Good Day

Today was a good day. I had an ice-coffee from McDonald's this morning ready and waiting for me at work!! Thanks Bea, she thought I needed one since I was so upset about yesterday's coffee fiasco. I had that then at 9:30 I had yogurt and a single serve bowl of cheerios. At 12:30 I had turkey chili with a little shredded cheese and a 90 calorie special K bar. At 3:30 I had 3 chocolate covered peanuts, a 100 calorie pac of pretzels and one piece of sting cheese. I had a Dt Dew to!! Off to the gym, I wanted to go to Body Pump at 6:40 but I knew that if I didn't go when I was feeling like it I would have skipped the gym all together so I decided to let Body Pump fall to the weigh side tonight and just do cardio. I did 4.85 miles in 50 minutes!!!! What a rush!!! Syd said I was a monster!! haha I came home and had cauliflower and cottage cheese mixed together for the "mock mashed potatoes" and a pear. I ate the damn pear with the peeling and part of it is still stuck in my throat. ICK!!! I have only had two glasses of water so far so I need to kick that in the butt a little more before going to bed. Syd could seriously be a "mini Jillian" she was hilarious at the gym tonight, I might just have to pay her the 5 bucks and hour she said she would charge me!!! She is a little loud so people were staring and laughing at us!! Who cares it was fun!!!!!!

Not feeling it!!

What can I say, I do not feel like going to the gym lately!!!! What is up with that? I have been planning on going to Body Pump since I got back from Vegas but I just don't feel like it. I have only been to the gym twice since we got back.
Today is the 1st of Nov and this is what I ate. I was suppose to be off today but ended up working for a friend at the last minute so that I can have Dec 26th off. Stupid that she couldn't pick a day closer to mine but whatever!! Anyway, I decided that I should get an Iced Latte at McDonald's on the way to work. I ordered it with fat free milk and sugar free syrup. It cost $3.52, what the hell it is usually $2.38, whatever, I sat in line for 15 minutes and when I pulled up they handed me something hot. I was so pissed I told them that is not what I ordered and they hesitantly asked if I wanted the iced one. I did not have time to wait for them to make it so I told them that and left with the hot one!!! I got to my post at work at 7 right on the button!! I took the lid off and took one sip and thought I was going to vomit, it was so strong. I gave it to my co-worker so at least it didn't go to waste. Hence the reason I took the lid off to taste it. GROSS. Not a good start to the day. I had a 90 calorie special K bar, yum at about 7:30 at 9 I had a protein bar, at 9:30 I went on break and had expired yogurt and a single serve bowl of Honey Nut Cheerios!! My co-workers assured me that I could eat the yogurt, I didn't even eat it all. I spoon it on to the cereal instead of milk since it tends to make me sick. At 12:30 I had yummy turkey chili that I made with a small spoonful of shredded cheese and 3 packs of crackers. I also had a teaspoon of BLT salad, it always looks so good but tastes like crap!!! I came home and had a couple of handfuls of pumpkin seeds made by my two favorite boys!! A bite size Reese's and small pack of peanut M&M's. For supper at 5:00 I had some turkey, and about a tablespoon of mashed potatoes. Ok trying something new here. I took cauliflower and mixed it with 2 teaspoons of cottage cheese, the recipe calls it mock mashed potatoes. It was very good!!!!!!!!!!! I could really eat these instead of real potatoes. I also tried to make homemade cranberry sauce using splenda. It was a little tart but ok!! I have had about 5 glasses of water and one dt mt dew. I just ate my fun size frozen snicker bar!!! I am good for the night!! I ate really well today.

Documentation is your friend!

I better post something since I say we should do it daily!! haha I am with Sheryl, I just can't stay committed to eating right and exercising much anymore. There was a point in time when I would read the Fitness or Women's Health magazine from cover to cover, wonder where those days went!!! I think for me when I see results I am motivated, no results 0 motivation!!!! DUH!!! When I was at the dr the other day she told me that trainers say most people think they are working out hard enough to make a difference when in reality they aren't. That must be true and I must be one of them!!! DANG IT!!!
My newest thing is when I come back from Vegas I am going to put all my heart and soul into this weight loss, healthy eating thing. I know that I can't buy the chips and I can't eat the ice-cream, which by the way has been making me sick again, but I still do it!!! STUPID!!!! It is so weird before Pat started his plan we would eat almost the same things weekly, It might not have been healthy but there were really only 5 or 6 things that we ate. Burgers, spaghetti, tacos, chicken and Lasagna, so why is it so hard for me to eat "limited" food now? Before we ate chicken so why is it so dang hard for me this time. I do like it, guess I need to love it. It is so stupid, I made vegetable beef soup the other night. LOVE it and I made it with all low sodium seasonings and broth, why not sure cuz Pat won't eat it!!! So what do I do, look in the fridge for lunch and decide I need to have a ham and cheese sandwich and some chips. Are you kidding me, why did I make the dang soup!!!!! So tonight after I had an afternoon snack of a blizzard, for no reason at all, it didn't even taste good, I had some soup. I was not hungry but felt guilty that I had made it and hadn't had but one bowl of it!!!! Those are the stupid things I do!! At about 7:30 I realized I have had NO WATER today, none!!! I did go to the gym but only walked the track for half and hour so I didn't even take a water with me. However I have had a bottle and half of dt mt dew and a 20oz cappuccino while out and about!!!! How stupid!!!! I just told Pat last night, I need to quit drinking the pop, because it makes me want to eat, it gives me a horrible stomach ache most times and I DON"T NEED IT!!!! I try not putting it in the fridge but then when I want one I just pop it in the freezer for half and hour!!!! What gives????? I need to look at healthy eating as a part-time job, one thing I have learned from ALL my jobs is that "documentation is your friend", I guess I need to adopt this saying and use it to journal my foods, thoughts and habits!!!! look the food log is already finding it's way in my "After Vegas Journey".

My friend- FRUSTRATION

I think I fell off the face of the earth for awhile, no not really, just plagued by my old friend FRUSTRATION!!! I can't stand it when she comes to visit, oh who am I trying to kid, she LIVES with me. She is with me 24/7 and I don't know how to tell her to LEAVE!!!! I do have some ideas on how to get her to take a long deserved vacation.

I went to check out what I thought was going to be this great opportunity to do a boot camp 2 times a week today, only to find out it was a total scam, if you want my opinion. First off they weren't going to have an hour long class 2 nights a week like they said, they also said that you didn't have to belong to their gym to do the class. Well, you don't have to belong but you do have to pay a $150.00 fee to get a 3 month membership to their club, then their classes are either a half hour a night 4 nights a week or an hour a night 4 nights a week. So the cost was between $450-650 depending on the class. NO THANK-YOU!! They had a nutritional part with this camp and the lady I met with kept saying the "software" we use, but never said what. Their web site does though, they use the dailyplate.com!! IT IS FREE TO ANYONE!!! They can't give you a meal plan as they are not nutritionists. So back to square one on the eating part even though they say they "can help you". I also asked how the class was set up. Usually they have about 10 people and it is done in their studio with free weights and your body weight used for the strength part. They do jumping jacks, push ups and sometimes circuit training. NO MACHINES!!! So in reality this sounds just like the boot camp they have at the YMCA and I can do it for FREE. I have actually tried the class and didn't care that much for it, the other bad part is that it is only offered in the morning.
So with all this disappointment I decided that I can try and come up with my "own" boot camp plan and I can use the dailyplate as a food guide.
Tonight I did take a quick look at the daily plate. It says I should have like 1532 calories a day in order to lose 2lbs a week. I put all the food that I ate in it today and the sad thing was I was only over on calories by 28. ARE YOU FLIPPING KIDDING ME!!! I ATE 3 ZINGERS FOR THE LOVE OF MONEY!!!!!!
The lady at the boot camp consult had told me that the food plan is based on 40% carbs 30% fat and 30% protein, so with this in mind on the daily plate, even though I was only over my 28 calories I was out of the ball park on the % of each today. ( However I am not sure how to figure that out, if I can have 1532 calories a day don't I divide that by .40 to find what % of carbs you need to get to 40%). Sheryl figure this out for me and let me know. ( all 3) I know you are dying for something to do at work, and since working with numbers is your job, I know you will get it right!!!
With this said, I can see where it is the combination of foods that you eat that will have the biggest effects and show results!! ( This is also what the lady said today). By the way they recruited her to be a trainer, so not sure if she even went to school for it, however she did do their boot camp) whatever!!!!

My big plan is to try and put my foods into the daily plate each day, continue trying to do body pump 3 days a week and maybe change up my cardio routine a tad. I will see where this leads me. If I start seeing results then I should be strong enough to kick FRUSTRATIONS sorry ass right to the curb!!!! If your lucky she won't land on your doorstep when I kick her so hard!!

Focus- one day at a time!

I have been thinking about this a lot lately. I totally let my weight "weigh" on my mind!! I need to find some place else to focus my thoughts, what I don't know is how I am going to do this but I am going to try and figure that out!!

I did cardio on Sunday, body pump on Monday, cardio and boxing on Tuesday, I took Wednesday off and did cardio and a little boxing tonight. I have really been trying to eat 'healthy". I did have a blizzard on Tuesday which was a ton of calories but I really didn't eat that much the rest of the day.
Of course on Tuesday I had to rush out and buy the Jillian Michael's diet pills. There are two kinds a fat burner and a calorie control, which is suppose to reduce calorie intake and help fight diet fatigue. I was a little concerned about the caffeine in them, however the calorie control one doesn't bother me. I did take the fat burner last night and thought I was going to be sick, but I think it was because I hadn't eaten much.

Because of last night I was a little freaked out to take the fat burner today so I didn't and I only took the other one once. This is what I ate. I had oatmeal cookies made with a packet of weight control oatmeal, I smashed up a fresh peach to get a fruit in the easy way. I had yogurt mixed with cheerios for my first break. It was a single serve bowl of cheerios, (budget cuts at work but we buy single serve instead of bulk, go figure). I had some celery and some jimica about 1230, as my break was late. For lunch at 1:00 I had rice with a little chicken gravy (this was my choice since I felt like crap last night and didn't make anything to take). When I got home I had some chips and a bowl of cereal. I wasn't even hungry. I think I eat at this time out of habit. THAT NEEDS TO CHANGE!! I then went to the gym. This is all I have had today and I can say that I am not really hungry. I am sure that I will have some sort of snack before bed but I will try really hard to make it healthy! I have had alot of water today. I also had half of a dt coke. I didn't have any dt dew in the fridge and I am not a huge fan of dt coke unless it is mixed with whiskey!!!
Almost forgot my friend Kim had me try rutabaga-raw. I don't know what the hell this is suppose to taste like but I thought I was going to throw up!!!!!

Getting back into it

My eating for yesterday was ok in the am then down hill from there. I had a protein bar in the morning then hit the gym. I ellipticaled for 4 miles. We had a few errands to do in St.Paul. fun fun. I had to get new work pants, and the good news is I didn't have to go up a size from what I have, however at 40 bucks a crack I better only go down, I will not need to buy any new ones if I can make that happen as I have about 10 pair in my closet waiting to help me out when I need it. It is a really shady area that I have to go to, I think anyway so I make Pat come with me!! We decided that we were going to go out for lunch at Carboni's love that place, I had a meatball sub. I only ate about half of it and brought the rest home. For supper at 5:30 we went to Applebee's for Sydney's first day of school supper. I did not order a meal. However I seemed to have polished off a bunch of chips and salsa with my perfect margarita, some of Sydney's fries, a bite of Pat's steak, a little bit of Misty's 3 Cheese Chicken Penne and 2 mozzarella sticks. How is that for not ordering my own food. SAD!! I probably ate more this way than if I would have ordered something. Sad thing was, I really wasn't that hungry!!! I also had a skinny cow ice cream sandwich later in the evening!! WHY, WHY, WHY do I do this!!!!

Wednesday was and ok morning, I had oatmeal and 2 pieces of toast with PB& J. For lunch I had some tatar tots and turkey. All is good for the most part until I get home. I finish the rest of the meatball sub, have a bunch of pretzels with PB (the jar is now gone) and a bowl of Captain crunch!!!! This was more ridiculous than last night!!!! I took a little nap then headed to body pump.

My goal for the rest of the week, is to eat good stuff including veggies and to hit the gym and work out harder than I have been. I will not go to the gym on Saturday as I work from 7am until 11pm. But I will try to eat good that day as well. Cross your fingers and we will hope for the best!

What if?

What if I don't make my Vegas goal weight? Life will go on! I am certainly not on the fast track to getting to it, why is that? Because it is my own damn fault!! I know that I am an emotional eater- however the emotions are not the good ones. I tend to eat when I am mad, upset, bored, and tired. Of course I eat when I am celebrating something or when I am happy, it is just not as much and as often as the other times!!! What does that say????

Last week was all about being sad, shocked and unprepared. I wouldn't say I ate alot, I just made bad choices. Oh well, last week is over, fresh start for this week.

Sunday I got up and had a protein bar and a glass of water, along with the Fat burner pill and the carb blocker. Off to the gym, I ran 3 miles. Before lunch I had 5 flips and a piece of cheddar cheese (in a stick like string cheese). For lunch we made turkey breast so I had some of that and a small scoop of mashed potatoes and some pea pods and cherry tomatoes, I took the pills again before I ate. Off for a bike ride- we did about 6.5 miles. We did stop at Candy Land and got some caramel popcorn, we all shared this and I didn't eat that much because the caramel hurts my teeth when it gets stuck and I can't stand it when I get a hull stuck and can't get it out!!!! Home for supper, I had a piece of cold pizza left over from Friday night and a a few grapes. Doing pretty good!! Snack time. I really didn't feel hungry just thirsty, I had drank a ton of water and a dt dew but it just wasn't doing it. You guessed it I had beer!!!! I had 3 of them and a few handfuls of Pat's popcorn. Later I had some flips and another piece of cheese!!! I would have had more beer but Pat and Sydney were counting for some reason so I quit at three, guilt I guess, why I don't know!!! I am an adult!! Off to bed

Today I had a protein bar and a glass of water, I took the pills again. Off to the gym where I ellipticaled for 2 miles on one kind of elliptical then switched to the other kind for 10 minutes. I didn't look to see how far I went on that one. Once I got home I thought I would check out my new boxing bag!! I loved it until it came crashing out of the ceiling!! I would like to think it was because I hit it so hard but my guess would be that it wasn't screwed all the way in or something. Which is weird because that is not like Pat to not get something right the first time!! Lunch was a turkey sand on a lite bun, some cherry tomatoes and jicima. I tried to make a dip for it, lite mayo, horseradish, garlic powder and cayenne pepper, tasty. I took the pills again. Sydney and I ran some errands then headed to Dunn Bros for a treat, I had a coupon so of course I had to get the biggest drink. We also shared a brownie, and yes I made her divide it EQUALLY!!! I got home and checked the calories of the big drink, which I dumped out the last 1/4 of it. 690 calories or something stupid like that!!! I knew it before I went that it would be bad so I am not going to beat myself up!! I had a few wheat thins ( a different kind, there long like a graham cracker) and a piece of cheese. I wasn't hungry at supper so I have not eaten anything.
I am really ready for a beer, I am just thirsty and have had water and part of a pop they didn't do the trick.

I hate the fact that the beer stares me in the face everytime I open the fridge door. Stop it, I am not running back and forth to it like you think.

Here is the kicker, I had gained back the 2 pounds the week of my friend and stayed at that weight last week. Today back down 2lbs, what the hell I ate crap and drank beer!!! Maybe I do focus way to much on it!!
We will see what next week brings!!!!