What size was that?

It's been a long time since I posted on here, the sad thing is that nothing has changed! It is sad!! I had a huge reality check while packing for ND for almost 2 weeks, what was it you ask? A large amount of my clothes were to tight!!!!! WOW, that one hurt!! I knew that I put on a few pounds but really!!!! That "fat" just likes to creep up on one!! I did do a little shopping and to my disgust I had to buy the next size up from what I was wearing. I could get the smaller one button but there was no way in hell I could ever sit down in it!! Plus who wants 10 fat rolls hanging over their waist band? I could deal with one or two but 10 not so much!!

I had some days filled with drama while on vacation as well, drama does not help me, it only makes me eat and want to have a few beers. Confession I think I had beer almost every night while on vacation. That wouldn't be so bad but I always have to eat something while drinking. I am going to have to give up the beer or give up the munchies with beer if I want to take some of this weight off!! Which will it be? Who knows!! I do only have one beer left in the fridge so I don't think I will buy anymore!!!! Oh the tears are flowing now!!! It is not that i need beer I just like it, one or two every now and again!!

Sharon totally pisses me off in her large weight loss, not that it bugs me that she lost it but how she "appears" to look down at anyone who has a fat roll or two. She constantly reminds people how good she looks and what size she is. I quit listening after awhile but I think it is between a 2 and a 4. This is my thought to her. SHUT YOUR MOUTH. I know she has been through more than I would ever want to deal with but let me tell you sister you lost the weight because of STRESS!!!! Not because you take your ass to the gym almost daily like I do. It just got very old all weekend. She also seems to feel she needs to be the center of attention. Well, I took the wind out of her sail at one point and I know she was pissed. We had just finished eating and I grabbed my stomach and said " nice spare tire I have started to carry around", my dad said " well mine isn't much smaller", Sharon looked at both of us with disgust. Then dad commented on how good Pat looked the day before when he saw him and I had said "he looks great, he is down 50lbs" Dad said " that is amazing". This is not a conversation my sister cared for so she quit listening and walked away. Can't she be happy for anyone but herself!!! IT DRIVES ME CRAZY!!! Do you think Pat likes to eat frickin chicken and veggies everyday?

That is enough about that drama, just had to get it off my chest!! Poof, gone!!! Wonder why I can't do that with my extra pounds!!! haha

This is my plan of action starting Sunday Aug 16th. Why the 16th and not tomorrow well, I go back to work tomorrow and we have had a happy hour planned for the last month so why try to eat well when I am going to drink, I just get pissed when I try and then screw up, so I am waiting until Sunday!! Might even have to call in sick on Saturday!!

This is how my plan should work!!!!!!!!!!

Step one, I am going to clean out my cupboards today and get rid of all the crap, yes that includes the chips but I am sure I will keep them for my emergency eating on Friday night when I get back from Happy Hour and for Saturday when I can't find anything to satisfy me because I drank the night before. Stop it I said I was starting on Sunday so I can have those damn chips and finish the chex mix maybe even the peach pie!!!!!!!!

Step two, prepare, I need to make whatever it is that I am going to eat and portion it all out and put it in the fridge for at least two days in a row. That way I can just grab it and go and there will be no deciding what I should have. I did this when I did WW and it seem to help a lot. My fridge will now be stocked with cooked chicken, and raw veggies. My plan is to sort of follow Pat's plan, how ever I like the Green Giant frozen steamed veggies so I am going to use some of them instead of eating lettuce all the time. Come on they have to be much better for you than a bag of chips.

Step three, I am going to try and not drink pop, I said try!! I am really going to try and drink more water. I love water what I don't like is having to pee every 5 minutes, it really sucks at work. You can't always go when you need to and then you have to take off all the equipment just so you can go!! A pain in the ass but I guess I am going to have to deal with it.

Step Four, the gym, I am going to try and start going back to body pump at least 2 days a week. I really don't mind the gym, when I don't feel like going I tell myself "just go and if you don't want to do a long workout, don't" on these days I usually get some of my best workouts in. I really want to try and start using my exercise ball at home. No, Sheryl I am still not going to use that thing again in public until I can not look like a dumb ass on it, so it may be never!!! Unless it is wall squats with it!!

Step Five, I am going to post what I eat daily on this page as a way to hold myself accountable. If I have to type that I ate a bag of chips it will be pretty embarrassing. No more closet eating for me. If I eat it, I must type it for the world to see!!!

I have not decided yet if I will weigh myself once a week or daily. It drove me nuts to not weigh everyday on vacation, but when I did I was pissed, everyone's scales are so different. Hell Buds said I was 15 lbs more than what I am at home!!! For me it is a reminder, so one day if it says one thing and the next day it is higher I know that I need to watch it more. But on the other hand I think that is what drives me so crazy!!!!!!! So I will have to figure that out by Sunday.

My goal is to lose 2 lbs a week, I think this expectation is realistic and healthy. I NEED to be at a lower weight by VEGAS TIME in OCT. A trip and some weight loss, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

Back to reality!!

I can't believe it has been so long since I have put anything on here!!! This page is what makes me some what accountable for my actions. When I can go back and read what I have been doing it is sometimes just the wake up call I need.
I have kind of given up on doing the new leaf program at the gym. It is so stupid because it is a 12 week program and I did it faithfully until about week 6. Why would I quit then? not sure. I am just not good at following a plan at the gym. I like to go in and do whatever I want to do. I am not sure why this is, I would probably see results if I followed a plan!!! haha

I did start the 5 week Lazy Man Triathlon at the the Y. For some reason I can do this, maybe because I can choose what days I want to run, walk or swim!!
I have done 11.25 miles of the run and 22 miles of the bike/elliptical. I choose to elliptical more than bike if I can because I burn way more calories on the elliptical than on the bike.

I am finding that my new shoes aren't as great as I thought they would be, they hurt my feet when I elliptical. So I guess I will use them for running and either get some new ones or use a miled out pair for the elliptical.
The other part that is a challenge for me is that I don't like to take to many days off a week at the gym when I do this Lazy Man therefore my legs are super sore ALL the TIME!!!
Today I could only elliptical 2 miles because my legs hurt so bad, but I biked for 5.5.
The thing about this is that I think I want to get it done as fast as I can! So in a sense it is a little challenge for myself to see how fast I can complete it. I hate the swimming part so that is where I will fall behind.

I tried to do the 3 day detox again, I started yesterday, I did great yesterday but had some pretzels and a handful of chocolate peanuts today!! I am so irritable if I don't eat carbs. No, this is not a way to justify having them, I "need" them. What I need to learn is that I don't need them in HUGE quantities!! There is a reason for the word "moderation"!!! I better look the meaning of that word up in the dictionary!

I had a really bad 2 weeks where I ate whatever I wanted and I didn't care. There was one day that I had about 6 cookies, I was so sick from all the sugar, it was so stupid. ( I am not a sweets person, I am more about the salt and the crunch). Someone at work says "why are you eating that crap, you always watch what you put in your mouth" here is the reason, I'M SICK OF WATCHING EVERYTHING I EAT AND SEEING ZERO RESULTS, how's that for an answer!!! I had a half a case of beer last weekend and of course had a blizzard after about my 6th beer!! Are you kidding me!!! However I did still go to the gym, so that was the plus side.

I am ready to get back on track, however this detox without the carbs is not really the way for me to do it. It worked better last time when I only ate chicken and vegetables. I ate the green giant veggies that had the sauce on them and mixed in the chicken. It was more like eating hotdish. I did cut way back on the carbs the week I did that, but I didn't eliminate them. That is a much better choice for me!! At least people can stand to me around me.!! I lost 6lbs!! (sad thing is I have gained them back, I think all of them last weekend) BOO HOO HOO, "you did it to yourself girlfriend"
I need to kick it into high gear so I can lose at least 1 fat roll before Vegas in Oct. I will shoot for 2 fat rolls by December. Maybe that will be enough for me to win the 500.00!!!! I could buy a very nice Christmas present for myself with that cash. However I did tell Shopper Hopper that we could do a couples weekend if one of us won, Come on Shopper Hopper a little help here would be nice!!!

Detox day 1 part of day 2

So the detox began yesterday!! First let me tell you that there are no carbs in these 3 days!!!
Yesterday started out good, I ate my two eggs for breakfast and half and orange, off to the gym. When I came home I had salad with turkey,(not deli, the real thing), tomatoes, and celery, 2tablespoons fat free 1000 dressing. I finished the other half of my orange as well. So about 3:30 I am dieing for some carbs, do I do it, can I make it. Not!! First I had one Ak-Mak cracker, this doesn't do it so I had about 10 pretzels with a hint, yes just a hint of PB. Later I have to go to the store to get eggs, I'm thinking I am starving here, what should I have. I went to McDonald's and got a plain chicken sandwich and an iced coffee. I could have the chicken just not the bun!!! I think I needed the carbs to = out the beer I drank the night before. I felt kinda icky all day. What do you expect when you keep all the carbs away from a carb junkie? I hate that feeling. So a few things I shouldn't have had, but I am ok with that.

Day 2, 1 egg this morning, then off to the gym, lunch was a salad with chicken, tomato and celery and ff 1000 dressing. I ate 3 orange sections as well. About an hour after that I ate my other egg, minus the yolk. Since I am working tonight I have packed another salad and some celery sticks. This better work!!! I will blog tomorrow if I was able to stay on track at work!!!

Lost all control!!!!

Today I had a HORRIBLE day at work, the Happy Hour idea didn't pan out and I lost all self control. Lets see I had a lemon bar at 7:10 this am to start my day off cuz the overnight LT pissed me off ( he wasn't even there at this time, left me a note). Then I had some chips, cheese and salsa, thanks gym girl, I told my co-worker Kim I had this really good salsa at your house and she showed up with the same stuff minus the corn!!! I had a cookie, a turkey sandwich, and some sort of foreign meat with spaghetti sauce and noodles, I think it was suppose to be chicken parmesan!!! That was at work, Home, pretzels with PB (dipped by me so you know I loaded on the PB) the rest of the disappointing smore goldfish, pizza, cheese bread, 3 beers (so far) and I believe Pat and Sydney are bringing a blizzard for me on their way home from the store!!! ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!!!!!!

SO, tomorrow I am going to do the 3 day detox from Pat's plan then start the plan myself again on Saturday!!!!
Why couldn't I have just went to the gym and ran FOREVER tonight instead of eating and drinking all night? I need to find a new way to deal with stress, I am really considering a punching bag. Don't have room for one, but I can hang it from something in my garage for the summer!!!! Imagine hitting that in the winter!! NOW that would be a lesson learned!!!
Ok pity party for myself is over, I will finish my happy hour at home tonight and get back on track tomorrow!!! I only have one more cold beer so I shouldn't feel hung over. However these 4 chilled very fast in the freezer!!!!

Weights = laughter!

So my last blog said that I used a 22lb bar for body pump, I was so excited about it that I just had to tell Trevor at work when I saw him. WELL, he informed me that it is not 22lbs, he said 11. I think that he is WRONG, but when I go to the gym I forget to go in and check for myself. My intention was to go to Body Pump tonight and do my new leaf training, but I decided to have Pat spot me in the weight room instead. Does this sound funny? It sure was!!!! I didn't do as much as I would have in the hour long class, however I lifted heavier weights. My arms are already sore. At first I think I am this wonder women when in reality I am a wimp. I do not know how to use my chest muscles and I tend to grip the bar so hard that my hands hurt before the muscles that I am suppose to be working do!!!! If you needed a good laugh that was the place to be!!! I did do 45 minutes on the elliptical so that was good.

My plan is to go to the gym tomorrow, however I might go to happy hour with my friend Nikki, I asked her on Saturday and she had to check her overbook social calender so not sure if it will happen!! I told her we could just have a couple, but that is not the way is seems to go when I go to happy hour, last time I only had 26.00 and managed to stay for 5 hours!!! Happy Hour= no gym.
Unless I could get my butt out of bed and go in the morning. Not likely. I haven't been sleeping at nights again so I could just as well get up and go but I don't!!!
My plan is to go everyday this week, so hopefully I can do that!!

Open the toolbox, girlfriend

I can't believe it is June 10th already!!! wow, with this weather I thought it was April!!! What is frustrating is that when I have my days off it RAINS, not that we don't need the rain, but help me out here, I do work 6 days in a row how about one of them!!

This past weekend I went with my sister to my niece's soccer tournament, now when I say cold, I mean cold!!! I wore snow boots and a winter jacket, that is not a joke, I might have looked like a freak, but I was still stink'in cold!! At least they won 1 of the 3 games!! It was nice to see but not much fun, not to mention I was up at the butt crack of dawn both days to attend, not something I do on my days off. Look at how nice I can be!!

My new leaf is still going well, I had planned to do it all last week, but Wed and Thursday I worked late, one night until 8 the next until 11. (money, money, money, no time off cuz I can't stand being there) I could have went to the gym on Wed when I got off at 8, but I thought it would be much better to sit in front of the TV and eat. I did not eat good stuff either. No excuses I just didn't do it.
Monday I did spend two hours at the gym, one doing cardio and one doing Body pump.

Today I should have done two hours again to get back on track with the cardio but I just did Body pump, however I used the 22lb bar today!!!! I am so Excited about that!! I may not be able to lift my arms tomorrow but it sure felt good today, I even added weight to the bar!!!! At one point I had 40lbs on it for squats and something else. I hate squats no matter what I do they hurt my lower back, however I have just figured out that when you push your butt back you also have to point it downward, sounds dumb but that is what they tell you. I really, really have to concentrate while doing this!! Because my back always hurts that would be the reason I don't load the weight for squats!
I always wondered why when I did the chest track that my chest never hurt, well good old Trevor told me the last time he and I were at the same class that I have to squeeze my chest more and not use my arms. Why, thank you my friend, now my chest hurts. It is amazing how if you do it right you get more out of it!!!

The Y always does a Lazy Man triathlon in the summer, I think I am going to spend the $10.00 and do it again this year, I did it one other year, you have 5 weeks to complete it. Anyone want to do it with me? You can do it from anywhere (you just won't get the Y prize) you walk/run 26.2 miles, elliptical or bike 112 and swim or row 2 or 2.5 (whatever a triathlon is) I will get the exact numbers if anyone cares to join me!! It was actually kind of fun, I did the running in less than a week last time. Ok Gym Girl, if you read this I am going to break it down for you,(5 miles a day X5 days=25 so a little over one more mile to finish).hahaha The swimming sucked I left it all for the last week, who knew swimming 2 miles would take the whole week and almost kill me!!! Note to self for this year, do not do that again!

I would go back tonight to do the cardio but I think I'd better get my bathrooms cleaned, they are screaming at me!!

My friend Kim got me started on iced coffee, I don't really like coffee, but I have craved it the last couple of days, so today I got a mint something at Caribou, sad thing is I KNOW this will make me SICK!!! Is this some sort of disorder, knowing you will get sick and still consuming it? Like an anorexic will purge because they feel guilty and need to get rid of it, where I will go the other way and just get the runs, I know this so why do I do it? It doesn't make the dang scale go down any quicker. However if I had one everyday, then would it? hahah just kidding, I am not like that, plus the fact that I am to cheap to spend $4.60 on a dang coffee everyday!!

I really need to kick it in the butt, if I think that I am going to win the $500.00 at Christmas time for the family contest. Last time I talked with Judy she was down like 20lbs (thank you WW) myself still only 10. Mom, not sure if she is doing it or just pays her $10.00 a month, Sheryl, what are you doing???? Get off vacation and get back to the gym and this blog page with all your support for me!!! Shantel not sure about her either, last time I talked with her she was at a plateau (stop the beer and the scale will move).

I thought I was headed for a total of 11lbs lost last week, but when you eat a container of honey cinnamon almonds in 3 days it AINT GONNA HAPPEN FOR YA!!!!

Pat is doing so well on his plan, he has some cheat stuff but nothing compared to me, besides almonds my other craving is peanut butter on pretzels!!! Are you kidding me!!

I have decided that tomorrow June 11th I will once again eat what I am suppose to, good luck with that!!! Just kidding I know I can do it and I do feel better and have more energy when I eat healthy, but sometimes Culver's just calls my name!!! (If I would just remember to take the dang pills that control hunger, which really do work, it wouldn't be so hard) See, stupidity on my part once again!!!!

If I have the tools in my tool box why can't I build a healthier body!!!

Off to a good start

I am off to a good start on my new leaf training, I got all my cardio workouts in last week just not the strength ones. I did go to gym 4days in a row!!! Pat and I rode bike up to the gym and back yesterday it is about 6miles all together, it was a bit windy otherwise it was really nice!! I wouldn't mind riding by myself but we go thru part of a park that is woods, it kind of creeps me out. Guess I would learn to ride faster if I was by myself!! My intention was to ride to the gym, do a short workout and ride back, well I did not do a workout, but I did go in a get my YMCA perk, 10 free guess passes if anyone wants to take advantage of those with me, please do!!! So if you count stopping at the front desk as going to the gym then we can make it 6days in a row!

Today I did 22 minutes on the elliptical and then did the Body Pump class, so I am on track with the strength training for the week (No, you don't have to remind me that the week just started) hopefully I can get all three in. I did hear from one of the veteran Body Pumpers that going three times a week is really hard, glad to hear that, I still plan on trying to go three times but if I can't I won't feel so bad!!! I actually was suppose to do 45 minutes on a cardio routine today so hopefully tonight we can get a bike ride in!!!