What if?

What if I don't make my Vegas goal weight? Life will go on! I am certainly not on the fast track to getting to it, why is that? Because it is my own damn fault!! I know that I am an emotional eater- however the emotions are not the good ones. I tend to eat when I am mad, upset, bored, and tired. Of course I eat when I am celebrating something or when I am happy, it is just not as much and as often as the other times!!! What does that say????

Last week was all about being sad, shocked and unprepared. I wouldn't say I ate alot, I just made bad choices. Oh well, last week is over, fresh start for this week.

Sunday I got up and had a protein bar and a glass of water, along with the Fat burner pill and the carb blocker. Off to the gym, I ran 3 miles. Before lunch I had 5 flips and a piece of cheddar cheese (in a stick like string cheese). For lunch we made turkey breast so I had some of that and a small scoop of mashed potatoes and some pea pods and cherry tomatoes, I took the pills again before I ate. Off for a bike ride- we did about 6.5 miles. We did stop at Candy Land and got some caramel popcorn, we all shared this and I didn't eat that much because the caramel hurts my teeth when it gets stuck and I can't stand it when I get a hull stuck and can't get it out!!!! Home for supper, I had a piece of cold pizza left over from Friday night and a a few grapes. Doing pretty good!! Snack time. I really didn't feel hungry just thirsty, I had drank a ton of water and a dt dew but it just wasn't doing it. You guessed it I had beer!!!! I had 3 of them and a few handfuls of Pat's popcorn. Later I had some flips and another piece of cheese!!! I would have had more beer but Pat and Sydney were counting for some reason so I quit at three, guilt I guess, why I don't know!!! I am an adult!! Off to bed

Today I had a protein bar and a glass of water, I took the pills again. Off to the gym where I ellipticaled for 2 miles on one kind of elliptical then switched to the other kind for 10 minutes. I didn't look to see how far I went on that one. Once I got home I thought I would check out my new boxing bag!! I loved it until it came crashing out of the ceiling!! I would like to think it was because I hit it so hard but my guess would be that it wasn't screwed all the way in or something. Which is weird because that is not like Pat to not get something right the first time!! Lunch was a turkey sand on a lite bun, some cherry tomatoes and jicima. I tried to make a dip for it, lite mayo, horseradish, garlic powder and cayenne pepper, tasty. I took the pills again. Sydney and I ran some errands then headed to Dunn Bros for a treat, I had a coupon so of course I had to get the biggest drink. We also shared a brownie, and yes I made her divide it EQUALLY!!! I got home and checked the calories of the big drink, which I dumped out the last 1/4 of it. 690 calories or something stupid like that!!! I knew it before I went that it would be bad so I am not going to beat myself up!! I had a few wheat thins ( a different kind, there long like a graham cracker) and a piece of cheese. I wasn't hungry at supper so I have not eaten anything.
I am really ready for a beer, I am just thirsty and have had water and part of a pop they didn't do the trick.

I hate the fact that the beer stares me in the face everytime I open the fridge door. Stop it, I am not running back and forth to it like you think.

Here is the kicker, I had gained back the 2 pounds the week of my friend and stayed at that weight last week. Today back down 2lbs, what the hell I ate crap and drank beer!!! Maybe I do focus way to much on it!!
We will see what next week brings!!!!