Thursday- Lots of energy

Today was a pretty good day. My lunch wasn't what I had planned but it sure was good. It wasn't bad, just not on my plan. i had a turkey sandwich on a lite ww bun and a serving of baked doritos and a dt.7-up. I know I hadn't had pop since Saturday and I blew it. blew it with the chips to but at least they were baked and I counted them!!! I also had a protein bar all around 1100. I did not eat breakfast so I just combined the protein bar with lunch. I went to the gym and did 6 miles on the elliptical, which was 67 minutes and 10 minutes on the stair stepper. I, believe it or not did some crunches and some stretching. I came home and around 3:00 had a lettuce salad with red peppers and pea pod, 1000 island dressing. At 6:30 I had egg beaters with a small amount of some sort of 15 calorie per serving cheese, all wrapped up in a 50 calorie high fiber tortilla shell, I was still a little hungry so I had another lettuce salad and a peach. I have had about 5 glasses and 2 bottles of water today. I know I need a "bed snack" as I am feeling a little hungry right now. I will post what I had in tomorrows blog. By the way my snack last night was a skinny cow ice cream sandwich and 16 pretzels.

Wednesday = weights!!

Today started with a chiropractor appointment, fun times, pretty sure he wasn't to happy I was heading to the gym afterwards. He thinks I just ran, I am pretty sure he would have said no to weights today because my lower back and shoulders still hurt a little. Oh Well!!!

The gym was BODY PUMP today!!! Fun times, (not so much) I hadn't been there since the middle of July so it was kinda hard today. I will feel it for sure tomorrow. Misty went with so that was fun and a nice change, however I believe she told me it had been 3yrs or so since she had last done the class. WELL she uses HEAVIER weights than me!!!! YOU GO GIRL!!! I will try to catch back up to those weights!!! I will be there again on Friday!! I still hate weights but at least going to this class MAKES me do them!!!!! There going to be redoing their studio floors the week before labor day so limited classes and times. Great just when I get back to going they throw a wrench in the routine. I will have to find something else to do for that week, better start planning now!!!

My food for today was a protein bar at 9:15
a chicken salad sandwich made with lite mayo and on a ww 80 cal bun around 11:105 I chopped up a whole chicken breast but I didn't eat it all on the sandwich and a cheese stick.
At 2:30 I had a lettuce salad with red peppers and 1000 island
4:30 I had a can of green beans with salsa
6:15 I had some of Pat's programs vegetarian sloppy joes. It is a 90 cal pak and you don't put it on a bun, or I made it wrong because it was more like watery chili. I had attempted some brown rice before I made that and it was disgusting alone, so I put about a tablespoon of it in the chili along with a tablespoon of cottage cheese. Not bad!!
I will have some sort of snacks yet tonight, maybe some popcorn, or a skinny cow ice cream sandwich or a peach. When I calculated my calories for today it is only around 700-800 I don't feel hungry but I don't want to be that low on calories because that can screw you up to!!! I have had about 6 glasses of water so far today, so I am up and running with that for the day any way. Running alright- to the bathroom.

Finding a balance Aug 18th food.

Today was what I would call eventful. I had a protein bar about 8:00 today. I got my first break at 10:00 which was the same time as yesterday but today I didn't have the chance to eat any veggies or fruit before I went on break. BIG difference. At 10:00 I had 1/2 a can of green beans with salsa ( I love this and could eat it every day). I know it was canned beans but to me a veggies is a veggie, who cares where it comes from, I know canned has more sodium. I should compare canned green beans with frozen sometime. (not a fan of frozen, to crispy). Along with the beans I had half a chicken breast. I had a yogurt mixed with some raisin bran without the raisins At 12:00 I had a sugar free jello (all while having to endure the smell of grandma shit pants). At about 12:30 I started to feel really icky, I was sweating and felt like I was going to throw up along with having the shakes really bad, I was also ready to pass out. I KNOW WHAT THIS FEELING IS!!!! LACK OF SUGAR AND CARBS. At 1:00 when I finally got my break I was so shaky it was horrible and I was so hot, this is gross but I could feel the sweat running down my back like when I workout really hard. I made 2 pieces of toast (the slices are smaller than regular bread because it is homemade) I tried to get butter on them but I was to shaky so I ate them almost plain. No, I SHOVED them in my mouth so fast Iam not sure I tasted it. I then finished my half a can of green beans and half of a chicken breast. I still felt "weird" so I had 2 more pieces of toast with PB and jelly only on one piece. Finally feeling a little better. About 2:00 I had 2 fortune cookies. Before going to the gym I had 4-5 animal crackers and a piece of string cheese. I did 4.00 miles on the elliptical. When I got home I had a small spoonful of mashed potatoes with smart balance butter, a salad with red pepper and 1000 Island dressing (FF) and turkey!!!! I have had 2 bottles of water and a bottle of sugar free peach ice tea. I know I need to get more water in, so hopefully starting tomorrow on my 3 days off I will be able to do this. Along with this I need to find a balance between the sugar and the carbs. It actually might not be the carbs but just the sugar. Since I was always eating so many carbs before, I know there was sugar in them. Let me tell you I hate the shakes and that sweating feeling!!! It is like having the bedspins standing up!!! Not fun. For me it is all timing, I thought having the yogurt was enough sugar but I guess not. I know that I can't let it happen again cuz it sucks.

I decided today as I was driving home from the gym, that I should look at this as a science experiment or like homework. It's like having on-going home work and my goal is like a final test/grade!!!!! Not sure where this thought came from, I must have seen a school sign or something, but it makes sense.

Aug 17th Food for the day

At about 8 this morning I had a protein bar, at 1030 I had a hamburger with one package of ketchup and mustard, NO BUN, and some tomato slices. Around 1200 I had some dried apples and some peapods and red bell peppers. I tend to leave these on my desk so that I can just grab some every once in awhile. At 130 I had half of a chicken breast mixed with the green giant steamed veggies and 1/2 cup cottage cheese. At 400 I had 16 pretzel bites and a piece of sting cheese. I knew I needed some kind of carb so that is why I had the pretzels but I counted them out. Wow a serving is hardly any. haha I then went to the gym and did 50 mintues on the treadmill for 4.50 miles. When I got home I ate a hamburger on half of a ww bun and some more tomatoe slices. I had a bottle of water and a couple of glasses today. Not as much as I wanted so I will try harder tomorrow.

Sunday Aug 16th- My food

This was a hard day to start this eating plan, I went to work at 3am!! By 3:30 I was starving, not sure how that works but I was. You will be please to hear that I had some dried apples to ward off the hunger. At 5am when it was time for my break I really wanted toast, but I didn't have any!!! At about 8:00 I had a protein bar, around 9:00 I had some pea pods and attempted some celery but it tasted like crap so I threw it away. At 10:15 I had green giant streamed veggies with a half of a chicken breast cut up in it. At 1:00 I had the other half of my chicken breast and a lettuce salad with some chopped up boiled eggs and a hint of cheese, and of course 1000 Island dressing. I got the dressing at work so I don't know the calories on it cuz it didn't say on the individual package. At 4:30 minutes before leaving for the gym I had 2 teaspoons of 1% cottage cheese. At 7:45 I had half a chicken breast and 3 teaspoons of cottage cheese. I also tried some of this cream of chicken soup they have on Pat's plan and it wasn't the best but I drank it. I have had 3 glasses and one bottle of water so far today. So for the rest of the night it will only be water!!!!! Look, how many processed carbs did I eat today???????? NONE!!!!! Look out tomorrow I will probably be crabby!! haha Off to a good start!!!

What size was that?

It's been a long time since I posted on here, the sad thing is that nothing has changed! It is sad!! I had a huge reality check while packing for ND for almost 2 weeks, what was it you ask? A large amount of my clothes were to tight!!!!! WOW, that one hurt!! I knew that I put on a few pounds but really!!!! That "fat" just likes to creep up on one!! I did do a little shopping and to my disgust I had to buy the next size up from what I was wearing. I could get the smaller one button but there was no way in hell I could ever sit down in it!! Plus who wants 10 fat rolls hanging over their waist band? I could deal with one or two but 10 not so much!!

I had some days filled with drama while on vacation as well, drama does not help me, it only makes me eat and want to have a few beers. Confession I think I had beer almost every night while on vacation. That wouldn't be so bad but I always have to eat something while drinking. I am going to have to give up the beer or give up the munchies with beer if I want to take some of this weight off!! Which will it be? Who knows!! I do only have one beer left in the fridge so I don't think I will buy anymore!!!! Oh the tears are flowing now!!! It is not that i need beer I just like it, one or two every now and again!!

Sharon totally pisses me off in her large weight loss, not that it bugs me that she lost it but how she "appears" to look down at anyone who has a fat roll or two. She constantly reminds people how good she looks and what size she is. I quit listening after awhile but I think it is between a 2 and a 4. This is my thought to her. SHUT YOUR MOUTH. I know she has been through more than I would ever want to deal with but let me tell you sister you lost the weight because of STRESS!!!! Not because you take your ass to the gym almost daily like I do. It just got very old all weekend. She also seems to feel she needs to be the center of attention. Well, I took the wind out of her sail at one point and I know she was pissed. We had just finished eating and I grabbed my stomach and said " nice spare tire I have started to carry around", my dad said " well mine isn't much smaller", Sharon looked at both of us with disgust. Then dad commented on how good Pat looked the day before when he saw him and I had said "he looks great, he is down 50lbs" Dad said " that is amazing". This is not a conversation my sister cared for so she quit listening and walked away. Can't she be happy for anyone but herself!!! IT DRIVES ME CRAZY!!! Do you think Pat likes to eat frickin chicken and veggies everyday?

That is enough about that drama, just had to get it off my chest!! Poof, gone!!! Wonder why I can't do that with my extra pounds!!! haha

This is my plan of action starting Sunday Aug 16th. Why the 16th and not tomorrow well, I go back to work tomorrow and we have had a happy hour planned for the last month so why try to eat well when I am going to drink, I just get pissed when I try and then screw up, so I am waiting until Sunday!! Might even have to call in sick on Saturday!!

This is how my plan should work!!!!!!!!!!

Step one, I am going to clean out my cupboards today and get rid of all the crap, yes that includes the chips but I am sure I will keep them for my emergency eating on Friday night when I get back from Happy Hour and for Saturday when I can't find anything to satisfy me because I drank the night before. Stop it I said I was starting on Sunday so I can have those damn chips and finish the chex mix maybe even the peach pie!!!!!!!!

Step two, prepare, I need to make whatever it is that I am going to eat and portion it all out and put it in the fridge for at least two days in a row. That way I can just grab it and go and there will be no deciding what I should have. I did this when I did WW and it seem to help a lot. My fridge will now be stocked with cooked chicken, and raw veggies. My plan is to sort of follow Pat's plan, how ever I like the Green Giant frozen steamed veggies so I am going to use some of them instead of eating lettuce all the time. Come on they have to be much better for you than a bag of chips.

Step three, I am going to try and not drink pop, I said try!! I am really going to try and drink more water. I love water what I don't like is having to pee every 5 minutes, it really sucks at work. You can't always go when you need to and then you have to take off all the equipment just so you can go!! A pain in the ass but I guess I am going to have to deal with it.

Step Four, the gym, I am going to try and start going back to body pump at least 2 days a week. I really don't mind the gym, when I don't feel like going I tell myself "just go and if you don't want to do a long workout, don't" on these days I usually get some of my best workouts in. I really want to try and start using my exercise ball at home. No, Sheryl I am still not going to use that thing again in public until I can not look like a dumb ass on it, so it may be never!!! Unless it is wall squats with it!!

Step Five, I am going to post what I eat daily on this page as a way to hold myself accountable. If I have to type that I ate a bag of chips it will be pretty embarrassing. No more closet eating for me. If I eat it, I must type it for the world to see!!!

I have not decided yet if I will weigh myself once a week or daily. It drove me nuts to not weigh everyday on vacation, but when I did I was pissed, everyone's scales are so different. Hell Buds said I was 15 lbs more than what I am at home!!! For me it is a reminder, so one day if it says one thing and the next day it is higher I know that I need to watch it more. But on the other hand I think that is what drives me so crazy!!!!!!! So I will have to figure that out by Sunday.

My goal is to lose 2 lbs a week, I think this expectation is realistic and healthy. I NEED to be at a lower weight by VEGAS TIME in OCT. A trip and some weight loss, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

Back to reality!!

I can't believe it has been so long since I have put anything on here!!! This page is what makes me some what accountable for my actions. When I can go back and read what I have been doing it is sometimes just the wake up call I need.
I have kind of given up on doing the new leaf program at the gym. It is so stupid because it is a 12 week program and I did it faithfully until about week 6. Why would I quit then? not sure. I am just not good at following a plan at the gym. I like to go in and do whatever I want to do. I am not sure why this is, I would probably see results if I followed a plan!!! haha

I did start the 5 week Lazy Man Triathlon at the the Y. For some reason I can do this, maybe because I can choose what days I want to run, walk or swim!!
I have done 11.25 miles of the run and 22 miles of the bike/elliptical. I choose to elliptical more than bike if I can because I burn way more calories on the elliptical than on the bike.

I am finding that my new shoes aren't as great as I thought they would be, they hurt my feet when I elliptical. So I guess I will use them for running and either get some new ones or use a miled out pair for the elliptical.
The other part that is a challenge for me is that I don't like to take to many days off a week at the gym when I do this Lazy Man therefore my legs are super sore ALL the TIME!!!
Today I could only elliptical 2 miles because my legs hurt so bad, but I biked for 5.5.
The thing about this is that I think I want to get it done as fast as I can! So in a sense it is a little challenge for myself to see how fast I can complete it. I hate the swimming part so that is where I will fall behind.

I tried to do the 3 day detox again, I started yesterday, I did great yesterday but had some pretzels and a handful of chocolate peanuts today!! I am so irritable if I don't eat carbs. No, this is not a way to justify having them, I "need" them. What I need to learn is that I don't need them in HUGE quantities!! There is a reason for the word "moderation"!!! I better look the meaning of that word up in the dictionary!

I had a really bad 2 weeks where I ate whatever I wanted and I didn't care. There was one day that I had about 6 cookies, I was so sick from all the sugar, it was so stupid. ( I am not a sweets person, I am more about the salt and the crunch). Someone at work says "why are you eating that crap, you always watch what you put in your mouth" here is the reason, I'M SICK OF WATCHING EVERYTHING I EAT AND SEEING ZERO RESULTS, how's that for an answer!!! I had a half a case of beer last weekend and of course had a blizzard after about my 6th beer!! Are you kidding me!!! However I did still go to the gym, so that was the plus side.

I am ready to get back on track, however this detox without the carbs is not really the way for me to do it. It worked better last time when I only ate chicken and vegetables. I ate the green giant veggies that had the sauce on them and mixed in the chicken. It was more like eating hotdish. I did cut way back on the carbs the week I did that, but I didn't eliminate them. That is a much better choice for me!! At least people can stand to me around me.!! I lost 6lbs!! (sad thing is I have gained them back, I think all of them last weekend) BOO HOO HOO, "you did it to yourself girlfriend"
I need to kick it into high gear so I can lose at least 1 fat roll before Vegas in Oct. I will shoot for 2 fat rolls by December. Maybe that will be enough for me to win the 500.00!!!! I could buy a very nice Christmas present for myself with that cash. However I did tell Shopper Hopper that we could do a couples weekend if one of us won, Come on Shopper Hopper a little help here would be nice!!!