Last week!!

Last week was horrible for me. I was sick Wednesday through Sunday. I had a bad throat infection and I couldn't talk at all. For some that would be a nice welcome, for me, disaster, I had to call in sick to work 4 days. If I am going to burn sick time, please let me "not"be sick. haha . The other hard part to this was that it was so gorgeous outside and I was stuck inside. I did not get to the gym, but stuck pretty darn close to the eating plan that I was trying, chicken and veggies. It is a little hard to want to eat anything when it feels like someone is pouring tabasco sauce down your throat.

I went back to work on Monday and to the gym, I only did 35 minutes on the elliptical and called it good.

I went to the gym on Tuesday and did 30 minutes on the elliptical machine that feels more like skiing, and 10 minutes on the other elliptical.

As of today, Wednesday I am down 6.5lbs. I did go to the gym tonight and walked on the treadmill for 45 minutes at an incline of 4.0-9.0 and a speed of 4.3-4.5. I tried to run a little bit, but that didn't seem to be in my best interest. Reason, I went tanning before the gym, this is something I know that I should not do. I get way to hot when I am working out. I also had pants on so I was super hot. The problem with the running is that my right leg must have gotten burnt on the top and when I ran it would rub really bad on my pants, why it didn't when I was walking I'm not sure, but let me tell you it was a pain when I ran!! Enough of that!!! I would have saved the tanning until after the gym but those prom going high school girls seem to be out in full force at the tanning salon. I even did a level 5 bed, so that I didn't have to wait so long. That bed is HOT!!! I now remember the reason I always turn down a level 5 bed. It will spray water on you if you push the button, but to me that is way to creepy, I think I am going to get electrocuted!!!
I am off to Bismarck tomorrow so the rest of the week, I don't see many workouts or any for that matter. My hope is that I don't gain any weight!!! I struggle when I can't exercise for more than a couple of days, I usually fall off the wagon!!! I know Kris will be bringing chex mix so I'd better stand my ground or I will eat the whole container!!!!!!! Beer I will be fine since I am taking the antibiotic I shouldn't have any!!!!

WEAK WEDNESDAY!!

I called in sick for today, my head got worse last night and so did my throat. Today my throat still hurts but my voice is almost gone!!!! Good thing I called in sick last night when I could talk. Calling in sick=no gym!!!

Food for today, when I am sick I do weird things, I started off really good with a bowl of oatmeal and later a can of tomato soup for lunch. Around 3:00 I had a lettuce salad. This is all good except after 3, lookout!! I was hungry but didn't know what I wanted so what is my "you make me feel good food"? Yes, I ate chips!!! I shutter at the fact that I have to write that. I also had a bowl of cereal, are you kidding me!! Oh and 2 pops. Please don't worry about my "Weak Wednesday" as the milk and my stomach were not friends and I'm pretty sure what I ate is now gone. (Sorry you had to read about it).

My hope for tomorrow is to make it to the gym and not eat what I am not suppose to, when I don't feel good I tend to eat everything until I find something that tastes good, at least today I somewhat controlled it. I have had a lot of water today!

Tuesday - food for the day

Once again I did not work out. Still not feeling good. My head hurts and my throat is sore, I get the chills off and on, so I think I am heading for the flu to kick in!!!

Breakfast was only 2 oatmeal breakfast cookies at 8am.(usually I have 3) I ate one clementine at 12:30.
For Lunch I had a chicken breast chopped up with steam fresh green giant vegetables, this one had small pieces of potato in it, red peppers and pea pods, I believe, there is some kind of sauce on this one and the one I had yesterday but not enough to make it unhealthy, it sure is good. There is 2 servings of the vegetables in the package, I put the whole thing in with the chicken (looks like I have a bunch of food then). I only ate half of this because my 1st break is at 10:30am. My next break is 1:30 so I finished the rest.

For supper I had the same salad as yesterday, some pineapple and 1/3 cup of fat free cottage cheese.

Snack later was 12 almonds and a sugar free/fat free hot chocolate.
I was around the same calorie count today as yesterday. I didn't eat as much fruit. No pop today, still working on more water, I did a little better than yesterday.

Monday- food for the day

I did not do a workout today as I am not feeling good. (big surprise there)! However I am on a different eating plan, this one does not allow for a bag of chips or a box of crackers!! This week my plan is to eat only chicken, veggies, fruit and the oatmeal cookies that I make for breakfast. I am also trying not to drink pop.

Today was the first day, it went surprisingly well. I did however eat 24 almonds=1serving and a 100 calorie sugar free pudding. I did not have any pop, but I did drink 2 sugar free, fat free hot chocolates. My throat was sore so I thought that and the pudding might help. My calorie intake for the day was around 1100. I had half of a banana, 1 clementine,approximately 1/2 cup of fresh pineapple. Hold on for this one, I ate LETTUCE!! I put tomatoes, chicken and yellow and orange peppers on it to make a salad, with lite 1000 dressing. That was supper, lunch was chicken breast chopped up in the steam fresh green giant vegetables. These are the most wonderful creation invented if you ask me. I used the baby vegetable medley- there is no broccoli in this one!!!!

I actually felt full, so that is good, I did not drink as much water as I would have liked to, I will work on that

Nice short walk outside

Today after work Pat and I went for a short walk outside, it is still a bit windy for me to be out, but it felt really good to get some fresh air. The bottom of both my feet were hurting today. I am thinking it was because we left right after I got off work, I did not sit down and rest. I was on them most of the day at work today as well. I also think I need new work shoes. I am so ready for nice weather so I can walk to the Y. It is 3 miles from our house, there and back is a nice walk!

Saturday workout!

I ellipticaled for 32 minutes which was 3.15 miles. I had set the machine up to do an hour but at 32 minutes I had hit a button and it went to a new set up. Rather than continue I got off and decided to so some weights. I did squats, lat pull downs and some rowing type exercise. Lots of fun!! NOT!! Oh yes and crunches!!

Friday- Round Two

I went back to the gym tonight with Pat. I did another 3.20 miles on the treadmill in 35minutes. I ran at a 6.0 almost the whole time. I had to jump off for a couple of seconds every once in awhile because the bottom of my foot was hurting again. Sometimes when I don't exercise for awhile then start up again, my foot will hurt on the bottom and side, it goes away after a day or so.

Back at it!

I went to the gym this morning and had a great workout!! When I walked in the door the lady at the desk said "hi Shelia", I can't remember her name but she goes to the body pump class and I just met her last week. Then I get upstairs and who is up there, my trainer, Stacy, she had sent me an e-mail last week to see how I was doing, well she caught me today!!! She asked about strength training and I said I have been going to body pump, no weights, not what she wanted to hear!! I did tell her that I would make an appointment to re-test with the New Leaf program. It will be interesting to see how I did with that!! It was a 12 week program and I started it in Nov, and just finished it now, WHAT DOES THAT SAY!!! PITIFUL!!

I kind of did an interval workout today, I ran and walked and switched the speed and the incline. I did 4.50 miles in 55 minutes and burnt 600 calories. My goal was to do 5 miles today, but I looked at the clock and realized it was noon and I had a massage appointment for 1:00 so I had to get moving!!

The massage placed in Woodbury screwed up what I was suppose to get for a massage so I have to reschedule, I was so MAD!!!!! It is Friday the 13th after all!!

Back for a day

I was back at the gym this morning and did 35 minutes on the elliptical. The bottom of my foot was hurting again, I was ready to stop anyway. I did get 400 calories and 3.15 miles in so I was glad for that.

Off to Kohls to look for something to wear for the funeral. I said I wasn't going to buy anything until I lost some weight, this is an exception, let me tell you it was very disheartening!! Those mirrors sure tell it all. I saw fat rolls that I didn't realize I had!!! It is so frustrating!!! I best be kicking it into high gear at the beginning of next week!!! I could just scream!!
I am going to try and hit the gym tomorrow morning before we head to Fargo, that means I have to get up early!! oh I hate that!!

Thursday workout!

My plan was to go to the gym when I got home from work today. Little mid-day change of plans. Noelle, Amy and Brian want to know if I am going to go to happy hour at the Green Mill while Noelle waits for her oil change to get done. I thought about it and then decided I wasn't going to go. When I went to leave work who was waiting for me by the gate. Amy!!! She told Noelle if she didn't wait for me I would ditch them. So I went, good thing I only had $10.00 in my car!!! Brian was the one who ditched us so it was just the girls. I had two beers then came home. I do not feel that it would be a good idea to go the gym after drinking beer!!! I need to but I am not going. It is really crappy outside anyway!!!

Wednesday workout!

Today was a workout. I had control tactics training at work. Fun, great fun. That is if you liked to get handcuffed, pulled to the ground with one hand still in cuffs, kicked, punched and thrown to the floor. It was training but it can get pretty physical at times. We kick and punch while our partner is holding a mat like shield, then the shield changes hands, not bad, except my partner was a strong male. Some of those kicks almost sent me to the floor. We also learned how to take someone down by pushing on pressure points. They didn't even have to hit my pressure points and I was freaking out. That HURTS!! Moral of the story, don't make me mad!!! haha

I later went to the gym and did 25 minutes, 3 miles on the elliptical then went to the body pump class. I must say my arms are sore today. I used a heavier bar and added more weights. I swear we did 25 bicep curls in row at one point. I thought my arms were going to fall off. I still hate squats, my lower back kills me when I do these, however last night I fought through the pain and did almost all of them.

This might just inspire me!!!

You have brains in your head, you have feet in your shoes, you can steer yourself in any direction you choose. You're on your own and you know what you know, YOU are the guy who'll decide where to go. ~Dr. Seuss

Dr. Seuss, so knowledgeable!!! I do have brains, I do have feet in my shoes and I can choose my direction, I am on my own and I will decide where to go!! Look at all that power I have!! Chose to use it!!

I told Pat tonight that I think what is holding me back from losing weight is the fact that I am scared. You see the last time I lost weight, once I reached almost where I wanted to be, one pound shy, I would get sick everytime I ate!! I do mean every time, it didn't matter what I ate, I would get the "runs". This became almost debilitating for me. I would not eat the whole 6-8 hours back to ND, if we went out to eat, we had to go somewhere close to home so that I would have time to make it back to my own bathroom, I would usually only eat toast at work, because that was "safe" dry toast at that. So now I can eat almost whatever and not get sick. I think what scares me is that I DO NOT WANT TO GO BACK!! If I want chips now, I eat them, before no way. So I guess that I am scared that some of my "favorite" things will be taken away from me so now I eat as much as I can, just incase that happens. Therefore not losing any weight. When I went to a dietitian awhile ago, she seemed to think that I got sick because I limited the fat content so much in my diet, and I ate pretty much the samething day in and day out. So by doing this anything new I ate with more fat than what my body was used to would just make me sick. Obviously I somehow overcame that, as I don't limit anything I eat now!!! I still get sick sometimes but that is my own fault and it is because I overeat!!
I guess I am going to have to really concentrate on this so that I can lose weight. I know that I can't restrict the fat as much as I did before when I eat, but I also need to eat healthier foods. When I did WW I would get in my point allowance but it was usually from a lot of carbs and not so many fruits and veggies. I will take a look at all of this and see if I can get back on track, now that I have admitted to myself and out loud what I find as the underlying issue.

I also talked to Shantel tonight, we are doing a family weight loss challenge starting today, the winner which will be determined in December will win at least $500.00. That is huge!! Anyway she has been working out like a mad women and has been writing down what she eats. She says she try's to only eat as much as she has worked off. She works out in the morning, then subtracts what she eats off her total calories burned. Funny I just talked about that in my last blog. She has lost about 5lbs she said in I think 2 weeks. So it will work if I just do it.
I get motivated by her!! I used to be just like that!!!
The reason she called me was because I texted her that I just ate pizza like a pig. She calls and says "what the hell did you eat pizza like a pig for". I have no answer nor do I have an excuse.. But I learned a lesson, get your butt moving or you will have no chance at the $500.00. Game on girlfriend!!!!

Tuesday workout

I went to the gym today, my nose is still a little runny and my head isn't going to blow up, although it does sort of feel that way when you are on the treadmill!! I had to do an interval training today, which I was not in the least bit excited to do, I hate them. It turned out to not be as bad as I thought it was going to be. I did it for the 35 minutes then continued on for a total of 55 minutes, 4.50 miles and almost 700 calories. Not bad for not feeling so good. What I decided while doing this is that I think from now on I am going to have to be how I was when I was doing WW. I have to burn the calories I consume in one of my meals!!! SO If I eat 1000 calories worth of chips, I will have to work hard to burn them off. Actually when I did this before I was so obsessed that I would burn between 1000-1300 calories per workout and didn't stop until I reach the number I was going for. When I did this I usually chose to burn off my lunch. That was when I was working 3-11. So this time I am not sure what I will try to burn off. Maybe my snacks, all together they are probably more calories than all 3 of my meals, therefore the reason I lose no weight. Actually I don't think I should call it snacking, how about non-stop eating, that is more like it!! So sad!

I have this uncontrollable urge to eat when I get home from work. Part of it is that I wait way to long to eat, then I am overly hungry and nothing is safe, I will eat whatever. Ok, not true I will eat the most unhealthy crap and leave the healthy stuff to spoil. Stupid!! I know this is so dumb, I realize when I am doing it that I am going to have to work that much harder at the gym, but I don't care, until I get to the gym and actually start working out and begin thinking of all the crap I ate. My brain is fried when it comes to putting eating and exercise together.
Why is that? I try not to buy chips and crackers but then find myself circling the store at least 3 times and ultimately going back and grabbing them. If I wouldn't buy them, I would not eat them. I am not the type of person to run out and get chips because I am craving them, therefore I wouldn't even have to worry about it. Maybe that should be my newest goal, not buy chips, however Old Dutch just brought the Ketchup chips to the US, huge downfall, why couldn't they have just left them in Canada!!!! Love them!!
If I had to clean out my cupboards of all the processed and bad stuff I eat, I wouldn't have anything left!! SAD but true!
Most people trying to lose weight don't like to exercise, me, I don't mind that I just can't eat right. Where can I find someone to eat good for me and I will do the exercise for them, win, win for both, if only this were possible.
I need to find a solution that will work for eating and exercise so that I can get to where I want to be. Let me ponder this for another day!!!!!! What is one more day, I have been pondering it since I started this blog!!! Frustration!

Monday- I have a cold

There will be no gym today unless there is a miracle cure for a runny nose and something that will make my head feel like it is not going to blow up!!! I started feeling icky on Saturday when we got back from the party, there was a lot of smoking in the garage so I thought I was just plugged up from that. Turns out it might be an actual cold. GREAT!!! I will say that I am not going to feel guilty about not going to the gym because the darn scale doesn't move anyway!!! We will see what tomorrow brings. On my days off can I for once not feel sick!!!

Sunday workout!

I must say I do not like to workout on Sunday's for some reason, Pat and I walked the track and called it a good day. Off to run all the errands that we had to do! Once again, I should have done more but I went so that is a good thing.

Saturday Workout

I worked Saturday morning so when I got home I thought wow I want a nap, but I decided that going to the gym was more important that napping so I headed out. I did 65 minutes on the elliptical, in intervals, ick. It was a great workout I did 6.25 miles and burnt a little over 700 calories. Then I hit the tanning bed, home and off to the weight loss party in Hudson for one of Pat's friends that hit his 100lb goal!!! Good for him!!

Friday workout!

My plan was to go to Body Pump and the Kickboxing class, however I went to work at 3am so when I got home at 3:30 I was BEAT! I thought I would take a quick nap and then head for the gym, Body Pump was at 5:40, I heard the phone ring at 6:00, I missed Body Pump, then I decided who needs Kickboxing anyway. So I didn't go to either class but I did go with Pat and we walked the track. Not my plan but at least I did something!!!