Wacked out Weekend

Friday I was feeling much better! I got up and had a protein bar then headed out to Body Pump with Misty. After class we picked up the girls and went to lunch at Applebee's. I had the French Dip sliders and French onion soup. It was good except the soup was burnt on the top and I am not a fan of burnt food, so I didn't finish all of it. For supper I had a hamburger and tater tots from the Burger Emporium. Very good. Pat and I went down to Woodbury Days to listen to the band, and we shared some mini donuts.

Saturday was off to a good start, I had a protein bar for breakfast then off to the gym to try out my new shoes!!! LIVE STRONG NIKE'S!! love them. I did 3 miles on the treadmill in 35 minutes. While driving home we decided that we would get subs from Subway for lunch. I had a 6inch ham and cheese. I had a few fun-yuns with it when I got home and a dt dew. On the way home from the gym is when I got the call that Todd had died. This was such a shock!!! So very, very sad!! We then headed to the Eden Prairie Mall for a little shopping. On the way home we had to take the LONG way because of road construction so we stopped by Little Caesers and got a pizza and cheesy bread. Later that night we went to Woodbury days to watch the fireworks. I took a whiskey dt coke with me and shared some mini donuts with Pat and Sydney. After we got home I had another drink and a few pretzels with a teaspoon of PB.

Sunday I had a protein bar for breakfast then off to the gym, I think we walked a mile and a half. When we got home I had a handful of cinnamon almonds. We went to the Woodbury Days parade where I had a couple pieces of candy and a sample of chips and salsa. YUM!! Best parade ever!!! Good thing they give lots of fliers for gym enrollments!!! haha When we left we headed to Davanni's and had pizza and cheese bread!!!
Later in the evening I had a handful of almonds again and about 8:30 after being totally discouraged that I couldn't find anything to wear to the funeral on Thursday I had 2 more pieces of left over pizza.

This weekend was very rough!!! I ate horrible because of lack of planning, laziness and sadness!!!
One would have thought after I had a reality check for Fred's funeral that nothing fit that I should move my ass and make it fit. Well I have tried, I go up and down 2lbs all the time. Yes, I will be wearing the same pants and I did in March so that is a good thing, but they just don't fit like I think they should!!!!!! Way to much tummy on this girl!!!!!

I knew it would be a bad week because of my friend, but that should not have been an excuse to eat out as much as we did. I get so pissed at myself when that kind of crap happens!!!

I will try hard this week, but with the funeral that is 2 days that I won't get to the gym and I will be eating out more than I would like!!!! Life goes on.
As I sit here and type this I am feeling very guilty, Todd's family is grieving their hearts out and I am bitching because my pants don't fit, what the hell is wrong with me!!!! What would Todd say about this????? I am sure something that would make me laugh!!!! Rest in peace, we love you!!

Wed and Thursday- NOT GOOD

My female friend has been very unkind to me yesterday and today!!!! Hopefully she will leave tomorrow or Saturday!!!!! I had an ok day yesterday with eating, for awhile. In the morning I had a cup of oatmeal sweetend with splenda, then on my break I had chicken breast mixed with green beans and salsa, and a hint of cheese. I use a whole can of beans (no salt added) a whole chicken breast and how ever much salsa I want and mix it all together. On my first break I ate half of it and on my 2nd break I finished it. That is all I ate at work, and I worked until 5pm!! I got home about 5:45 (had to stay and chat with Amy) I was SO VERY TIRED!! I really wanted to go to Body Pump but I just couldn't do it! I took a shower then I consumed more food and calories than I have in 2 days I bet!! I had the tortilla lime chips (THEY ARE NOW GONE), I had a meat sandwich, summer sausage on 40 cal bread. I then had 2 PB&J sandwiches and a skinny cow!!! Oh I had some ginger snap cookies as well, I think 4!!! I know that I was eating because I was super tired and because of my stupid friend. I could have just went to bed but I wanted to see my husband when he got home. Not that it lasted long, I went to bed at like 9:45, he got home about 9:15!!!

Today- Thursday, I am super exhausted and my head feels like it is going to blow up. I went to work this morning and came home sick at 11:30. My head felt like it was going to blow up. I had some malt o meal at work at about 6:45, I never eat this early but I thought maybe I just needed to eat something for my head to feel better, didn't work. I had a bagel on my 1t break at 9:30 with a little PB, only because my friend Kim brought it for me. I came home and had a handful of chips and a bowl of Captain Crunch, (I only ate this so I could go to the bathroom, I knew it would work and it did) I took a nap for about 3 hours. I got up and had a BP &J sandwich and 2 cookies. I am craving something salty and we don't have anything!! I know I will try everything until I come across something that will do the trick. I will post what I had tomorrow!! I would really like some crackers but we don't have any!!! See if you don't have it in the house you can't eat it, normally that would be a good thing, however today it will be very hazardous for me because I will eat until I find what I am looking for!!!!
I have not been to the gym in two days now, I am going tomorrow even if my head blows off my shoulders while in body pump!!!!!

Tuesday= pain in the neck!!

Yes that is correct today I had a pain in the neck, literally. I went to the chiropractor at 4:45 then hit the gym. Not such a great idea, my neck hurt, my back hurt and weird but my face hurt. Not sure what he adjusted but something moved!! At the gym I was dying, my neck hurt and by lower back- funny thing is my lower back did not hurt before I went to the chiropractor!!! I did 4 miles on the treadmill in 44 minutes. I was happy with this, I think I ran 20 minutes without stopping to stretch, that is good for me. I ran anywhere from a 5.8 to a 6.5. I even left it on a .50 incline for half of it. It makes by back feel a little better with the incline, but my heart and legs don't like it so much!! I know it is hardly an incline!! I am a wimp!!

My food, last night I had some popcorn for a bed snack. Today I had a protein bar at 8:00, at 9:30 I had a half a cup of cottage cheese and green beans with salsa. At 12:30 I had a chicken breast and about 1/2 cup of spaghetti noodles with a hint of parmesan cheese. I had a couple of the small cookies again (Nikki made me do it, she had the other 2 out of the pack). At about 2:00 I had some grapes. When I got home all hell broke loose, I had some chips AGAIN!! I am telling you I never should have bougth those dang things, they will be gone tomorrow I am sure, pisses me off I can't stay away from them. I had 2 string cheese as well, oh and a protein bar. Gotta make it look good before going to the gym!!!!!!!!!! After the gym and my hard work there we got PIZZA----- Y, yes we did. I had 4 pieces and a half a piece of garlic cheese bread. The pieces are those little squares so I am not sure what that would be if it was regular slices. All I know is that I had way to much!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I will have a skinny cow before bed.

I am having my female friend visit me this week, normally because I get so sick she only visits every three months. Well, because I hate her so much I don't let her visit once every three months like I am suppose to so it's been about 6-9 months since she has been here. SO I anticipate this week to be full of eating surprises!!! She normally only stays for 3 days but for some reason I think she will be here longer this time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It so sucks!!!!!!!! I can't wait for this week to be over. I probably won't lose weight this week because of this, but I will be ok with that because I will know why!!!!!!

Monday- One more Body Pump

Let me start off with saying that my snack last night was a skinny cow ice-cream sandwich and a couple handfuls of Pat's popcorn, I was off to bed at 9:30. Slept the whole night!!

Today my food consisted of things I did not plan to eat. I had a protein bar at 8:00 with a handful of red grapes. I love red grapes but we hardly buy them cuz Pat and Sydney are not big fans. I like the fact that they are sweeter. At 9:30 I had a bowl of oatmeal sweeted with splenda. At 12:30 it was bad. I had some a couple spoonfuls of rice with a hint of gravy on top and 2 chicken patties. Yes, they were deep fried and were not what I thought I would be eating. I just love them. they remind me of the ones at Maggie's Drive Inn!!!! I did not have buns with them, just the patties. I drank about 32oz of water while at work today. When I got home I had 2 pieces of string cheese and some Lime Tortilla chips. I should never have bought that bag, I know I will finish the whole bag within the next couple of days. They are so good and so addicting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I had about 5 animal crackers and a teaspoon of peanut butter. I have been craving peanut butter like crazy!!!! We ate supper about 5:30 I had a 4oz hamburger pattie with cheese on a slice of 40 calorie bread and 3 cheetos.

Off to Body Pump, I wanted to get about 20 minutes in on the elliptical before class but I only got in 8 one mile!!

I added more weights when I did squats and bicep curls tonight so hopefully my arms won't be to sore tomorrow!!! I have a chiropractor appointment after work, so hopefully he can get the pain in my shoulders and neck to go away!!

I am cooking a chicken breast right now, so I can take it to work with me tomorrow!!

Sunday- Way to TIRED!

I went to work at 4am, that means that I had to get up at 3:05, not fun. I had about 32 oz of water between 4-8. I really wanted to eat at 5am but I didn't. I had some dried apples and a protein bar at 8:30. At 10:00 when I went on break I had malt- o meal sweeted with splenda and 2 pieces of toast with PB and Jelly (the small ones again). At 11:45 I had 16 pretzels with some PB. At 12:30 I was not hungry but was super tired so when I went to lunch I had an "institutional grilled cheese" This is toast, with butter, then you throw on some shredded cheese and microwave until the cheese melts. I also ate a potato wedge,which was so not worth the calories, it was cold and disgusting but I polished it off!! I had a pack of 4 small cookies, smaller than an oreo even. When I got home I had about 10 Lime chips and a little bit of Dt. Dew. I then fell asleep. Pat made steak and baked potatoes on the grill!!!! YUM YUM. So that was super, I also included a salad. I have had 3 glasses of water since I have been home. I know I ate way to many carbs and not really anything that I should have today but I was eating because I was tired. I know this. I will probably have some sort of snack later on tonight as well. I don't need to but............ I did weigh myself at 3:05AM, and at that time I have lost 2lbs since last Sunday. I am going to weigh tomorrow morning as well, just to see if it is the same. I am sure if would have weighed myself at 6:05- the time I normally get up I would have lost at least 10 lbs this week!!! hahaha I am happy with the 2- that was my goal, to try and hit 2 pounds a week!!!!!! First week= good results. I did not go to the gym today as I had hoped. I went all 7 days since I started this last Sunday with 2 days that were Body Pump!!! If I can keep this up, it will be awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday- Ok day

On Saturday we were suppose to have enchiladas at work, made my one of our co-workers sisters. Well the guy called in sick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was not hungry in the morning so I didn't have anything to eat until 10:00 when I thought I would have an enchilada, since there were none I had a small single serve pizza, that is what the cooks made us!!! I went on my second break at 12:30, what was in the dining room? ENCHILADAS!!! The guy called in sick but had someone drop them off for us. I surly didn't need any after eating the pizza but I paid my money so I was having some. The rice was GROSS, so one bite of that and I was done. The enchiladas- they were super small- she must have used the smallest flour tortilla that they make and they hardly had an cheese or sauce on them!! They were all stuck together in the pan so I think I had like 3, which on the plate didn't even look like one large burrito. They were not that AMAZING!!! It is hard to judge what I had as I said before they were stuck together. I had 32oz of water at work. When I got off I had 16 pretzels with a tablespoon of PB. I then headed to the gym. I did 5 miles on the treadmill, switching up the incline and speed, I did some running and some walking. I was ready to leave and Pat showed up so I walked 1 mile with him. I had a bottle of water on the way home. When we came home I did not eat. We went and ran some errands. At 9:30 when we were at Target I was hungry so I got a bag of Tortilla Lime Chips- I have passed these up a number of times before but tonight it wasn't happening. I had about 8- they are huge- that is a serving I think, it is 6 or 8. That is it, when I got home I had a piece of string cheese. Off to bed, they just called and want me to come in at 4am!!!!!! Tomorrow will be ROUGH!!

Another pump day & hidden calories!!!

Today I did Body pump with Misty again. I added a little more weight for when I did the back track and squats not to sore-YET, probably will feel it more tomorrow. My right arm is sore for some reason just in one spot.
On the food side of things I had a half of a protein bar and 3 bites of the Dr Oz green drink, yes I said bites my is really thick, all of this before going to the gym. I was hungry while at the gym however when I got home I wasn't but I made myself eat. I had a turkey sandwich on a lite ww bun and a cheese stick along with some green beans and salsa. I ran some errands and about 3:15 I had some a couple small pieces of turkey and a cheese stick. We decided to grab a bite to eat after Sydney's dance so that Pat could eat then hit the gym when we got home, have to hurry Vikings game is on!! So we went to Culver's yummy, or so I thought. I tried to be like Pat so I got a cheeseburger and yes a salad with 1000 island dressing. I asked for low-fat but they didn't have it. I dipped my fork in it then put salad on the fork instead of pouring it on top of it. I drank water. We get home and head to the gym, we had thougth about riding bike there but decided not to as Pat had to get gas and we had to stop at Target. Oh, the gym, for some reason my supper did not agree with me. I felt fine until we got there then all hell broke loose. Yes, TMI but I got the shits!! Not once but twice!! Needless to say I think Pat managed to get a mile in but me no luck!!! I had them again when we got home. Great!! For some reason I decided to look up the calories from our meal!! Well, the burger was 399 calories and the salad 229 and the dressing 200!!! that is 848 fricking calories!!!!!!! I thought I was doing well, if I would have had the damn fries the meal would have been 784 calories and I probably wouldn't have gotten the shits!!!!! I am so pissed about this!! You try hard and get sabotaged with hidden shit, how does a restaurant not have low cal or FF 1000 dressing????????????? I am going to be getting that book Eat this Not that!!! I can see why you need a book like this!!!! It's a good thing I didn't have much earlier in the day. I have had 3 glasses of water and 2 bottles today!!! I did have another protein bar about 9:00, my stomach felt weird so I thought I should eat something. SO those SHITS better reflect themselves on the scale. I am weighing tomorrow am just to check!!!!! I am going to have to be cautious about my foods tomorrow. Now I want the dang enchiladas to be spicy!!!!! Frustration!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!