Detox day 1 part of day 2

So the detox began yesterday!! First let me tell you that there are no carbs in these 3 days!!!
Yesterday started out good, I ate my two eggs for breakfast and half and orange, off to the gym. When I came home I had salad with turkey,(not deli, the real thing), tomatoes, and celery, 2tablespoons fat free 1000 dressing. I finished the other half of my orange as well. So about 3:30 I am dieing for some carbs, do I do it, can I make it. Not!! First I had one Ak-Mak cracker, this doesn't do it so I had about 10 pretzels with a hint, yes just a hint of PB. Later I have to go to the store to get eggs, I'm thinking I am starving here, what should I have. I went to McDonald's and got a plain chicken sandwich and an iced coffee. I could have the chicken just not the bun!!! I think I needed the carbs to = out the beer I drank the night before. I felt kinda icky all day. What do you expect when you keep all the carbs away from a carb junkie? I hate that feeling. So a few things I shouldn't have had, but I am ok with that.

Day 2, 1 egg this morning, then off to the gym, lunch was a salad with chicken, tomato and celery and ff 1000 dressing. I ate 3 orange sections as well. About an hour after that I ate my other egg, minus the yolk. Since I am working tonight I have packed another salad and some celery sticks. This better work!!! I will blog tomorrow if I was able to stay on track at work!!!

Lost all control!!!!

Today I had a HORRIBLE day at work, the Happy Hour idea didn't pan out and I lost all self control. Lets see I had a lemon bar at 7:10 this am to start my day off cuz the overnight LT pissed me off ( he wasn't even there at this time, left me a note). Then I had some chips, cheese and salsa, thanks gym girl, I told my co-worker Kim I had this really good salsa at your house and she showed up with the same stuff minus the corn!!! I had a cookie, a turkey sandwich, and some sort of foreign meat with spaghetti sauce and noodles, I think it was suppose to be chicken parmesan!!! That was at work, Home, pretzels with PB (dipped by me so you know I loaded on the PB) the rest of the disappointing smore goldfish, pizza, cheese bread, 3 beers (so far) and I believe Pat and Sydney are bringing a blizzard for me on their way home from the store!!! ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!!!!!!

SO, tomorrow I am going to do the 3 day detox from Pat's plan then start the plan myself again on Saturday!!!!
Why couldn't I have just went to the gym and ran FOREVER tonight instead of eating and drinking all night? I need to find a new way to deal with stress, I am really considering a punching bag. Don't have room for one, but I can hang it from something in my garage for the summer!!!! Imagine hitting that in the winter!! NOW that would be a lesson learned!!!
Ok pity party for myself is over, I will finish my happy hour at home tonight and get back on track tomorrow!!! I only have one more cold beer so I shouldn't feel hung over. However these 4 chilled very fast in the freezer!!!!

Weights = laughter!

So my last blog said that I used a 22lb bar for body pump, I was so excited about it that I just had to tell Trevor at work when I saw him. WELL, he informed me that it is not 22lbs, he said 11. I think that he is WRONG, but when I go to the gym I forget to go in and check for myself. My intention was to go to Body Pump tonight and do my new leaf training, but I decided to have Pat spot me in the weight room instead. Does this sound funny? It sure was!!!! I didn't do as much as I would have in the hour long class, however I lifted heavier weights. My arms are already sore. At first I think I am this wonder women when in reality I am a wimp. I do not know how to use my chest muscles and I tend to grip the bar so hard that my hands hurt before the muscles that I am suppose to be working do!!!! If you needed a good laugh that was the place to be!!! I did do 45 minutes on the elliptical so that was good.

My plan is to go to the gym tomorrow, however I might go to happy hour with my friend Nikki, I asked her on Saturday and she had to check her overbook social calender so not sure if it will happen!! I told her we could just have a couple, but that is not the way is seems to go when I go to happy hour, last time I only had 26.00 and managed to stay for 5 hours!!! Happy Hour= no gym.
Unless I could get my butt out of bed and go in the morning. Not likely. I haven't been sleeping at nights again so I could just as well get up and go but I don't!!!
My plan is to go everyday this week, so hopefully I can do that!!

Open the toolbox, girlfriend

I can't believe it is June 10th already!!! wow, with this weather I thought it was April!!! What is frustrating is that when I have my days off it RAINS, not that we don't need the rain, but help me out here, I do work 6 days in a row how about one of them!!

This past weekend I went with my sister to my niece's soccer tournament, now when I say cold, I mean cold!!! I wore snow boots and a winter jacket, that is not a joke, I might have looked like a freak, but I was still stink'in cold!! At least they won 1 of the 3 games!! It was nice to see but not much fun, not to mention I was up at the butt crack of dawn both days to attend, not something I do on my days off. Look at how nice I can be!!

My new leaf is still going well, I had planned to do it all last week, but Wed and Thursday I worked late, one night until 8 the next until 11. (money, money, money, no time off cuz I can't stand being there) I could have went to the gym on Wed when I got off at 8, but I thought it would be much better to sit in front of the TV and eat. I did not eat good stuff either. No excuses I just didn't do it.
Monday I did spend two hours at the gym, one doing cardio and one doing Body pump.

Today I should have done two hours again to get back on track with the cardio but I just did Body pump, however I used the 22lb bar today!!!! I am so Excited about that!! I may not be able to lift my arms tomorrow but it sure felt good today, I even added weight to the bar!!!! At one point I had 40lbs on it for squats and something else. I hate squats no matter what I do they hurt my lower back, however I have just figured out that when you push your butt back you also have to point it downward, sounds dumb but that is what they tell you. I really, really have to concentrate while doing this!! Because my back always hurts that would be the reason I don't load the weight for squats!
I always wondered why when I did the chest track that my chest never hurt, well good old Trevor told me the last time he and I were at the same class that I have to squeeze my chest more and not use my arms. Why, thank you my friend, now my chest hurts. It is amazing how if you do it right you get more out of it!!!

The Y always does a Lazy Man triathlon in the summer, I think I am going to spend the $10.00 and do it again this year, I did it one other year, you have 5 weeks to complete it. Anyone want to do it with me? You can do it from anywhere (you just won't get the Y prize) you walk/run 26.2 miles, elliptical or bike 112 and swim or row 2 or 2.5 (whatever a triathlon is) I will get the exact numbers if anyone cares to join me!! It was actually kind of fun, I did the running in less than a week last time. Ok Gym Girl, if you read this I am going to break it down for you,(5 miles a day X5 days=25 so a little over one more mile to finish).hahaha The swimming sucked I left it all for the last week, who knew swimming 2 miles would take the whole week and almost kill me!!! Note to self for this year, do not do that again!

I would go back tonight to do the cardio but I think I'd better get my bathrooms cleaned, they are screaming at me!!

My friend Kim got me started on iced coffee, I don't really like coffee, but I have craved it the last couple of days, so today I got a mint something at Caribou, sad thing is I KNOW this will make me SICK!!! Is this some sort of disorder, knowing you will get sick and still consuming it? Like an anorexic will purge because they feel guilty and need to get rid of it, where I will go the other way and just get the runs, I know this so why do I do it? It doesn't make the dang scale go down any quicker. However if I had one everyday, then would it? hahah just kidding, I am not like that, plus the fact that I am to cheap to spend $4.60 on a dang coffee everyday!!

I really need to kick it in the butt, if I think that I am going to win the $500.00 at Christmas time for the family contest. Last time I talked with Judy she was down like 20lbs (thank you WW) myself still only 10. Mom, not sure if she is doing it or just pays her $10.00 a month, Sheryl, what are you doing???? Get off vacation and get back to the gym and this blog page with all your support for me!!! Shantel not sure about her either, last time I talked with her she was at a plateau (stop the beer and the scale will move).

I thought I was headed for a total of 11lbs lost last week, but when you eat a container of honey cinnamon almonds in 3 days it AINT GONNA HAPPEN FOR YA!!!!

Pat is doing so well on his plan, he has some cheat stuff but nothing compared to me, besides almonds my other craving is peanut butter on pretzels!!! Are you kidding me!!

I have decided that tomorrow June 11th I will once again eat what I am suppose to, good luck with that!!! Just kidding I know I can do it and I do feel better and have more energy when I eat healthy, but sometimes Culver's just calls my name!!! (If I would just remember to take the dang pills that control hunger, which really do work, it wouldn't be so hard) See, stupidity on my part once again!!!!

If I have the tools in my tool box why can't I build a healthier body!!!

Off to a good start

I am off to a good start on my new leaf training, I got all my cardio workouts in last week just not the strength ones. I did go to gym 4days in a row!!! Pat and I rode bike up to the gym and back yesterday it is about 6miles all together, it was a bit windy otherwise it was really nice!! I wouldn't mind riding by myself but we go thru part of a park that is woods, it kind of creeps me out. Guess I would learn to ride faster if I was by myself!! My intention was to ride to the gym, do a short workout and ride back, well I did not do a workout, but I did go in a get my YMCA perk, 10 free guess passes if anyone wants to take advantage of those with me, please do!!! So if you count stopping at the front desk as going to the gym then we can make it 6days in a row!

Today I did 22 minutes on the elliptical and then did the Body Pump class, so I am on track with the strength training for the week (No, you don't have to remind me that the week just started) hopefully I can get all three in. I did hear from one of the veteran Body Pumpers that going three times a week is really hard, glad to hear that, I still plan on trying to go three times but if I can't I won't feel so bad!!! I actually was suppose to do 45 minutes on a cardio routine today so hopefully tonight we can get a bike ride in!!!

Back after the weekend!!

It's hard to believe that it is almost June!!! Since I started this weight loss journey back in January I have managed to lose 10 lbs, that is all fine and good but I need it to be more!!! Or maybe I should say I want it to be more!!!

Since we got back from the weekend in Fargo, today is the first day back to the gym and it was horrible, I did not even want to go! Last week when I was sick I thought it had passed, NOT! I was sick again Monday night, so I made an appointment for Tuesday and went in. The dr thinks I have a stomach virus or bacteria, she did some blood work (yes, 5 TUBES) so we are waiting to get the results back, for now some sort of medicine to help with the acid or something and something for the nausea. Great stuff, good thing for insurance it was $158 but with insurance it was $12, just for the nausea medicine. So hopefully I will be feeling better soon. The gym was closed on Monday, Tuesday I had the dr appointment and did not feel like working out. Today I went to work at 3am, came home took a 2.5 hour nap, did not want to go to the gym but did. I did 62 minutes on the elliptical and hated every minute of it. However I should have went to Body Pump to stay on track with my new leaf workout but I skipped that. If I don't do it when I feel good, why the heck would I do it when I am not at my best!!!

My job is really stressing me out right now, and I don't feel the best, when will it all stop!
I must say that the weekend in Fargo was so fun and really relaxing. Thank you to my wonderful husband for taking me to my all time favorite place in Fargo, Johnny Carinos. Bowtie pasta, Italian Margaritas and Cheesecake, what more could you ask for? Nothing except when can we go again? Hahaha

Back to reality!

Here I am thinking I have a half hour to get ready to go to the gym for the 2nd time today, I worked out this morning, did my new leaf workout and since this is a strength day I need to go back from 8-9 for body pump, this is the only day they don't have a class in the morning. No I am not thrilled to be going back but I figure it is one less thing to do tomorrow.



I planned out my workouts for this week and got my sticky notes ready to put on the machines so I know exactly what I need to do when I am there. Good for me, yes a laid out plan, well Wednesday I was sick so that threw the whole plan off. I need to do 3 days of strength training and we all know I can't do this on my own, so I go to body pump, my plan for this week was Monday, Wednesday and Friday. Since I couldn't go on Wednesday it is all messed up, so I will miss a day of strength unless I do something on my own Sat or Sun? Maybe!!



When I was sick it was weird it was like someone was punching me in the stomach really hard, topped with nausea. Not fun!!!



I found this quote in a magazine and I think it speaks volumes!!!! "The first weight you lose is what you carry on your shoulders" (asics shoes). This is so true for me anyway, I take things way to personally and I think that things have to be perfect or done to my expectations and I am sure that I don't know how to "really" relax.!!

What I've learned is that I CAN NOT CONTROL THINGS OR OTHER PEOPLE. When I let go, I am so much more happier. It is really not worth it to internalize things and be miserable, this is how I see the weight on my shoulders being lifted is learning to "let it all go". For me this needs to include my obsession for weight loss!!

What I don't get it that I am obsessed about going to the gym, obsessed about the number on the scale, but when it comes to food the obsession goes the other way, I am obsessed with it. Why is that? I try really hard to eat healthy, but then this little voice says "yes, you can have just a small bite, or have a little it won't hurt, you can work it off" It is so frustrating!!! I need to find a way to get rid of the "little voice"!! I know how hard I work at the gym and eating crap only makes me have to work harder, now why would I want to do that? My philosophy has always been "work smarter, not harder" I thought I did this but I know that I don't when it comes to eating then having to work it off!!!

One thing I am getting better at is when we go out to eat, I have been making better choices, I always think if I am going out to eat, I am certainly going to have what I want. This is so dumb, it is not like we don't go out often, but my mind somehow thinks "this might be the last time I go out, so why would I have something healthy.

This coming week is going to be screwed up for me with Monday being Memorial day, I work and the gym is only open until 4:00, therefore no Body Pump, my hope is to at least get some sort of cardio in when I get off work, either a walk or a bike ride!!!