No Joke, Commitment?

It is no joke that I have a phobia of commitment. With this being said I am making a commitment to myself for the next 28 days. We are heading to Las Vegas for a short, much needed vacation on April 29th. I am starting the commitment to myself tomorrow, April 1st. No it is not a joke, I am doing this!! This is what I have committed to doing for the next 28 days.

1)I will do the 30 Day Shred DVD daily. I did this back in Sept when Syl did this as a challenge. I missed 4 days out of the month doing it. I did well and lost inches, not pounds but inches. Gotta take what we can get.

2)I will eat healthy and make good choices. I will try and eliminate added sugars.

3)I will continue with the C25K training plan, I have one more time left this week and I will be on to week 3.

4)I will burn 1200 calories at the gym. This one scares me a little, I usually only burn around 700-800 in an hour, what this means for me will be longer workouts at the gym.

I can do this, right now the commitment to myself is for 28 days!!!!!

I think I figured out how to set my heart rate monitor to show my calorie burn. If I didn't get itright I will give it another shot tomorrow night!!! Probably has been programed right the whole time, I maybe just didn't know how to use it. That happens alot with me and technology!!!!

I am off for 28 days of pure............................ I will fill in the blank later.

Work in Progress

Week one of the Couch to 5K is now complete. I found a free app for the I-phone called Gym Boss. It is an interval timer, works wonderful for this training, and I am sure any other training. Well, that is if you remember to have your ringer on!! I completed the training then continued on the treadmill, I did a total of 55 minutes. I then jumped on the elliptical for 12 minutes. My intention was to stay on there longer but I had only eaten a protein bar for breakfast and was feeling kind of "weird" so I new I better stop while I was ahead. I came home and had a protein smoothie and now feel back to normal. Today my task will be to figure out how to cook chicken many different ways and still keep it interesting!! This week I really want to concentrate on eating more fruits and veggies. I really LACK in that area. I eat well calorie wise but the nutritional content leaves alot to be desired. Work in progress!!!

I got a feeling............

Why is it that I seem to lose and gain the same 5 pounds over and over again. This cycle has been going on now for about the past 3 years.

At night I will pack my lunch for the next day and lay out a plan in my head for my gym workout. I eat the lunch and as the day rolls on the gym workout doesn't seem to be as exciting as it was the night before. Even though I am tried and don't want to go to the gym, I do it!! Last Friday I did a strength training class with my friend, I was so sore for the next two days. Saturday especially, but once again I made myself go to the gym.

I feel all this excitement that I am doing the right things and then when the scale doesn't move or my clothes don't' feel any different I feel so defeated. I put in the work and don't get the results I think I deserve. It's the same kind of feeling you get when you know you are the best person for the job but they give it to someone else. How do you get over this defeated feeling? How do you turn defeat into accomplishments/success?

I'm back!!!!!

After taking 3 weeks off from the blog world I am back!! My time away was very emotional and stressful. On March 3rd my 29 year old sister in law lost her battle with Lymphoma cancer. She leaves behind a 25 year old husband and a 5 year old son. It all just breaks my heart. She was truly a fighter. What I can take from this is that our health is something that we shouldn't take for granted but for some reason we do, why is that?

I have made a few changes, for starters I canceled my WW membership, I am just not good at tracking, I know it is valuable but I can't see paying for something that I can't make myself do consistently and frustrates me. I did make a workout calender for March but with being gone for the funeral and emotionally drained that went by the wayside. However I did continue to workout at the gym, just not on the schedule I had planned which included weight training. Safer for me to stay with what I am comfortable with and know than to branch out during an emotional time. I have been concentrating on eating healthier and watching portions. It seems to be working well so far. I still need to get the water consumption up. Some days I do really good and others, I am lucky to get two bottles finished. I am going to a strength training class with a friend on Friday, that is the plan as long as she doesn't get called into work. Her gym, guess pass for me. If that falls through I will go to my own gym. It is starting to get nice out around these parts so hopefully some walks outside are in the near future.

I love the Hungry Girl show, she has some great ideas and I have one of her cookbooks and have pre-ordered the newest one. I think it comes the end of March. I have tried a few things, some I like and some are just not for me. I plan to make a few things out of the book I have this weekend.

For next week I want to have a menu planned, mix up my workouts, using the Shred DVD and the Master your Metabolism DVD, and use the treadmill more than the elliptical. Continue to eat healthier and watch portion control and up the water consumption. This is doable and I can do it!!!!

What is up with this?

I went to my WW meeting this morning since my lunch date was canceled do to bad weather. I had an AMAZING LOSS 6.6 pounds. Now one would normally be so happy about this but me, I am FREAKING OUT!! The reason, I did not track one dang thing all week, I ate out 4 times and only one time was it a WW friendly meal. I over ate when I was home, who eats half a jar of peanut butter and half a bag of pretzels in one sitting? I did!! However I did not eat supper that night, like that matters I didn't need to. I missed two days working out, and when I did workout I changed it up and did intervals but on a very easy level, was totally not motivated to work out. So how did I lose that much weight? My fear is that next week I will go back and I will have gained, plus I will go to the meeting at night. Today was a fluke for the daytime. I did drink more water than last week, but if that is what made the difference I will FORCE myself to drink more!! It can't be that simple.

I did the 30 minute Shred DVD and the Jillian Michael's Banish Fat Boost Metabolism today. The Banish Fat one is 50 minutes (5 min warm-up, 5 min cool down).I just bought that one this weekend because it was $7.50, some of it is easy, some hard, some moves I HATE, but a really good workout. Then I felt guilty for not going to the gym. What? I just worked out for over an hour, so why do I think I need to do workouts at the gym? I think it is because I am comfortable there but I ALWAYS do the SAME THING. I really need to change up my workouts so I am hoping that I can use these 2 DVD's to help me with that. After I'm done with this post my plan is to make a workout calender using these two DVD's and getting to gym. (Have to go to the gym 12 times for insurance discount) I need to visually see how I can make it work, childish, yes, but I have to SEE it!!

Please give me your thought's on the loss!!

Learning lessons the hard way

This has been a shit week, it started out shitty and I don't anticipate it getting any better. Sometimes that just happens, it's called life! We went to the Olive Garden for an early Valentine's supper on Sunday. Not a brilliant thing to do when you have a weigh in on Monday. This delectable supper lead to a 2.8lb gain on the scale. I was pissed. Why, I am not sure I knew that there would be no loss, however almost 3lbs hit like a ton of bricks. My eating since the weigh in has been good. I have been having really bad headaches all week. I really believe they are stress related, can't even blame it on not having carbs. Usually a good workout will help with the stress and the headaches. Not this week. Honestly I don't even have the energy or ambition to workout, yet I make myself do it!! I think this is a sign that I need to really think about what I have going on right now and decide worth it to worry about it or chuck it out the window and say good-bye!! It seems bad news has me on speed dial lately, I wonder if you can get on the no call list for that!!!! I declare next week a "stress free" week, I will have Monday off because of Presidents day so a short week should equal a good week!!!!

Feeling good

Normally I blog on Wednesday's guess I am a day late. Oops!!! I had my first week weigh in at WW on Monday and I was down 1.4lbs. I was happy with this, I had logged all my food and used all my points,plus all my weekly points even going over by 3. So I will take the 1.4. My frustration had come the week before when I did my initial weigh in and the scale at WW was 3lbs more than mine at home!! I am over that now!! I find that I am eating better and drinking more. I didn't go to the gym on Monday but I did the Shred DVD, I didn't go on Tuesday or Wednesday because I was LAZY and it was FREEZING COLD OUT!! That is an UN-motivator for me. I went today and watched Jennifer Hudson on Oprah, inspiring! What I didn't get about it is why her WW leader didn't want her to say how much weight she has lost, it was weird I thought!! I am hoping this week has a good outcome on the scale!!!! Gotta end this and get to bed going to work at 3am!! Better find some food, I always seem to be hungry when I work these weird hours. Gotta prepare!!!