. Ok trying something new here. I took cauliflower and mixed it with 2 teaspoons of cottage cheese, the recipe calls it mock mashed potatoes. It was very good!!!!!!!!!!! I could really eat these instead of real potatoes. I also tried to make homemade cranberry sauce using splenda. It was a little tart but ok!! I have had about 5 glasses of water and one dt mt dew. I just ate my fun size frozen snicker bar!!! I am good for the night!! I ate really well today.

Documentation is your friend!

I better post something since I say we should do it daily!! haha I am with Sheryl, I just can't stay committed to eating right and exercising much anymore. There was a point in time when I would read the Fitness or Women's Health magazine from cover to cover, wonder where those days went!!! I think for me when I see results I am motivated, no results 0 motivation!!!! DUH!!! When I was at the dr the other day she told me that trainers say most people think they are working out hard enough to make a difference when in reality they aren't. That must be true and I must be one of them!!! DANG IT!!!
My newest thing is when I come back from Vegas I am going to put all my heart and soul into this weight loss, healthy eating thing. I know that I can't buy the chips and I can't eat the ice-cream, which by the way has been making me sick again, but I still do it!!! STUPID!!!! It is so weird before Pat started his plan we would eat almost the same things weekly, It might not have been healthy but there were really only 5 or 6 things that we ate. Burgers, spaghetti, tacos, chicken and Lasagna, so why is it so hard for me to eat "limited" food now? Before we ate chicken so why is it so dang hard for me this time. I do like it, guess I need to love it. It is so stupid, I made vegetable beef soup the other night. LOVE it and I made it with all low sodium seasonings and broth, why not sure cuz Pat won't eat it!!! So what do I do, look in the fridge for lunch and decide I need to have a ham and cheese sandwich and some chips. Are you kidding me, why did I make the dang soup!!!!! So tonight after I had an afternoon snack of a blizzard, for no reason at all, it didn't even taste good, I had some soup. I was not hungry but felt guilty that I had made it and hadn't had but one bowl of it!!!! Those are the stupid things I do!! At about 7:30 I realized I have had NO WATER today, none!!! I did go to the gym but only walked the track for half and hour so I didn't even take a water with me. However I have had a bottle and half of dt mt dew and a 20oz cappuccino while out and about!!!! How stupid!!!! I just told Pat last night, I need to quit drinking the pop, because it makes me want to eat, it gives me a horrible stomach ache most times and I DON"T NEED IT!!!! I try not putting it in the fridge but then when I want one I just pop it in the freezer for half and hour!!!! What gives????? I need to look at healthy eating as a part-time job, one thing I have learned from ALL my jobs is that "documentation is your friend", I guess I need to adopt this saying and use it to journal my foods, thoughts and habits!!!! look the food log is already finding it's way in my "After Vegas Journey".

My friend- FRUSTRATION

I think I fell off the face of the earth for awhile, no not really, just plagued by my old friend FRUSTRATION!!! I can't stand it when she comes to visit, oh who am I trying to kid, she LIVES with me. She is with me 24/7 and I don't know how to tell her to LEAVE!!!! I do have some ideas on how to get her to take a long deserved vacation.

I went to check out what I thought was going to be this great opportunity to do a boot camp 2 times a week today, only to find out it was a total scam, if you want my opinion. First off they weren't going to have an hour long class 2 nights a week like they said, they also said that you didn't have to belong to their gym to do the class. Well, you don't have to belong but you do have to pay a $150.00 fee to get a 3 month membership to their club, then their classes are either a half hour a night 4 nights a week or an hour a night 4 nights a week. So the cost was between $450-650 depending on the class. NO THANK-YOU!! They had a nutritional part with this camp and the lady I met with kept saying the "software" we use, but never said what. Their web site does though, they use the dailyplate.com!! IT IS FREE TO ANYONE!!! They can't give you a meal plan as they are not nutritionists. So back to square one on the eating part even though they say they "can help you". I also asked how the class was set up. Usually they have about 10 people and it is done in their studio with free weights and your body weight used for the strength part. They do jumping jacks, push ups and sometimes circuit training. NO MACHINES!!! So in reality this sounds just like the boot camp they have at the YMCA and I can do it for FREE. I have actually tried the class and didn't care that much for it, the other bad part is that it is only offered in the morning.
So with all this disappointment I decided that I can try and come up with my "own" boot camp plan and I can use the dailyplate as a food guide.
Tonight I did take a quick look at the daily plate. It says I should have like 1532 calories a day in order to lose 2lbs a week. I put all the food that I ate in it today and the sad thing was I was only over on calories by 28. ARE YOU FLIPPING KIDDING ME!!! I ATE 3 ZINGERS FOR THE LOVE OF MONEY!!!!!!
The lady at the boot camp consult had told me that the food plan is based on 40% carbs 30% fat and 30% protein, so with this in mind on the daily plate, even though I was only over my 28 calories I was out of the ball park on the % of each today. ( However I am not sure how to figure that out, if I can have 1532 calories a day don't I divide that by .40 to find what % of carbs you need to get to 40%). Sheryl figure this out for me and let me know. ( all 3) I know you are dying for something to do at work, and since working with numbers is your job, I know you will get it right!!!
With this said, I can see where it is the combination of foods that you eat that will have the biggest effects and show results!! ( This is also what the lady said today). By the way they recruited her to be a trainer, so not sure if she even went to school for it, however she did do their boot camp) whatever!!!!

My big plan is to try and put my foods into the daily plate each day, continue trying to do body pump 3 days a week and maybe change up my cardio routine a tad. I will see where this leads me. If I start seeing results then I should be strong enough to kick FRUSTRATIONS sorry ass right to the curb!!!! If your lucky she won't land on your doorstep when I kick her so hard!!

Focus- one day at a time!

I have been thinking about this a lot lately. I totally let my weight "weigh" on my mind!! I need to find some place else to focus my thoughts, what I don't know is how I am going to do this but I am going to try and figure that out!!

I did cardio on Sunday, body pump on Monday, cardio and boxing on Tuesday, I took Wednesday off and did cardio and a little boxing tonight. I have really been trying to eat 'healthy". I did have a blizzard on Tuesday which was a ton of calories but I really didn't eat that much the rest of the day.
Of course on Tuesday I had to rush out and buy the Jillian Michael's diet pills. There are two kinds a fat burner and a calorie control, which is suppose to reduce calorie intake and help fight diet fatigue. I was a little concerned about the caffeine in them, however the calorie control one doesn't bother me. I did take the fat burner last night and thought I was going to be sick, but I think it was because I hadn't eaten much.

Because of last night I was a little freaked out to take the fat burner today so I didn't and I only took the other one once. This is what I ate. I had oatmeal cookies made with a packet of weight control oatmeal, I smashed up a fresh peach to get a fruit in the easy way. I had yogurt mixed with cheerios for my first break. It was a single serve bowl of cheerios, (budget cuts at work but we buy single serve instead of bulk, go figure). I had some celery and some jimica about 1230, as my break was late. For lunch at 1:00 I had rice with a little chicken gravy (this was my choice since I felt like crap last night and didn't make anything to take). When I got home I had some chips and a bowl of cereal. I wasn't even hungry. I think I eat at this time out of habit. THAT NEEDS TO CHANGE!! I then went to the gym. This is all I have had today and I can say that I am not really hungry. I am sure that I will have some sort of snack before bed but I will try really hard to make it healthy! I have had alot of water today. I also had half of a dt coke. I didn't have any dt dew in the fridge and I am not a huge fan of dt coke unless it is mixed with whiskey!!!
Almost forgot my friend Kim had me try rutabaga-raw. I don't know what the hell this is suppose to taste like but I thought I was going to throw up!!!!!

Getting back into it

My eating for yesterday was ok in the am then down hill from there. I had a protein bar in the morning then hit the gym. I ellipticaled for 4 miles. We had a few errands to do in St.Paul. fun fun. I had to get new work pants, and the good news is I didn't have to go up a size from what I have, however at 40 bucks a crack I better only go down, I will not need to buy any new ones if I can make that happen as I have about 10 pair in my closet waiting to help me out when I need it. It is a really shady area that I have to go to, I think anyway so I make Pat come with me!! We decided that we were going to go out for lunch at Carboni's love that place, I had a meatball sub. I only ate about half of it and brought the rest home. For supper at 5:30 we went to Applebee's for Sydney's first day of school supper. I did not order a meal. However I seemed to have polished off a bunch of chips and salsa with my perfect margarita, some of Sydney's fries, a bite of Pat's steak, a little bit of Misty's 3 Cheese Chicken Penne and 2 mozzarella sticks. How is that for not ordering my own food. SAD!! I probably ate more this way than if I would have ordered something. Sad thing was, I really wasn't that hungry!!! I also had a skinny cow ice cream sandwich later in the evening!! WHY, WHY, WHY do I do this!!!!

Wednesday was and ok morning, I had oatmeal and 2 pieces of toast with PB& J. For lunch I had some tatar tots and turkey. All is good for the most part until I get home. I finish the rest of the meatball sub, have a bunch of pretzels with PB (the jar is now gone) and a bowl of Captain crunch!!!! This was more ridiculous than last night!!!! I took a little nap then headed to body pump.

My goal for the rest of the week, is to eat good stuff including veggies and to hit the gym and work out harder than I have been. I will not go to the gym on Saturday as I work from 7am until 11pm. But I will try to eat good that day as well. Cross your fingers and we will hope for the best!

What if?

What if I don't make my Vegas goal weight? Life will go on! I am certainly not on the fast track to getting to it, why is that? Because it is my own damn fault!! I know that I am an emotional eater- however the emotions are not the good ones. I tend to eat when I am mad, upset, bored, and tired. Of course I eat when I am celebrating something or when I am happy, it is just not as much and as often as the other times!!! What does that say????

Last week was all about being sad, shocked and unprepared. I wouldn't say I ate alot, I just made bad choices. Oh well, last week is over, fresh start for this week.

Sunday I got up and had a protein bar and a glass of water, along with the Fat burner pill and the carb blocker. Off to the gym, I ran 3 miles. Before lunch I had 5 flips and a piece of cheddar cheese (in a stick like string cheese). For lunch we made turkey breast so I had some of that and a small scoop of mashed potatoes and some pea pods and cherry tomatoes, I took the pills again before I ate. Off for a bike ride- we did about 6.5 miles. We did stop at Candy Land and got some caramel popcorn, we all shared this and I didn't eat that much because the caramel hurts my teeth when it gets stuck and I can't stand it when I get a hull stuck and can't get it out!!!! Home for supper, I had a piece of cold pizza left over from Friday night and a a few grapes. Doing pretty good!! Snack time. I really didn't feel hungry just thirsty, I had drank a ton of water and a dt dew but it just wasn't doing it. You guessed it I had beer!!!! I had 3 of them and a few handfuls of Pat's popcorn. Later I had some flips and another piece of cheese!!! I would have had more beer but Pat and Sydney were counting for some reason so I quit at three, guilt I guess, why I don't know!!! I am an adult!! Off to bed

Today I had a protein bar and a glass of water, I took the pills again. Off to the gym where I ellipticaled for 2 miles on one kind of elliptical then switched to the other kind for 10 minutes. I didn't look to see how far I went on that one. Once I got home I thought I would check out my new boxing bag!! I loved it until it came crashing out of the ceiling!! I would like to think it was because I hit it so hard but my guess would be that it wasn't screwed all the way in or something. Which is weird because that is not like Pat to not get something right the first time!! Lunch was a turkey sand on a lite bun, some cherry tomatoes and jicima. I tried to make a dip for it, lite mayo, horseradish, garlic powder and cayenne pepper, tasty. I took the pills again. Sydney and I ran some errands then headed to Dunn Bros for a treat, I had a coupon so of course I had to get the biggest drink. We also shared a brownie, and yes I made her divide it EQUALLY!!! I got home and checked the calories of the big drink, which I dumped out the last 1/4 of it. 690 calories or something stupid like that!!! I knew it before I went that it would be bad so I am not going to beat myself up!! I had a few wheat thins ( a different kind, there long like a graham cracker) and a piece of cheese. I wasn't hungry at supper so I have not eaten anything.
I am really ready for a beer, I am just thirsty and have had water and part of a pop they didn't do the trick.

I hate the fact that the beer stares me in the face everytime I open the fridge door. Stop it, I am not running back and forth to it like you think.

Here is the kicker, I had gained back the 2 pounds the week of my friend and stayed at that weight last week. Today back down 2lbs, what the hell I ate crap and drank beer!!! Maybe I do focus way to much on it!!
We will see what next week brings!!!!

Wacked out Weekend

Friday I was feeling much better! I got up and had a protein bar then headed out to Body Pump with Misty. After class we picked up the girls and went to lunch at Applebee's. I had the French Dip sliders and French onion soup. It was good except the soup was burnt on the top and I am not a fan of burnt food, so I didn't finish all of it. For supper I had a hamburger and tater tots from the Burger Emporium. Very good. Pat and I went down to Woodbury Days to listen to the band, and we shared some mini donuts.

Saturday was off to a good start, I had a protein bar for breakfast then off to the gym to try out my new shoes!!! LIVE STRONG NIKE'S!! love them. I did 3 miles on the treadmill in 35 minutes. While driving home we decided that we would get subs from Subway for lunch. I had a 6inch ham and cheese. I had a few fun-yuns with it when I got home and a dt dew. On the way home from the gym is when I got the call that Todd had died. This was such a shock!!! So very, very sad!! We then headed to the Eden Prairie Mall for a little shopping. On the way home we had to take the LONG way because of road construction so we stopped by Little Caesers and got a pizza and cheesy bread. Later that night we went to Woodbury days to watch the fireworks. I took a whiskey dt coke with me and shared some mini donuts with Pat and Sydney. After we got home I had another drink and a few pretzels with a teaspoon of PB.

Sunday I had a protein bar for breakfast then off to the gym, I think we walked a mile and a half. When we got home I had a handful of cinnamon almonds. We went to the Woodbury Days parade where I had a couple pieces of candy and a sample of chips and salsa. YUM!! Best parade ever!!! Good thing they give lots of fliers for gym enrollments!!! haha When we left we headed to Davanni's and had pizza and cheese bread!!!
Later in the evening I had a handful of almonds again and about 8:30 after being totally discouraged that I couldn't find anything to wear to the funeral on Thursday I had 2 more pieces of left over pizza.

This weekend was very rough!!! I ate horrible because of lack of planning, laziness and sadness!!!
One would have thought after I had a reality check for Fred's funeral that nothing fit that I should move my ass and make it fit. Well I have tried, I go up and down 2lbs all the time. Yes, I will be wearing the same pants and I did in March so that is a good thing, but they just don't fit like I think they should!!!!!! Way to much tummy on this girl!!!!!

I knew it would be a bad week because of my friend, but that should not have been an excuse to eat out as much as we did. I get so pissed at myself when that kind of crap happens!!!

I will try hard this week, but with the funeral that is 2 days that I won't get to the gym and I will be eating out more than I would like!!!! Life goes on.
As I sit here and type this I am feeling very guilty, Todd's family is grieving their hearts out and I am bitching because my pants don't fit, what the hell is wrong with me!!!! What would Todd say about this????? I am sure something that would make me laugh!!!! Rest in peace, we love you!!

Wed and Thursday- NOT GOOD

My female friend has been very unkind to me yesterday and today!!!! Hopefully she will leave tomorrow or Saturday!!!!! I had an ok day yesterday with eating, for awhile. In the morning I had a cup of oatmeal sweetend with splenda, then on my break I had chicken breast mixed with green beans and salsa, and a hint of cheese. I use a whole can of beans (no salt added) a whole chicken breast and how ever much salsa I want and mix it all together. On my first break I ate half of it and on my 2nd break I finished it. That is all I ate at work, and I worked until 5pm!! I got home about 5:45 (had to stay and chat with Amy) I was SO VERY TIRED!! I really wanted to go to Body Pump but I just couldn't do it! I took a shower then I consumed more food and calories than I have in 2 days I bet!! I had the tortilla lime chips (THEY ARE NOW GONE), I had a meat sandwich, summer sausage on 40 cal bread. I then had 2 PB&J sandwiches and a skinny cow!!! Oh I had some ginger snap cookies as well, I think 4!!! I know that I was eating because I was super tired and because of my stupid friend. I could have just went to bed but I wanted to see my husband when he got home. Not that it lasted long, I went to bed at like 9:45, he got home about 9:15!!!

Today- Thursday, I am super exhausted and my head feels like it is going to blow up. I went to work this morning and came home sick at 11:30. My head felt like it was going to blow up. I had some malt o meal at work at about 6:45, I never eat this early but I thought maybe I just needed to eat something for my head to feel better, didn't work. I had a bagel on my 1t break at 9:30 with a little PB, only because my friend Kim brought it for me. I came home and had a handful of chips and a bowl of Captain Crunch, (I only ate this so I could go to the bathroom, I knew it would work and it did) I took a nap for about 3 hours. I got up and had a BP &J sandwich and 2 cookies. I am craving something salty and we don't have anything!! I know I will try everything until I come across something that will do the trick. I will post what I had tomorrow!! I would really like some crackers but we don't have any!!! See if you don't have it in the house you can't eat it, normally that would be a good thing, however today it will be very hazardous for me because I will eat until I find what I am looking for!!!!
I have not been to the gym in two days now, I am going tomorrow even if my head blows off my shoulders while in body pump!!!!!

Tuesday= pain in the neck!!

Yes that is correct today I had a pain in the neck, literally. I went to the chiropractor at 4:45 then hit the gym. Not such a great idea, my neck hurt, my back hurt and weird but my face hurt. Not sure what he adjusted but something moved!! At the gym I was dying, my neck hurt and by lower back- funny thing is my lower back did not hurt before I went to the chiropractor!!! I did 4 miles on the treadmill in 44 minutes. I was happy with this, I think I ran 20 minutes without stopping to stretch, that is good for me. I ran anywhere from a 5.8 to a 6.5. I even left it on a .50 incline for half of it. It makes by back feel a little better with the incline, but my heart and legs don't like it so much!! I know it is hardly an incline!! I am a wimp!!

My food, last night I had some popcorn for a bed snack. Today I had a protein bar at 8:00, at 9:30 I had a half a cup of cottage cheese and green beans with salsa. At 12:30 I had a chicken breast and about 1/2 cup of spaghetti noodles with a hint of parmesan cheese. I had a couple of the small cookies again (Nikki made me do it, she had the other 2 out of the pack). At about 2:00 I had some grapes. When I got home all hell broke loose, I had some chips AGAIN!! I am telling you I never should have bougth those dang things, they will be gone tomorrow I am sure, pisses me off I can't stay away from them. I had 2 string cheese as well, oh and a protein bar. Gotta make it look good before going to the gym!!!!!!!!!! After the gym and my hard work there we got PIZZA----- Y, yes we did. I had 4 pieces and a half a piece of garlic cheese bread. The pieces are those little squares so I am not sure what that would be if it was regular slices. All I know is that I had way to much!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I will have a skinny cow before bed.

I am having my female friend visit me this week, normally because I get so sick she only visits every three months. Well, because I hate her so much I don't let her visit once every three months like I am suppose to so it's been about 6-9 months since she has been here. SO I anticipate this week to be full of eating surprises!!! She normally only stays for 3 days but for some reason I think she will be here longer this time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It so sucks!!!!!!!! I can't wait for this week to be over. I probably won't lose weight this week because of this, but I will be ok with that because I will know why!!!!!!

Monday- One more Body Pump

Let me start off with saying that my snack last night was a skinny cow ice-cream sandwich and a couple handfuls of Pat's popcorn, I was off to bed at 9:30. Slept the whole night!!

Today my food consisted of things I did not plan to eat. I had a protein bar at 8:00 with a handful of red grapes. I love red grapes but we hardly buy them cuz Pat and Sydney are not big fans. I like the fact that they are sweeter. At 9:30 I had a bowl of oatmeal sweeted with splenda. At 12:30 it was bad. I had some a couple spoonfuls of rice with a hint of gravy on top and 2 chicken patties. Yes, they were deep fried and were not what I thought I would be eating. I just love them. they remind me of the ones at Maggie's Drive Inn!!!! I did not have buns with them, just the patties. I drank about 32oz of water while at work today. When I got home I had 2 pieces of string cheese and some Lime Tortilla chips. I should never have bought that bag, I know I will finish the whole bag within the next couple of days. They are so good and so addicting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I had about 5 animal crackers and a teaspoon of peanut butter. I have been craving peanut butter like crazy!!!! We ate supper about 5:30 I had a 4oz hamburger pattie with cheese on a slice of 40 calorie bread and 3 cheetos.

Off to Body Pump, I wanted to get about 20 minutes in on the elliptical before class but I only got in 8 one mile!!

I added more weights when I did squats and bicep curls tonight so hopefully my arms won't be to sore tomorrow!!! I have a chiropractor appointment after work, so hopefully he can get the pain in my shoulders and neck to go away!!

I am cooking a chicken breast right now, so I can take it to work with me tomorrow!!

Sunday- Way to TIRED!

I went to work at 4am, that means that I had to get up at 3:05, not fun. I had about 32 oz of water between 4-8. I really wanted to eat at 5am but I didn't. I had some dried apples and a protein bar at 8:30. At 10:00 when I went on break I had malt- o meal sweeted with splenda and 2 pieces of toast with PB and Jelly (the small ones again). At 11:45 I had 16 pretzels with some PB. At 12:30 I was not hungry but was super tired so when I went to lunch I had an "institutional grilled cheese" This is toast, with butter, then you throw on some shredded cheese and microwave until the cheese melts. I also ate a potato wedge,which was so not worth the calories, it was cold and disgusting but I polished it off!! I had a pack of 4 small cookies, smaller than an oreo even. When I got home I had about 10 Lime chips and a little bit of Dt. Dew. I then fell asleep. Pat made steak and baked potatoes on the grill!!!! YUM YUM. So that was super, I also included a salad. I have had 3 glasses of water since I have been home. I know I ate way to many carbs and not really anything that I should have today but I was eating because I was tired. I know this. I will probably have some sort of snack later on tonight as well. I don't need to but............ I did weigh myself at 3:05AM, and at that time I have lost 2lbs since last Sunday. I am going to weigh tomorrow morning as well, just to see if it is the same. I am sure if would have weighed myself at 6:05- the time I normally get up I would have lost at least 10 lbs this week!!! hahaha I am happy with the 2- that was my goal, to try and hit 2 pounds a week!!!!!! First week= good results. I did not go to the gym today as I had hoped. I went all 7 days since I started this last Sunday with 2 days that were Body Pump!!! If I can keep this up, it will be awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday- Ok day

On Saturday we were suppose to have enchiladas at work, made my one of our co-workers sisters. Well the guy called in sick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was not hungry in the morning so I didn't have anything to eat until 10:00 when I thought I would have an enchilada, since there were none I had a small single serve pizza, that is what the cooks made us!!! I went on my second break at 12:30, what was in the dining room? ENCHILADAS!!! The guy called in sick but had someone drop them off for us. I surly didn't need any after eating the pizza but I paid my money so I was having some. The rice was GROSS, so one bite of that and I was done. The enchiladas- they were super small- she must have used the smallest flour tortilla that they make and they hardly had an cheese or sauce on them!! They were all stuck together in the pan so I think I had like 3, which on the plate didn't even look like one large burrito. They were not that AMAZING!!! It is hard to judge what I had as I said before they were stuck together. I had 32oz of water at work. When I got off I had 16 pretzels with a tablespoon of PB. I then headed to the gym. I did 5 miles on the treadmill, switching up the incline and speed, I did some running and some walking. I was ready to leave and Pat showed up so I walked 1 mile with him. I had a bottle of water on the way home. When we came home I did not eat. We went and ran some errands. At 9:30 when we were at Target I was hungry so I got a bag of Tortilla Lime Chips- I have passed these up a number of times before but tonight it wasn't happening. I had about 8- they are huge- that is a serving I think, it is 6 or 8. That is it, when I got home I had a piece of string cheese. Off to bed, they just called and want me to come in at 4am!!!!!! Tomorrow will be ROUGH!!

Another pump day & hidden calories!!!

Today I did Body pump with Misty again. I added a little more weight for when I did the back track and squats not to sore-YET, probably will feel it more tomorrow. My right arm is sore for some reason just in one spot.
On the food side of things I had a half of a protein bar and 3 bites of the Dr Oz green drink, yes I said bites my is really thick, all of this before going to the gym. I was hungry while at the gym however when I got home I wasn't but I made myself eat. I had a turkey sandwich on a lite ww bun and a cheese stick along with some green beans and salsa. I ran some errands and about 3:15 I had some a couple small pieces of turkey and a cheese stick. We decided to grab a bite to eat after Sydney's dance so that Pat could eat then hit the gym when we got home, have to hurry Vikings game is on!! So we went to Culver's yummy, or so I thought. I tried to be like Pat so I got a cheeseburger and yes a salad with 1000 island dressing. I asked for low-fat but they didn't have it. I dipped my fork in it then put salad on the fork instead of pouring it on top of it. I drank water. We get home and head to the gym, we had thougth about riding bike there but decided not to as Pat had to get gas and we had to stop at Target. Oh, the gym, for some reason my supper did not agree with me. I felt fine until we got there then all hell broke loose. Yes, TMI but I got the shits!! Not once but twice!! Needless to say I think Pat managed to get a mile in but me no luck!!! I had them again when we got home. Great!! For some reason I decided to look up the calories from our meal!! Well, the burger was 399 calories and the salad 229 and the dressing 200!!! that is 848 fricking calories!!!!!!! I thought I was doing well, if I would have had the damn fries the meal would have been 784 calories and I probably wouldn't have gotten the shits!!!!! I am so pissed about this!! You try hard and get sabotaged with hidden shit, how does a restaurant not have low cal or FF 1000 dressing????????????? I am going to be getting that book Eat this Not that!!! I can see why you need a book like this!!!! It's a good thing I didn't have much earlier in the day. I have had 3 glasses of water and 2 bottles today!!! I did have another protein bar about 9:00, my stomach felt weird so I thought I should eat something. SO those SHITS better reflect themselves on the scale. I am weighing tomorrow am just to check!!!!! I am going to have to be cautious about my foods tomorrow. Now I want the dang enchiladas to be spicy!!!!! Frustration!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday- Lots of energy

Today was a pretty good day. My lunch wasn't what I had planned but it sure was good. It wasn't bad, just not on my plan. i had a turkey sandwich on a lite ww bun and a serving of baked doritos and a dt.7-up. I know I hadn't had pop since Saturday and I blew it. blew it with the chips to but at least they were baked and I counted them!!! I also had a protein bar all around 1100. I did not eat breakfast so I just combined the protein bar with lunch. I went to the gym and did 6 miles on the elliptical, which was 67 minutes and 10 minutes on the stair stepper. I, believe it or not did some crunches and some stretching. I came home and around 3:00 had a lettuce salad with red peppers and pea pod, 1000 island dressing. At 6:30 I had egg beaters with a small amount of some sort of 15 calorie per serving cheese, all wrapped up in a 50 calorie high fiber tortilla shell, I was still a little hungry so I had another lettuce salad and a peach. I have had about 5 glasses and 2 bottles of water today. I know I need a "bed snack" as I am feeling a little hungry right now. I will post what I had in tomorrows blog. By the way my snack last night was a skinny cow ice cream sandwich and 16 pretzels.

Wednesday = weights!!

Today started with a chiropractor appointment, fun times, pretty sure he wasn't to happy I was heading to the gym afterwards. He thinks I just ran, I am pretty sure he would have said no to weights today because my lower back and shoulders still hurt a little. Oh Well!!!

The gym was BODY PUMP today!!! Fun times, (not so much) I hadn't been there since the middle of July so it was kinda hard today. I will feel it for sure tomorrow. Misty went with so that was fun and a nice change, however I believe she told me it had been 3yrs or so since she had last done the class. WELL she uses HEAVIER weights than me!!!! YOU GO GIRL!!! I will try to catch back up to those weights!!! I will be there again on Friday!! I still hate weights but at least going to this class MAKES me do them!!!!! There going to be redoing their studio floors the week before labor day so limited classes and times. Great just when I get back to going they throw a wrench in the routine. I will have to find something else to do for that week, better start planning now!!!

My food for today was a protein bar at 9:15
a chicken salad sandwich made with lite mayo and on a ww 80 cal bun around 11:105 I chopped up a whole chicken breast but I didn't eat it all on the sandwich and a cheese stick.
At 2:30 I had a lettuce salad with red peppers and 1000 island
4:30 I had a can of green beans with salsa
6:15 I had some of Pat's programs vegetarian sloppy joes. It is a 90 cal pak and you don't put it on a bun, or I made it wrong because it was more like watery chili. I had attempted some brown rice before I made that and it was disgusting alone, so I put about a tablespoon of it in the chili along with a tablespoon of cottage cheese. Not bad!!
I will have some sort of snacks yet tonight, maybe some popcorn, or a skinny cow ice cream sandwich or a peach. When I calculated my calories for today it is only around 700-800 I don't feel hungry but I don't want to be that low on calories because that can screw you up to!!! I have had about 6 glasses of water so far today, so I am up and running with that for the day any way. Running alright- to the bathroom.

Finding a balance Aug 18th food.

Today was what I would call eventful. I had a protein bar about 8:00 today. I got my first break at 10:00 which was the same time as yesterday but today I didn't have the chance to eat any veggies or fruit before I went on break. BIG difference. At 10:00 I had 1/2 a can of green beans with salsa ( I love this and could eat it every day). I know it was canned beans but to me a veggies is a veggie, who cares where it comes from, I know canned has more sodium. I should compare canned green beans with frozen sometime. (not a fan of frozen, to crispy). Along with the beans I had half a chicken breast. I had a yogurt mixed with some raisin bran without the raisins At 12:00 I had a sugar free jello (all while having to endure the smell of grandma shit pants). At about 12:30 I started to feel really icky, I was sweating and felt like I was going to throw up along with having the shakes really bad, I was also ready to pass out. I KNOW WHAT THIS FEELING IS!!!! LACK OF SUGAR AND CARBS. At 1:00 when I finally got my break I was so shaky it was horrible and I was so hot, this is gross but I could feel the sweat running down my back like when I workout really hard. I made 2 pieces of toast (the slices are smaller than regular bread because it is homemade) I tried to get butter on them but I was to shaky so I ate them almost plain. No, I SHOVED them in my mouth so fast Iam not sure I tasted it. I then finished my half a can of green beans and half of a chicken breast. I still felt "weird" so I had 2 more pieces of toast with PB and jelly only on one piece. Finally feeling a little better. About 2:00 I had 2 fortune cookies. Before going to the gym I had 4-5 animal crackers and a piece of string cheese. I did 4.00 miles on the elliptical. When I got home I had a small spoonful of mashed potatoes with smart balance butter, a salad with red pepper and 1000 Island dressing (FF) and turkey!!!! I have had 2 bottles of water and a bottle of sugar free peach ice tea. I know I need to get more water in, so hopefully starting tomorrow on my 3 days off I will be able to do this. Along with this I need to find a balance between the sugar and the carbs. It actually might not be the carbs but just the sugar. Since I was always eating so many carbs before, I know there was sugar in them. Let me tell you I hate the shakes and that sweating feeling!!! It is like having the bedspins standing up!!! Not fun. For me it is all timing, I thought having the yogurt was enough sugar but I guess not. I know that I can't let it happen again cuz it sucks.

I decided today as I was driving home from the gym, that I should look at this as a science experiment or like homework. It's like having on-going home work and my goal is like a final test/grade!!!!! Not sure where this thought came from, I must have seen a school sign or something, but it makes sense.

Aug 17th Food for the day

At about 8 this morning I had a protein bar, at 1030 I had a hamburger with one package of ketchup and mustard, NO BUN, and some tomato slices. Around 1200 I had some dried apples and some peapods and red bell peppers. I tend to leave these on my desk so that I can just grab some every once in awhile. At 130 I had half of a chicken breast mixed with the green giant steamed veggies and 1/2 cup cottage cheese. At 400 I had 16 pretzel bites and a piece of sting cheese. I knew I needed some kind of carb so that is why I had the pretzels but I counted them out. Wow a serving is hardly any. haha I then went to the gym and did 50 mintues on the treadmill for 4.50 miles. When I got home I ate a hamburger on half of a ww bun and some more tomatoe slices. I had a bottle of water and a couple of glasses today. Not as much as I wanted so I will try harder tomorrow.

Sunday Aug 16th- My food

This was a hard day to start this eating plan, I went to work at 3am!! By 3:30 I was starving, not sure how that works but I was. You will be please to hear that I had some dried apples to ward off the hunger. At 5am when it was time for my break I really wanted toast, but I didn't have any!!! At about 8:00 I had a protein bar, around 9:00 I had some pea pods and attempted some celery but it tasted like crap so I threw it away. At 10:15 I had green giant streamed veggies with a half of a chicken breast cut up in it. At 1:00 I had the other half of my chicken breast and a lettuce salad with some chopped up boiled eggs and a hint of cheese, and of course 1000 Island dressing. I got the dressing at work so I don't know the calories on it cuz it didn't say on the individual package. At 4:30 minutes before leaving for the gym I had 2 teaspoons of 1% cottage cheese. At 7:45 I had half a chicken breast and 3 teaspoons of cottage cheese. I also tried some of this cream of chicken soup they have on Pat's plan and it wasn't the best but I drank it. I have had 3 glasses and one bottle of water so far today. So for the rest of the night it will only be water!!!!! Look, how many processed carbs did I eat today???????? NONE!!!!! Look out tomorrow I will probably be crabby!! haha Off to a good start!!!

What size was that?

It's been a long time since I posted on here, the sad thing is that nothing has changed! It is sad!! I had a huge reality check while packing for ND for almost 2 weeks, what was it you ask? A large amount of my clothes were to tight!!!!! WOW, that one hurt!! I knew that I put on a few pounds but really!!!! That "fat" just likes to creep up on one!! I did do a little shopping and to my disgust I had to buy the next size up from what I was wearing. I could get the smaller one button but there was no way in hell I could ever sit down in it!! Plus who wants 10 fat rolls hanging over their waist band? I could deal with one or two but 10 not so much!!

I had some days filled with drama while on vacation as well, drama does not help me, it only makes me eat and want to have a few beers. Confession I think I had beer almost every night while on vacation. That wouldn't be so bad but I always have to eat something while drinking. I am going to have to give up the beer or give up the munchies with beer if I want to take some of this weight off!! Which will it be? Who knows!! I do only have one beer left in the fridge so I don't think I will buy anymore!!!! Oh the tears are flowing now!!! It is not that i need beer I just like it, one or two every now and again!!

Sharon totally pisses me off in her large weight loss, not that it bugs me that she lost it but how she "appears" to look down at anyone who has a fat roll or two. She constantly reminds people how good she looks and what size she is. I quit listening after awhile but I think it is between a 2 and a 4. This is my thought to her. SHUT YOUR MOUTH. I know she has been through more than I would ever want to deal with but let me tell you sister you lost the weight because of STRESS!!!! Not because you take your ass to the gym almost daily like I do. It just got very old all weekend. She also seems to feel she needs to be the center of attention. Well, I took the wind out of her sail at one point and I know she was pissed. We had just finished eating and I grabbed my stomach and said " nice spare tire I have started to carry around", my dad said " well mine isn't much smaller", Sharon looked at both of us with disgust. Then dad commented on how good Pat looked the day before when he saw him and I had said "he looks great, he is down 50lbs" Dad said " that is amazing". This is not a conversation my sister cared for so she quit listening and walked away. Can't she be happy for anyone but herself!!! IT DRIVES ME CRAZY!!! Do you think Pat likes to eat frickin chicken and veggies everyday?

That is enough about that drama, just had to get it off my chest!! Poof, gone!!! Wonder why I can't do that with my extra pounds!!! haha

This is my plan of action starting Sunday Aug 16th. Why the 16th and not tomorrow well, I go back to work tomorrow and we have had a happy hour planned for the last month so why try to eat well when I am going to drink, I just get pissed when I try and then screw up, so I am waiting until Sunday!! Might even have to call in sick on Saturday!!

This is how my plan should work!!!!!!!!!!

Step one, I am going to clean out my cupboards today and get rid of all the crap, yes that includes the chips but I am sure I will keep them for my emergency eating on Friday night when I get back from Happy Hour and for Saturday when I can't find anything to satisfy me because I drank the night before. Stop it I said I was starting on Sunday so I can have those damn chips and finish the chex mix maybe even the peach pie!!!!!!!!

Step two, prepare, I need to make whatever it is that I am going to eat and portion it all out and put it in the fridge for at least two days in a row. That way I can just grab it and go and there will be no deciding what I should have. I did this when I did WW and it seem to help a lot. My fridge will now be stocked with cooked chicken, and raw veggies. My plan is to sort of follow Pat's plan, how ever I like the Green Giant frozen steamed veggies so I am going to use some of them instead of eating lettuce all the time. Come on they have to be much better for you than a bag of chips.

Step three, I am going to try and not drink pop, I said try!! I am really going to try and drink more water. I love water what I don't like is having to pee every 5 minutes, it really sucks at work. You can't always go when you need to and then you have to take off all the equipment just so you can go!! A pain in the ass but I guess I am going to have to deal with it.

Step Four, the gym, I am going to try and start going back to body pump at least 2 days a week. I really don't mind the gym, when I don't feel like going I tell myself "just go and if you don't want to do a long workout, don't" on these days I usually get some of my best workouts in. I really want to try and start using my exercise ball at home. No, Sheryl I am still not going to use that thing again in public until I can not look like a dumb ass on it, so it may be never!!! Unless it is wall squats with it!!

Step Five, I am going to post what I eat daily on this page as a way to hold myself accountable. If I have to type that I ate a bag of chips it will be pretty embarrassing. No more closet eating for me. If I eat it, I must type it for the world to see!!!

I have not decided yet if I will weigh myself once a week or daily. It drove me nuts to not weigh everyday on vacation, but when I did I was pissed, everyone's scales are so different. Hell Buds said I was 15 lbs more than what I am at home!!! For me it is a reminder, so one day if it says one thing and the next day it is higher I know that I need to watch it more. But on the other hand I think that is what drives me so crazy!!!!!!! So I will have to figure that out by Sunday.

My goal is to lose 2 lbs a week, I think this expectation is realistic and healthy. I NEED to be at a lower weight by VEGAS TIME in OCT. A trip and some weight loss, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

Back to reality!!

I can't believe it has been so long since I have put anything on here!!! This page is what makes me some what accountable for my actions. When I can go back and read what I have been doing it is sometimes just the wake up call I need.
I have kind of given up on doing the new leaf program at the gym. It is so stupid because it is a 12 week program and I did it faithfully until about week 6. Why would I quit then? not sure. I am just not good at following a plan at the gym. I like to go in and do whatever I want to do. I am not sure why this is, I would probably see results if I followed a plan!!! haha

I did start the 5 week Lazy Man Triathlon at the the Y. For some reason I can do this, maybe because I can choose what days I want to run, walk or swim!!
I have done 11.25 miles of the run and 22 miles of the bike/elliptical. I choose to elliptical more than bike if I can because I burn way more calories on the elliptical than on the bike.

I am finding that my new shoes aren't as great as I thought they would be, they hurt my feet when I elliptical. So I guess I will use them for running and either get some new ones or use a miled out pair for the elliptical.
The other part that is a challenge for me is that I don't like to take to many days off a week at the gym when I do this Lazy Man therefore my legs are super sore ALL the TIME!!!
Today I could only elliptical 2 miles because my legs hurt so bad, but I biked for 5.5.
The thing about this is that I think I want to get it done as fast as I can! So in a sense it is a little challenge for myself to see how fast I can complete it. I hate the swimming part so that is where I will fall behind.

I tried to do the 3 day detox again, I started yesterday, I did great yesterday but had some pretzels and a handful of chocolate peanuts today!! I am so irritable if I don't eat carbs. No, this is not a way to justify having them, I "need" them. What I need to learn is that I don't need them in HUGE quantities!! There is a reason for the word "moderation"!!! I better look the meaning of that word up in the dictionary!

I had a really bad 2 weeks where I ate whatever I wanted and I didn't care. There was one day that I had about 6 cookies, I was so sick from all the sugar, it was so stupid. ( I am not a sweets person, I am more about the salt and the crunch). Someone at work says "why are you eating that crap, you always watch what you put in your mouth" here is the reason, I'M SICK OF WATCHING EVERYTHING I EAT AND SEEING ZERO RESULTS, how's that for an answer!!! I had a half a case of beer last weekend and of course had a blizzard after about my 6th beer!! Are you kidding me!!! However I did still go to the gym, so that was the plus side.

I am ready to get back on track, however this detox without the carbs is not really the way for me to do it. It worked better last time when I only ate chicken and vegetables. I ate the green giant veggies that had the sauce on them and mixed in the chicken. It was more like eating hotdish. I did cut way back on the carbs the week I did that, but I didn't eliminate them. That is a much better choice for me!! At least people can stand to me around me.!! I lost 6lbs!! (sad thing is I have gained them back, I think all of them last weekend) BOO HOO HOO, "you did it to yourself girlfriend"
I need to kick it into high gear so I can lose at least 1 fat roll before Vegas in Oct. I will shoot for 2 fat rolls by December. Maybe that will be enough for me to win the 500.00!!!! I could buy a very nice Christmas present for myself with that cash. However I did tell Shopper Hopper that we could do a couples weekend if one of us won, Come on Shopper Hopper a little help here would be nice!!!

Detox day 1 part of day 2

So the detox began yesterday!! First let me tell you that there are no carbs in these 3 days!!!
Yesterday started out good, I ate my two eggs for breakfast and half and orange, off to the gym. When I came home I had salad with turkey,(not deli, the real thing), tomatoes, and celery, 2tablespoons fat free 1000 dressing. I finished the other half of my orange as well. So about 3:30 I am dieing for some carbs, do I do it, can I make it. Not!! First I had one Ak-Mak cracker, this doesn't do it so I had about 10 pretzels with a hint, yes just a hint of PB. Later I have to go to the store to get eggs, I'm thinking I am starving here, what should I have. I went to McDonald's and got a plain chicken sandwich and an iced coffee. I could have the chicken just not the bun!!! I think I needed the carbs to = out the beer I drank the night before. I felt kinda icky all day. What do you expect when you keep all the carbs away from a carb junkie? I hate that feeling. So a few things I shouldn't have had, but I am ok with that.

Day 2, 1 egg this morning, then off to the gym, lunch was a salad with chicken, tomato and celery and ff 1000 dressing. I ate 3 orange sections as well. About an hour after that I ate my other egg, minus the yolk. Since I am working tonight I have packed another salad and some celery sticks. This better work!!! I will blog tomorrow if I was able to stay on track at work!!!

Lost all control!!!!

Today I had a HORRIBLE day at work, the Happy Hour idea didn't pan out and I lost all self control. Lets see I had a lemon bar at 7:10 this am to start my day off cuz the overnight LT pissed me off ( he wasn't even there at this time, left me a note). Then I had some chips, cheese and salsa, thanks gym girl, I told my co-worker Kim I had this really good salsa at your house and she showed up with the same stuff minus the corn!!! I had a cookie, a turkey sandwich, and some sort of foreign meat with spaghetti sauce and noodles, I think it was suppose to be chicken parmesan!!! That was at work, Home, pretzels with PB (dipped by me so you know I loaded on the PB) the rest of the disappointing smore goldfish, pizza, cheese bread, 3 beers (so far) and I believe Pat and Sydney are bringing a blizzard for me on their way home from the store!!! ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!!!!!!

SO, tomorrow I am going to do the 3 day detox from Pat's plan then start the plan myself again on Saturday!!!!
Why couldn't I have just went to the gym and ran FOREVER tonight instead of eating and drinking all night? I need to find a new way to deal with stress, I am really considering a punching bag. Don't have room for one, but I can hang it from something in my garage for the summer!!!! Imagine hitting that in the winter!! NOW that would be a lesson learned!!!
Ok pity party for myself is over, I will finish my happy hour at home tonight and get back on track tomorrow!!! I only have one more cold beer so I shouldn't feel hung over. However these 4 chilled very fast in the freezer!!!!

Weights = laughter!

So my last blog said that I used a 22lb bar for body pump, I was so excited about it that I just had to tell Trevor at work when I saw him. WELL, he informed me that it is not 22lbs, he said 11. I think that he is WRONG, but when I go to the gym I forget to go in and check for myself. My intention was to go to Body Pump tonight and do my new leaf training, but I decided to have Pat spot me in the weight room instead. Does this sound funny? It sure was!!!! I didn't do as much as I would have in the hour long class, however I lifted heavier weights. My arms are already sore. At first I think I am this wonder women when in reality I am a wimp. I do not know how to use my chest muscles and I tend to grip the bar so hard that my hands hurt before the muscles that I am suppose to be working do!!!! If you needed a good laugh that was the place to be!!! I did do 45 minutes on the elliptical so that was good.

My plan is to go to the gym tomorrow, however I might go to happy hour with my friend Nikki, I asked her on Saturday and she had to check her overbook social calender so not sure if it will happen!! I told her we could just have a couple, but that is not the way is seems to go when I go to happy hour, last time I only had 26.00 and managed to stay for 5 hours!!! Happy Hour= no gym.
Unless I could get my butt out of bed and go in the morning. Not likely. I haven't been sleeping at nights again so I could just as well get up and go but I don't!!!
My plan is to go everyday this week, so hopefully I can do that!!

Open the toolbox, girlfriend

I can't believe it is June 10th already!!! wow, with this weather I thought it was April!!! What is frustrating is that when I have my days off it RAINS, not that we don't need the rain, but help me out here, I do work 6 days in a row how about one of them!!

This past weekend I went with my sister to my niece's soccer tournament, now when I say cold, I mean cold!!! I wore snow boots and a winter jacket, that is not a joke, I might have looked like a freak, but I was still stink'in cold!! At least they won 1 of the 3 games!! It was nice to see but not much fun, not to mention I was up at the butt crack of dawn both days to attend, not something I do on my days off. Look at how nice I can be!!

My new leaf is still going well, I had planned to do it all last week, but Wed and Thursday I worked late, one night until 8 the next until 11. (money, money, money, no time off cuz I can't stand being there) I could have went to the gym on Wed when I got off at 8, but I thought it would be much better to sit in front of the TV and eat. I did not eat good stuff either. No excuses I just didn't do it.
Monday I did spend two hours at the gym, one doing cardio and one doing Body pump.

Today I should have done two hours again to get back on track with the cardio but I just did Body pump, however I used the 22lb bar today!!!! I am so Excited about that!! I may not be able to lift my arms tomorrow but it sure felt good today, I even added weight to the bar!!!! At one point I had 40lbs on it for squats and something else. I hate squats no matter what I do they hurt my lower back, however I have just figured out that when you push your butt back you also have to point it downward, sounds dumb but that is what they tell you. I really, really have to concentrate while doing this!! Because my back always hurts that would be the reason I don't load the weight for squats!
I always wondered why when I did the chest track that my chest never hurt, well good old Trevor told me the last time he and I were at the same class that I have to squeeze my chest more and not use my arms. Why, thank you my friend, now my chest hurts. It is amazing how if you do it right you get more out of it!!!

The Y always does a Lazy Man triathlon in the summer, I think I am going to spend the $10.00 and do it again this year, I did it one other year, you have 5 weeks to complete it. Anyone want to do it with me? You can do it from anywhere (you just won't get the Y prize) you walk/run 26.2 miles, elliptical or bike 112 and swim or row 2 or 2.5 (whatever a triathlon is) I will get the exact numbers if anyone cares to join me!! It was actually kind of fun, I did the running in less than a week last time. Ok Gym Girl, if you read this I am going to break it down for you,(5 miles a day X5 days=25 so a little over one more mile to finish).hahaha The swimming sucked I left it all for the last week, who knew swimming 2 miles would take the whole week and almost kill me!!! Note to self for this year, do not do that again!

I would go back tonight to do the cardio but I think I'd better get my bathrooms cleaned, they are screaming at me!!

My friend Kim got me started on iced coffee, I don't really like coffee, but I have craved it the last couple of days, so today I got a mint something at Caribou, sad thing is I KNOW this will make me SICK!!! Is this some sort of disorder, knowing you will get sick and still consuming it? Like an anorexic will purge because they feel guilty and need to get rid of it, where I will go the other way and just get the runs, I know this so why do I do it? It doesn't make the dang scale go down any quicker. However if I had one everyday, then would it? hahah just kidding, I am not like that, plus the fact that I am to cheap to spend $4.60 on a dang coffee everyday!!

I really need to kick it in the butt, if I think that I am going to win the $500.00 at Christmas time for the family contest. Last time I talked with Judy she was down like 20lbs (thank you WW) myself still only 10. Mom, not sure if she is doing it or just pays her $10.00 a month, Sheryl, what are you doing???? Get off vacation and get back to the gym and this blog page with all your support for me!!! Shantel not sure about her either, last time I talked with her she was at a plateau (stop the beer and the scale will move).

I thought I was headed for a total of 11lbs lost last week, but when you eat a container of honey cinnamon almonds in 3 days it AINT GONNA HAPPEN FOR YA!!!!

Pat is doing so well on his plan, he has some cheat stuff but nothing compared to me, besides almonds my other craving is peanut butter on pretzels!!! Are you kidding me!!

I have decided that tomorrow June 11th I will once again eat what I am suppose to, good luck with that!!! Just kidding I know I can do it and I do feel better and have more energy when I eat healthy, but sometimes Culver's just calls my name!!! (If I would just remember to take the dang pills that control hunger, which really do work, it wouldn't be so hard) See, stupidity on my part once again!!!!

If I have the tools in my tool box why can't I build a healthier body!!!

Off to a good start

I am off to a good start on my new leaf training, I got all my cardio workouts in last week just not the strength ones. I did go to gym 4days in a row!!! Pat and I rode bike up to the gym and back yesterday it is about 6miles all together, it was a bit windy otherwise it was really nice!! I wouldn't mind riding by myself but we go thru part of a park that is woods, it kind of creeps me out. Guess I would learn to ride faster if I was by myself!! My intention was to ride to the gym, do a short workout and ride back, well I did not do a workout, but I did go in a get my YMCA perk, 10 free guess passes if anyone wants to take advantage of those with me, please do!!! So if you count stopping at the front desk as going to the gym then we can make it 6days in a row!

Today I did 22 minutes on the elliptical and then did the Body Pump class, so I am on track with the strength training for the week (No, you don't have to remind me that the week just started) hopefully I can get all three in. I did hear from one of the veteran Body Pumpers that going three times a week is really hard, glad to hear that, I still plan on trying to go three times but if I can't I won't feel so bad!!! I actually was suppose to do 45 minutes on a cardio routine today so hopefully tonight we can get a bike ride in!!!

Back after the weekend!!

It's hard to believe that it is almost June!!! Since I started this weight loss journey back in January I have managed to lose 10 lbs, that is all fine and good but I need it to be more!!! Or maybe I should say I want it to be more!!!

Since we got back from the weekend in Fargo, today is the first day back to the gym and it was horrible, I did not even want to go! Last week when I was sick I thought it had passed, NOT! I was sick again Monday night, so I made an appointment for Tuesday and went in. The dr thinks I have a stomach virus or bacteria, she did some blood work (yes, 5 TUBES) so we are waiting to get the results back, for now some sort of medicine to help with the acid or something and something for the nausea. Great stuff, good thing for insurance it was $158 but with insurance it was $12, just for the nausea medicine. So hopefully I will be feeling better soon. The gym was closed on Monday, Tuesday I had the dr appointment and did not feel like working out. Today I went to work at 3am, came home took a 2.5 hour nap, did not want to go to the gym but did. I did 62 minutes on the elliptical and hated every minute of it. However I should have went to Body Pump to stay on track with my new leaf workout but I skipped that. If I don't do it when I feel good, why the heck would I do it when I am not at my best!!!

My job is really stressing me out right now, and I don't feel the best, when will it all stop!
I must say that the weekend in Fargo was so fun and really relaxing. Thank you to my wonderful husband for taking me to my all time favorite place in Fargo, Johnny Carinos. Bowtie pasta, Italian Margaritas and Cheesecake, what more could you ask for? Nothing except when can we go again? Hahaha

Back to reality!

Here I am thinking I have a half hour to get ready to go to the gym for the 2nd time today, I worked out this morning, did my new leaf workout and since this is a strength day I need to go back from 8-9 for body pump, this is the only day they don't have a class in the morning. No I am not thrilled to be going back but I figure it is one less thing to do tomorrow.



I planned out my workouts for this week and got my sticky notes ready to put on the machines so I know exactly what I need to do when I am there. Good for me, yes a laid out plan, well Wednesday I was sick so that threw the whole plan off. I need to do 3 days of strength training and we all know I can't do this on my own, so I go to body pump, my plan for this week was Monday, Wednesday and Friday. Since I couldn't go on Wednesday it is all messed up, so I will miss a day of strength unless I do something on my own Sat or Sun? Maybe!!



When I was sick it was weird it was like someone was punching me in the stomach really hard, topped with nausea. Not fun!!!



I found this quote in a magazine and I think it speaks volumes!!!! "The first weight you lose is what you carry on your shoulders" (asics shoes). This is so true for me anyway, I take things way to personally and I think that things have to be perfect or done to my expectations and I am sure that I don't know how to "really" relax.!!

What I've learned is that I CAN NOT CONTROL THINGS OR OTHER PEOPLE. When I let go, I am so much more happier. It is really not worth it to internalize things and be miserable, this is how I see the weight on my shoulders being lifted is learning to "let it all go". For me this needs to include my obsession for weight loss!!

What I don't get it that I am obsessed about going to the gym, obsessed about the number on the scale, but when it comes to food the obsession goes the other way, I am obsessed with it. Why is that? I try really hard to eat healthy, but then this little voice says "yes, you can have just a small bite, or have a little it won't hurt, you can work it off" It is so frustrating!!! I need to find a way to get rid of the "little voice"!! I know how hard I work at the gym and eating crap only makes me have to work harder, now why would I want to do that? My philosophy has always been "work smarter, not harder" I thought I did this but I know that I don't when it comes to eating then having to work it off!!!

One thing I am getting better at is when we go out to eat, I have been making better choices, I always think if I am going out to eat, I am certainly going to have what I want. This is so dumb, it is not like we don't go out often, but my mind somehow thinks "this might be the last time I go out, so why would I have something healthy.

This coming week is going to be screwed up for me with Monday being Memorial day, I work and the gym is only open until 4:00, therefore no Body Pump, my hope is to at least get some sort of cardio in when I get off work, either a walk or a bike ride!!!

Long time,no posts!!

Where have I been and what have I been doing? Not sure, can't remember it has been so long since I blogged. I did workout on Saturday and on Sunday. Sunday I did some weight lifting as Pat was there to "spot" me. I am weak so that didn't last to long. Actually what I noticed and so did Pat is that my right arm seems to be weaker than my left, which is weired because I am right handed. Something to work on I guess!!

Monday I did not workout as I had my New Leaf test on Tuesday and you can't workout the day before.

Tuesday, I did the test, it was at 11:30, did I mention that you can't eat before this either!! Well you can about imagine how hungry I was when I finally got to eat, which was about 1pm. I ate everything in site and pretty much ate non-stop I think!!!! Not good, what I know is that if I get off my eating schedule and have to wait, I am out of control. I eat between 8-9 on days I work, I can't stand the sight of food at 6am. Wow, can it always be 6am, then I wouldn't eat!!!! On days when I am off I will eat when I get up.

Today- Wednesday, I went to the gym at 11:30 as I had to meet with my trainer at noon to get my results. What I learned is that I burn more calories, which are coming from fat now than I did before, and my VO2 max is 30% higher. This test also kicks out a new "workout" plan!! Great another plan! I fully intend to stay committed to this for the 12 weeks that it will take to complete it. I have it set up to workout 4 days a week and strength train 3 of them!!!! Anything more than this is a bonus. This time the workouts are staggered between 30-35-40-and 45 minutes!!! I usually do at least 50 minutes so if I keep that up I will have some "bonus" time in. My goal is to lose 20lbs, with this plan I should lose a pound a week. I am not happy about it being so little but if I keep it off I guess I will go with that!! What I need to do is decide when I should start it. If I start tomorrow it might screw me up so I might wait and start it on Monday. I will still workout just not do the plan, we will see maybe I will start it!!!

Now if the weather would start being nice again it would help!! oh an the scale moves downward I might once again fit into the 8 pair of work pants that hang so neatly in my closet!!! poor things!! Now if wearing some beautiful polyester pants is not incentive enough to lose some weight I don't know what is!!!!! hahah They are so stylin!!

Pump it up!!

I got up this morning not feeling the best my head hurt and my stomach I did however go to the gym. I did 12 minutes on the elliptical and then did the body pump class!! Since I haven't been to the class in what seems like forever it seemed really hard!! I was hesitant about going cuz I didn't feel the best but glad I did!! Still not feeling the best, do you think it could be to many vegetables? hahaha

I amazed myself!!!

Hi there, I am back, yes I have been busy and my business has not included much gym time. No, not much happy hour time either, haha. Last weekend we made a quick trip to Fargo so therefore no gym Saturday or Sunday, I did work Saturday, got off at 3 and left about 6:15 for Fargo.

Monday I did go to the gym and did 45 minutes on the elliptical, Tuesday of course I didn't go to the gym, far to lazy and had to be home to watch BL at night!!! Wednesday I did 16 hours at work, gotta get that overtime when you can!!!

Thursday-today, I was super tired when I got home, those 16 hours yesterday killed me!! I watched my 2 hours of Y&R and took a little nap then headed to the gym at 6:45. I did 5 miles on the treadmill in 55 minutes- RUNNING!!! I ran the whole thing with the exception of 3 times , once I had to re-tie my shoes, once to fix my I-pod and once to walk for 2 minutes as I thought I was going to throw up!!! I know GROSS!! I ran most of it at 5.8 then would increase to 6 and 6.5!!! It felt really good, with the exception of the 2 minutes I thought I was going to be sick, not sure what that was all about!!

Who catches up with me tonight at the gym, STACEY, my trainer!! Who would have thought she would be there at night, certainly not me, good thing I was having a good workout!! She has been wanting me to retest on on the New Leaf for awhile now so....... tonight I set up the appointment for next Tuesday at 11:30. I can't exercise the day before or eat before the test, guess I will just sleep in, that shouldn't be a problem for me!!!!! Love it!!

Oh, I must tell you that I actually lifted a few weights on Monday and tonight, don't start cheering yet, it is a small step.

However, I have been thinking alot about my sister-in law, Mona, she has stage 2 Hodgkin's Lymphoma, she is doing chemo and has started to lose her hair, actually she just had Sheryl save her head for her when she was up in Minot for work on Tuesday. With her in mind I have decided that since she did not choose to get cancer, but has to deal with it. I am not going to choose to lift weights, I am just going to do it!!! Yes, I know she has a much bigger hill to climb to fight the cancer, my point is that sometimes you just have to do things you don't want to or don't like!!!!

GROSS!!

Just wanted to let you know that I just tried eating Tilapia, that will NEVER happen again!! It tasted like dirty feet!!! No I do not eat dirty feet but I have to think they would be better than Tilapia. I will make peace with my weight as long as I don't have to eat that again!!!! ICK. Just one more "great" thing to add to this day!!!

Wow, it's been a long time!!

As I said in my last blog I wanted to go to the gym on Friday before we left for ND, well that did not happen!!!
Our trip to ND was fast but fun. There was no exercising on this trip but there was some "eating" that wasn't the best!! I had some pizza, chex mix, cake and beer!!! I did eat healthy food as well. I am happy to say that I did not gain any weight over the weekend!!!!

Monday- look out, not good!!! I had training on Mental Health Awareness in the morning and 1st aide in the afternoon. Lunch was great, we went to Applebee's and I had a grilled chicken sandwich, plain of course and only ate half the bun. I got back to training and a couple of the girls wanted to go to Happy Hour. I of course tried to get out of it, I was doing good so I wanted to stay on track, but they make me feel so guilty, one works 3-11 so I hardly see her now and the other one I only see 3 days a week, so it doesn't happen very often when we are all together. I give in and go, with $8.00. Enough for two beers (bottles of course for this high class drinker) then home. NOT!! My husband was nice enough to drop off $20.00 for me so instead of getting home around 5:30 5 beers and one shot later I get home about 8:30!!! I had a bite or so of my friends buffalo chicken wrap then when I got home I had a sandwich. Are you seeing a pattern here!! Beer and real food, none of this is on my food plan!!!! It was fun so I guess I will "take ownership" for all those calories I consumed. The scale is so paying me back for this!!!

Tuesday, it was beautiful out, I wanted to go for a walk, but my energy level was at a big fat 0!!! Therefore once again no exercise for me.

Today, started out as an ok day, not much going on at work. About 12:30 they drop one off from downtown. My goodness she is a peach!!!! She had a wonderful attitude and was a very "smart" one I might add. I put her in our holding tank and when I turn around to close the door I notice the toilet is full of toilet paper, now the smart human would know that the toilet is plugged without having to go inspect it. I have to go open another door and let the deputies out. I come back and of course the inmate has to use the toilet, she must have attempted to use it before she told me that it wouldn't flush!!! Are you kidding me!!! I have to call the engineers to come and fix it. In the mean time I am nice enough to ask this "fine inmate" if she would like to use the bathroom in the other cell. Hold on for this one, she asks why she can't use the plugged one!!!! Are you kidding me, I looked at her and I said "what the f@@c do you think" and slammed the door. The toilet gets fixed and my temper gets hotter and hotter, you see I am so sick of working with stupid people and this time I am talking about my co-workers, do you not know that the toilet is plugged and should be fixed!!!!!!! It was plugged on Monday apparently, Might I remind you today is Wednesday, but no one called anyone. I am so mad I send them an e-mail telling them that a toilet full of crap is an good indication that it is plugged and needs to be fixed. I also told them I am tired of having to deal with things they don't' do!!!!!! Oh my goodness I got back some Nasty e-mails!!!! They basically said that they didn't know my job was so hard and that I needed to quit pointing fingers at them and suck it up and deal with it!!!! Game on assholes, tomorrow is going to be rough. I am not one to hide behind an e-mail I will tell you to your face you are a lazy piece of shit!!! I am planning what days to ask for off when I get suspended. You see at our job when you get time off without pay, they are dumb enough to let you pick your days!!! How about the 3rd and 4th of July!!!! I am sure it won't come to that but just in case!! I might just have to have some beer when I get home tomorrow!!!!

The whole point to telling that story was that I was so pissed that they are so stupid and basically attacked me for saying what I thought that I went to the gym and did 4.60 miles in 50 minutes!!!! See what frustration does for me!!!! Maybe I should go to the gym before work so that I can be "oh so calm" when I talk to them. The worst part about the whole thing is that I have been there 5.5years and the ones e-mailing me have been there about 2 years!!! Who do you think knows how the job is suppose to be done!!!!! Not to talk myself up but I was one of the first officers to work in the women's unit and as of now I am the only remaining officer from day one!!! Sorry kids think I know what is going on!!!! Little secret, I TRAINED YOU ALL-DUMBASSES!!!!!!

Maybe it is my fault, I don't think I ever showed them what a plugged toliet looks like, I did however show them how to clean the "trap". GROSS!!!!!!! One would have thought that would have been close enough!!

You did what?

Today, what a day, At work I think I did more work in my first 45 minutes than I have all week. My regular partner called in sick so I was with 2 new part-timers which made it even worse. I will tell you one thing after today they sure know the "real" Shelia. An example of that would be I went to throw something away and noticed my trash can had trash in it but no bag, 1st thing that pissed me off, so I go get a bag and when I pick up the can, I notice a half eaten strawberry in there. So I say to the new guy (I am thinking the 11-7 officer did it) "whose the jackass that threw a strawberry in this trash when there clearly isn't a bag in here" "Idiot". The new guy, Travis doesn't say anything but his face is getting very red. I said "oh so your the jackass, idiot" "clean it up then". He of course has an inmate do it but it got done, so I really didn't care. Then I tell him he is going to have to supervise this "BORING, hard to understand play that is going to happen at 1:30, he said "no way in hell, I had to do that when I got trained in and it sucked". I say "sorry punk" "I'm punking you out, because it really sucks, and I can, but on the brighter side your experienced at it since you've done it before" The Star Tribune even came to do a story on the 10,000 Things performers, they perform at jails and are non-profit or something. Not sure what issue it will be in but the inmates were getting all "dolled" up incase they got their picture taken!!! That's one for your kids scrapbooks!!!!

What a day, after work we had a union meeting with lawyers present at the Green Mill to discuss the TB out break that has been going on for a year now. 47 officer have had positive tests with 3 actually contracting TB. This isn't looking good, but the pizza at the meeting was looking very good. I asked my friend Nikki if I should have a piece as her skinny ass was on her 2nd slice and she said yes so I did!!! What are friends for!!.

To try and rid my head of guilt I headed to the gym and did 4.20 miles on the treadmill in 50 minutes. It was about 650 calories. While on the treadmill I am thinking that pizza was so not worth all this work. Remember that for next time why don't you dumbass!!!

My hope for tomorrow is to get to the gym before we leave for ND. It will be an interesting trip. Our plan is to take turkey sandwiches with us for lunch so that we can still eat off the plan while in the car. Incase you are wondering what that smell is, yes I am making a turkey breast at this very moment. You see the plan does not allow for Deli meats, to much sodium, therefore I have to cook!!! The plan is also not very "travel friendly" unless you think eating a salad in the car is considered friendly!! I don't think my husband would even allow salads in the car!!!!! No Ketchup, I know that one for sure!!!!